The world is a big place; while I was young, it stretched away in every direction for as far as I could see. As I grew so did the world, it seemed that the horizon retreated as I grew, there was always more to see. Of course, I was also more visible.
I became aware after an unknown number of seasons (perhaps fifteen, perhaps sixteen) that I was male. It was a shock to me to perceive differences in my fellows. I could discern the differences; I saw Male and female as; well different!
I must have been in another world with other priorities before this and the tall much taller than me female in plain view was magnificent. Trouble was of course, there were many other competing males, many other smaller females. As I took in the surroundings, I could see literally hundreds of them. I had just one advantage I was the closest to this magnificent beauty, this Goddess.
I tried to look larger, I stood as tall as I could and worked hard at increasing my stature. I worked hard, but she seemed to avoid me. I was despondent and went into rather a decline. My only solace was that she had not noticed any of my rivals either.
Eventually I revived, safe in that knowledge I was closest. I was now just a bit bigger than my nearest rival was and she seemed to be showing some interest!
I tried my hardest, but again she ignored me. I saw others come close to her but fail. I watched them, part with glee, part with sorrow. I knew I would have to do better than them to win her. Then I became sad as I saw the effect of her rejection upon the two suitors that had almost made it. I sank back into depression.
I needed a strategy, I needed to watch, to build my strength, to improve my stature, to improve my status and eventually she would recognize me. I began a waiting game. For many seasons, I put all my energy into improving myself. I saw many potential mates try and fail. I waited, perhaps, you could call me a coward, perhaps, just not competitive, or even just plain unsuited. But I strove harder and ever harder, my status improved with every others failure. My investment in my own stature paid dividends and then at the beginning of the season when I had decided to make my move I became aware of another, she was smaller by quite a bit, but she was delightfully slender. I postponed my attempt to win the day, this newcomer warranted some study.