***The characters referenced in this story are Sixth-Formers, aged 18, or they are teachers. No character is any younger than 18***
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When I come to, I'm in not in Seph's affectionate embrace.
Not, in fact, close to her at all. Her bed is comfy, but the beautiful nightmare is pacing, muttering something to herself. When I lift my head she stops, blushes, swallows a rapidly-formed lump in her throat.
'We need to talk,' Sephalla says. 'About us. About what just happened.'
What just happened? Well, my belly is still quite full of her creamy load, and I can still taste the demonic deliciousness of that dick, but...Seph does not look happy. At all. In fact, I've never seen her so concerned. Not even earlier today, when she was so set that all was doomed. More concerned than the time when it seemed she was going to be in pretty serious trouble for having her diary get around.
This newfound concern is its own beast, a worry not before shown.
I sit myself upright, feeling refreshed, if a little paunchier than I should be. 'What's up? Did something happen?'
Sephalla the Magnificent, in her gothic-punk chic attire, fishnets and black jeans shorts, and a tight-fitting t-shirt, gives me a look of complete vulnerability. A look that almost pleads for help, for assurance, though she's not yet managed to state the problem. Words are, so often, harder than the faces we pull.
'I fucked up,' Seph says. 'Bad. Well, kind of, I guess it depends.'
'On what?'
'How, um, long were you planning to live?'
The question hits strangely, because it has multiple facets. On first viewing, it's just weird. Like who asks that kind of thing? I've never thought about how long I'd like to live, what the big plan is -- being eighteen is luxurious like that -- and so on the surface, it takes me back a bit, throws me into my thoughts.
But then it gets darker, a sudden rollercoaster drop, vertically inclined. Because if Seph is asking this, and looking concerned, then maybe she's done something. Or forgot something, and is only now remembering.
Like, I don't know...maybe demon-horse cum is toxic?
And that thought has me passingly gaze at my slight belly bulge, imagining horn-tipped little demon tadpoles doing something evil inside me. It really did feel, after all, like her jism was doing something to my soul, as well as my stomach.
'Have you poisoned me? Am I going to die?'
Seph winces, grits her pretty teeth, black lips hinting at pearly fangs. 'Um...about that?'
Oh no. Oh shit no.
'How long do I have, dude?'
She runs a hand through that living blue fire, knocking the emo fringe portion aside. 'So if I've done what I think I have -- and my Dad's on his way home now -- then...potentially forever?'
The mental picture of what to do in my last minutes or hours or days or weeks is suddenly shelled from orbit, rendered into a wasteland, a picture of endlessness. Plains, wild and untamed, stretching on some sunlit expanse to every horizon and yet surely going far beyond any limits imaginable.
For-ev-er.
Forever. Eternally. Endlessly. Infinitely. A concept, a series of concepts, that the human brain -- dealing with lifetimes, decades, simple things that mean nothing in geological timescales -- simply can't sink its cognitive teeth into.
'Forever? Why would I...?'
Her wince deepens, and Sephalla glances away. 'Um, I might have put a little bit too much of me into that load I fed you? And I really hope you like the way my hair looks, and can think up some good explanation, because your eyes are kind of...fire-blue, now.'
I scramble to free my phone, turning the camera onto selfie mode. Staring at my face, familiar, yet with something utterly novel about it. That my pupils are ringed by blue-flame sclera, the previous greens swallowed by that infernal light. Not like Seph's hair, to be exact, but almost similar to her coal-seam eyes. Vaguely demonic, to say the least.
'What's happened, dude? What did you do?'
She crosses her arms against her breasts and leans back against the wall, just inside her bedroom door. 'So...if a nightmare -- demons generally, but I can only speak about myself -- mates with a non-demon, we've got this trick we do. This thing to ensure that the situation remains to our liking. Because it'd fucking suck to want someone so bad and yet know that, one way or another, they're going to die. Which means that--'
'Wait, you think getting your dick sucked is mating? And you just go around turning a load of mortals into immortals?'
'No,' Seph says. She sighs, shuts her eyes. 'Just the ones we really, really like. The ones we think we're going to...going to keep around.'
I blush a little, at the meaning, if not the evasiveness of her word choice. No wonder it felt like her sperm were doing something to my soul. They were, in fact. But at the same time, given all of Seph's misgivings and difficulties between us, I can understand why she's being so coy about the whole thing.
Forever is a lovely idea, albeit a bit quick to leap onto.
'Does it cost you anything?' I say, putting my phone back. 'I haven't become a problem?'
She sighs again, a little louder. 'No, Jake. It's my bad. The only thing you might cost me here is a bit of pride, if this falls through, like I'm pretty sure it will.'
I slip to the edge of the bed, momentarily marvelling at the height of it. The drop to the ground is a lot more than I'd expect it to be, so I sit myself there on the precipice, legs dangling, feet a metre off the floor.
Sephalla's cheeks are flush, her eyes aflutter. Beautiful as always, shy as she can sometimes be, especially around me, and especially when the topic of conversation is our feelings and the way things are going.
'Do you want to talk some more about that? To vent your worries?'
Her mood softens, and she smiles. 'Don't be so soft, loser. I'm just being silly, is all.'
'I just don't want you to think that you can't discuss these things with me, okay?'
Seph nods. 'I get you. It's fine. Honest.'