Quick warning: there's nothing sexy in this chapter. It rounds out the story and provides closure, but there isn't so much as a decent grope. My apologies -- it just didn't fit in with what was happening.
- Chicklicks xoxox
When Anabeth woke, Sekhemkhet was still beside her, his arm draped around her waist as he slept. As quietly as she could, she slipped from her bed, picking up her dressing gown from where it had fallen on the floor, and went to the washroom.
With the door closed, she looked at herself in the mirror, needing to take stock of the situation that she was now in. Her face was flushed, and her hair was a mess. She looked as wild as her thoughts.
Concentrate
, she instructed herself. She didn't have much time.
First, and most importantly, she had to define what was happening with Sekhemkhet. He had made it clear, in his slippery way, that they would not be married unless she bore his child, which coincided with what Wadjet had claimed. Anabeth was almost certain that she could not mother his children, so where did that leave her?
Anabeth resolved that she would get an answer from Sekhemkhet this morning:
if she is not Henutsen reincarnated, then what does that mean for them
? If he avoided the question, or refused, then no answer would have to suffice as an answer in itself.
Her lack of feelings over that possibility gave her pause. If there was no future with Sekhemkhet, why was she not afraid? Why was she not heartbroken? Was it possible that lust could exist in by itself, without real love affecting her?
This led her inexorably to her other problem. As soon as she began to think about William, she began to worry. Had she wounded him yesterday? Would he consider it a rejection? Would he still want her now? Anabeth wondered how it was possible to have so many conflicting feelings about the one man.
As Anabeth looked at herself in the mirror, she felt the realisation wash over her. The answer was glaringly simple. Two men -- one who brought forth very little emotion, and another who brought forth so much. Again, Beth was frustrated by her lack of understanding. She felt as though she needed a book on the subject -- a clear and concise guide to whether or not you are in love.
Whether or not it was love, the pressing matter at hand now was what to do about it. Anabeth had to tell Sekhemkhet that, despite agreeing to stay in Egypt, she would not be his Queen. She
could not
be his Queen, for a multitude of reasons.
Beth looked to the mirror again and nodded at herself, then ran the tap and splashed some water on her face, before patting it dry. She took a comb through her hair and retied her dressing gown before turning to the door.
It is best to have it done with
, she told herself.
The sooner, the better.
However, when Anabeth opened the bathroom door, her bedroom was empty.
The bedsheets lay flat and lifeless on the bed. She moved to the balcony and checked there, but there was no sign of Sekhemkhet. His clothes from the night before had disappeared as well.
So much for that plan
, Anabeth thought. Perhaps it was for the best, though. It would be smarter to speak to William first. Especially after what happened to Robert. A ripple of shame ran through her to think that she had just abandoned the man to an asylum. He wasn't her first choice to marry, but he didn't deserve that.
Turning to her wardrobe, Anabeth started to get ready for the day. Her first stop would have to be the museum, just to show face. Then she planned to go to Sophia's, which she conveniently had the address for on her invitation to the dinner next week. Anabeth just hoped that William was staying with his Aunt.
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It was four in the afternoon. Anabeth was drenched with sweat and she was in a foul temper.
Beth had visited the museum quickly once she had readied herself for the day. What should have been a quick visit unravelled into something horrible when, as she was about to leave, Beth found Sekhemkhet's office door open. He was sitting at his desk, scouring over the information in front of him.
Beth knocked gently, once, on the door.
Sekhemkhet looked up, but he did not welcome her. "You may come in," he stated, looking back at his work immediately.
"You were gone this morning," Anabeth said quietly, trying not to disturb him. She had things to say, though -- not
everything
, but something. Something to assuage her of the guilt.
"You were out of bed when I awoke," Sekhmekhet murmured. He tutted and moved some things around. Beth realised he was plotting markers on a map -- a huge map -- of the city. "I assumed I was no longer needed."
"It isn't a problem," Beth amended quickly. "I just thought it would be enjoyable for us to speak. We never speak."
Sekhemkhet lifted a hand and waved it slightly through the air. "Speak now, if you like."
That was her invitation, Anabeth realised. This was her opportunity -- she could tell him a little part, just a small indication that the tide was turning. She could remind him that they had made no real promises to each other. She could tell him that, in her
heart
, she knew that she was not Henutsen, and that he was wasting his own time with her when he could be out there finding the real Henutsen. They could discuss all of this, she imagined, in a civil and polite way.
"I had lunch yesterday," Anabeth began, wetting her lips. Her mouth was so dry all of a sudden. "With William Egerton. Have you met?"
Sekhemkhet made a small humming noise, his eyes still scanning the map. She did not have his attention. "I do not believe so," he answered, drawing out the words, as though his subconscious was having to come up with them for him.
"We visited a small restaurant in the centre of the city. It was lovely," Anabeth admitted, though she assumed he was not listening.
"Who was with you?" Sekhemkhet finally looked up from his map. He sounded disinterested, however in giving her his full attention, Anabeth knew that he had picked up on something.
"No one, we went alone," Anabeth admitted, trying not to look at him for too long. She felt guilty.
We made no promises
, she reminded herself. Was that really the truth, though? Was agreeing to stay a promise of the future?
"You will not see him again," Sekhemkhet said, turning back to map in front of him. He continued to plot with his fingers as a guide. His tone had not changed. Curious how a man can give such rude orders with so little regard for how they are said.
Anabeth was taken aback by this flippant tone. How dare he decide where she goes, or who she goes with? And with such little regard. "I'm sorry," she began, her head cocking to one side as her brow furrowed. "I must be mistaken, but are you trying to give me an order?"
If Sekhemkhet had heard her, he did not let on.
"I asked you a question," Anabeth persisted, gaining herself a sharp look.
"And it was a foolish question. Do not bother me with trivial games, I am busy." Sekhemkhet regarded her for a second more before turning back to his work.
Anabeth bristled. Of course, it was degrading to be spoken to in such a way, but more than that -- Sekhemkhet had reminded her so much of her father then that she was horrified. Her father had always told her what to do with that same expression -- that same moment of eye contact to ensure that she understood before turning back to his work.
"I wish to know why you believe you can tell me who I may or may not consort with." Beth watched him as he picked up small, rounded pegs and placed them on the map in front of him with precision. Sekhemkhet shook his head, ignoring her.
"I will not be told what to do," Anabeth stood. Her voice was steady and unwavering, and she hoped she sounded strong. "I do not belong to you, nor any man, and if you think that I will stay-"
"Enough!" Anabeth was cut off as Sekhemkhet roared at her. "If you cannot be in here without disturbing me with your irrelevant little notions then you will leave!"
The power in his voice shook the room. Anabeth's hands flew to her throat and stomach, as though to protect herself. Unshed tears burned her eyes as her throat grew thick. She had never been spoken down to in such a manner before -- not even by her father.
Beth left the room immediately, not hesitating to look back. It was just as well, for Sekhemkhet made no move to follow her.
As Anabeth fled from the building, ignoring those who tried to engage her in conversation, there was only one person whom she wanted to see. She pictured his face -- his easy smile and charming manner -- and all but ran to the carriage that was waiting for her as instructed.
Unfortunately as, unlike William, Anabeth did not have the luxury of an automobile to transport her, the trip took a while. She was also not acquainted with the geography of Cairo. This accumulated in what she had assumed would be a short trip to Sophia's being, in fact, a two-hour journey by carriage.
This she could have dealt with, if it had turned out that William had been residing with his aunt. Instead, she arrived at the beautiful villa to find that Sophia was not home, and William preferred to stay in town. A stoic man had given her a curious look before giving her the address of the rooms William was currently renting.
It had taken just as long to get to that address, only to have no one answer the door. There was total silence on the other side, as well, which Beth took to mean that William was out exploring.