The world is a big place; while I was young, it stretched away in every direction for as far as I could see. As I grew so did the world, it seemed that the horizon retreated as I grew, there was always more to see. Of course, I was also more visible.
I became aware after an unknown number of seasons (perhaps fifteen, perhaps sixteen) that I was male. It was a shock to me to perceive differences in my fellows. I could discern the differences; I saw Male and female as; well different!
I must have been in another world with other priorities before this and the tall much taller than me female in plain view was magnificent. Trouble was of course, there were many other competing males, many other smaller females. As I took in the surroundings, I could see literally hundreds of them. I had just one advantage I was the closest to this magnificent beauty, this Goddess.
I tried to look larger, I stood as tall as I could and worked hard at increasing my stature. I worked hard, but she seemed to avoid me. I was despondent and went into rather a decline. My only solace was that she had not noticed any of my rivals either.
Eventually I revived, safe in that knowledge I was closest. I was now just a bit bigger than my nearest rival was and she seemed to be showing some interest!