Anger hit me so fast I realized that it had never really gone anywhere merely taken a back seat, temporarily, to a stronger emotion. I almost turned to attack him when I realized it wasn't his fault that my house is going to get trashed. Or that a pack of vicious monsters were chasing us. Or that my life got so turned around in just a little bit of time that I no longer even understood what manner of creature I was. It was nice to have a convenient scapegoat to direct all of my anger at but I've never been one to just spew at who's closest. I've been on the receiving end too many times and I've never been one to simply pass along hardship.
The hungry sound of the creatures behind us had faded as we kept up the faster speed. I decided it was safe to head in the right direction when I realized we were actually already at the lot where I park my truck when I am not using it. Which, unfortunately, is most of the time. Good thing I have a contingency plan for needing it without planning to. I was already shimmying under the truck bed to get the spare key before Naughty even reached us.
"You two stay in Wolf form until we have a chance to grab Juliet and some clothes that will fit you," I was speaking out loud as much to include Rachel in the conversation as to try and steal some small iota of normalcy back.
"Actually, I was gonna suggest that if we need to get out of town, I go get Juliet, our car and some stuff. Then just meet you at your house after we're all packed up," I was formulating arguments before the sentence had even finished. I didn't want to split up. My gut was screaming for me to keep everything I cared about within arm's reach. I was already fighting off hyperventilation thinking about Juliet home by herself.
"Look, I know what I heard and I could see that those aren't normal wolves even if you weren't just speaking to them like people. If something like them is what's been chasing us then we are all taking a mini vacation far away from this city," I opened my mouth to protest again but was silenced by an authoritative upraised palm.
"I had already arranged for both of us to take two weeks off when I thought you were dead, so unless you're going to have a spontaneous resurrection, or Jules and I suddenly stop having been your friend for five years, we still need to take that time. I for one am not trying to sit trapped in my house for that time waiting for the huffing and puffing to start," My instincts were screaming at me to say no, to stop her, to knock her unconscious and roll her in the floor mats if need be. I probably would have done just that if I couldn't hear her heart pounding and smell the fear clinging to her skin, instead I pasted a brittle smile on my face and nodded.
"Ok, yeah that sounds like a plan," I fought to keep the tremor from my voice, "You call me when you leave your house and I'll call when I leave mine that way we don't just rush past each other," I couldn't stop tears from filling my eyes. I guess even after all this I still don't have enough self-esteem to stop the words, floating amorphously at the back of my mind from escaping my lips.
"If you don't want to meet back up, that's fine," I couldn't maintain steady eye contact while I said it but I forced the words past the burning lump hovering somewhere between the pit of my stomach and the back of my throat. "Just let me know so I don't die waiting for you to come out of your house or something," I laughed nervously trying to relieve the tension looking at anything but her. She was silent for so long I thought she was trying to gather her thoughts to blow me off until white hot pain snapped my head around. My cheek throbbed with my pulse but I was almost too shocked to feel it.
"Don't you fucking ever..." a small sob bubbled up from the back of her throat, she seemed to be trying to gather her thoughts and catch her breath." I left the love of my life at our house alone to come back and help you face some giant unknown monster with nothing more than my off duty piece...," she took a shuddering breath, "I am gonna go to my house throw some shit in a bag and be at your place in fifteen minutes if I have to knock Jules unconscious and pack for her. You are going to stop being stupid. I love you, I would never abandon you," she wrapped her arms around me pulling me in for a tight hug.
I started to tense up like I normally would with this much physical contact but then I made myself relax and hug her back. She startled then squeezed tighter before letting go and racing off back down the ramp to the street. I blinked the tears from my eyes and opened the door for the twins to get in before hopping in on my side. I turned the fan on in the car to get some circulation. It felt weird not to just put the windows down in weather like this but I didn't want to leave any more of our scent around than I needed to. I was staring out at the sleeping city wondering why the air wasn't blowing and realized I hadn't actually started the car. I went to put the key in the ignition but the key kept missing the wavering keyhole.
The scarred back of a masculine hand entered my field of vision. The touch to my hand was tentative and gentle as he guided the key into the slot and turned the engine over. I raised my eyes and stared into the compassionate eyes of Nice. I shook my head and turned away. As much as I appreciate the probably-necessary concern we didn't have time for the hovering breakdown. If I could just last a few more hours then I'd be able to indulge but not till everyone is safe. I heard another ominous howl in the distance and knew we weren't there yet. But that shelf in my head was about to collapse under the weight of everything I hadn't had time to process since my miraculous resurrection.
I glanced out of the corner of my eye at the too beautiful man and the giant Wolf squeezed into my passenger seat and decided to come up with some better coping mechanisms because I don't think I've hit the bottom of the rabbit hole yet.