A/N: Hey, sorry for the wait on this one. Was on a staycation and took a writing break. This one's less sexy but still hopefully interesting. Saving the naughty stuff for the next chapter.
Also, Angelwater is not a real place.
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Kade
"Hey, big brother." Phoenix's voice punches through with more than a hint of sass. "You rang?"
"Where the hell have you been?" I snap, knowing full well it's probably not the best way to get her to follow my lead. "For a girl who's glued to her phone, you sure took your sweet time calling me back."
There's an excruciating pause. Phoenix inhales tightly before she says, "I'm at Jack's place."
"
Jack?
" I twist towards the night stand, my feet hitting the rough carpet. "Who the hell is
Jack?"
"Some dude I met at the farmer's market."
Memory elbows it's way to the forefront. A shaved head. Leather, metal and the clang of sparking steel. An obvious arrogance that leaves a bad taste in my mouth. "You mean, the blacksmith?"
I pray to the Gods that I'm wrong. There's already too much bullshit on my plate.
Phoenix's hesitance is palpable. "Yeah."
Here comes the rage, an electric current stabbing through every worn nerve. I knew my sister was young and- like all nineteen year olds- prone to stupidity, but this is a nauseating low. "He's
married
, Phoenix. What the fuck is going on?"
Why didn't I have a conversation with her about dealing with the opposite sex the moment she moved in? It's a real stressor that she had to grow up to be good looking
and
attention-seeking
and
conniving. A bad combo for a brother trying to be her guardian.
"Marissa's here too," Phoenix says lightly. "We're all hanging out, just having a few drinks. It's not a big deal."
I have a strong suspicion that her being there has nothing to do with getting to know Jack's wife. I activate my inner sight to check on her; easy enough to do through a phone. To my relief, the scene is G rated. Phoenix is sitting on a bar stool in a small apartment kitchen. Trap music thuds from large speakers. There's a couple laughing in the distance, far away from my sister. Thank god.
Yet, despite the casual nature of this, I can't dissolve the knowing that Phoenix is in over her head. Ready to ensnare her way into Jack's life. I can
feel
her obsession for him taking root, tainting her mind, spreading to her vulnerable heart.
How did I not see this? I've been so busy thinking about Emily that I overlooked an oncoming disaster.
I turn off my sight, massaging my scalp. Wired yet exhausted. "Well, you better cut that shit out right this second." The bed creaks as Emily shifts behind me, her fingers smoothing down my lower back. I take her hand without looking backwards, wrapping it around my waist. A radiant glow blooms in my chest, descends to my lower belly: a disorienting counterpoint to this serious conversation. "Get in your car and meet me at the motel. Do
not
go back to our place. It's happened."
"He's here?" Thankfully, she sounds at least
mildly
concerned.
"Yes, he is," I say slowly for emphasis. "We go with the plan."
"Are you...with our neighbor right now?"
I glance over my shoulder to see the beauty lying next to me. Red-gold waves spreading over white linen. Soft curves and even softer eyes, now brimming with concern. My hand instinctively caresses hers. "Yes."
"You fucked her." A smug laugh. "See? You're no better than me. No need to act so high and mighty."
Any lingering arousal that Emily caused disappears, replaced by blistering irritation. "It's none of your damn business what two consenting,
single
adults decide to do together," I seethe."Maybe you should start acting like one, instead of stalking married men like some lovesick idiot. He'll never love you back, Phoenix. Grow the fuck up."
The longest silence echoes. I can tell I've stunned her. Emily too, her fingers still and tense on my stomach.
"Jesus, Kade." Phoenix's voice trembles with a hurt so strong that even with my sight off I can see tears sparkling. "Sometimes I can't believe how much of an asshole you are."
I don't know how to respond to that so I dig my heels in, give her dry detachment. "So you're on your way then?"
"I
could be
." A loud sniff before she collects herself. "Or I could just stay here. Or maybe I'll finally go to New York like I wanted to."
"No. You're coming here.
Now.
"
"You know what? Just because you're being King Dickhead, I'm not telling you where I'm going." Her voice serrates my eardrum, a vindictive edge to it. "And if I die, you can blame yourself."
She hangs up. I stare at my phone, dumbfounded.
"
God-fucking-damnit.
" I dial her number again, unsurprised when she doesn't answer. I dial again, knowing she won't pick up. Knowing I just screwed myself over by letting my temper get the best of me as usual. Doesn't matter how true my words were. That was shortsighted of me.
After she predictably doesn't answer, I set my phone on the bedside table with an agitated flourish before I sink back into the mattress. Emily nestles up flush against my chest and without thinking, I melt into the the sensual balm that her presence seems to so easily provide.
A satisfied grunt escapes me when our bodies lock tighter. I brush my lips against the center of her forehead, trying to ignore the dread simultaneously locking around my throat.
"She's not coming," I finally say. It's not up for debate. I know Phoenix, her stubbornness an equal match to my own. "Shouldn't have gotten mad at her. Wasn't thinking." I try to iron out the frown contorting my mouth. "Wish you didn't have to hear that."
I search Emily's face for judgement but instead, I find sympathy. I'm not sure I'm comfortable with it.
"Is she going to be okay?" Emily slowly cups my face, her thumb ghosting up my cheekbone. A cautious tenderness in her touch, her eyes. Our gazes don't pull away, and there's a strange yet exhilarating quality in that. Brave, even. I want to live in it yet I also want nothing to do with it: this exploratory freshness, this weird familiarity that shouldn't make any sense. I can't handle the contradiction of it all.
I stare at her, unable to form words for a few seconds. "She should be fine." Nothing more than a small hope if I'm being honest with myself. I look away to examine a crack in the ceiling. "She's got good instincts. Well- most of the time. Plus, I don't even think Asher knows that she's living with me. He would have made it known if he did."
Maybe that's also just hope.
"That's good." White teeth dig into her plump lower lip, brows creasing. A perfect picture of nervousness.
Unable to help myself, I plant a quick kiss on that inviting, rose-pink mouth. Becoming increasingly distracted by her lush femininity, the slopes and valleys of her visible through the sheets. The sprinkle of freckles across her nose. It's embarrassing how intoxicated I am by her.
Just one more look. One more touch. One more kiss before this ends.
Shit, I don't know if I'm ready for this to end. My dick certainly isn't, from the way it's stirring now. Nor are those short-sighted impulses of mine, already drumming up ways to keep this connection afloat.
But reality doesn't care about my desires, my hopes and pointless dreams. It'll ruin everything either way, rub it in for good measure. I don't
get
to be happy. Life has repeatedly taught me that. The only way through for me is with my nose to the grindstone, labor after labor. Atoning for my years of being a mindless thug, the chemistry that keeps me feral. No use in pretending otherwise.
She deserves better. Deserves someone that won't put her in danger just by being near them. Someone
human
. No complications. No peril. Just a happy, normal, relationship with date nights and laughter and commitment and shared dreams. All that good, clean, wholesome shit. I want that for her. I really do.
Except, it kind of makes my blood boil that I can't be the one to give it to her.
Emily notices I'm staring a hole through her head. "What?" Her nose crinkles before she laughs.
"Nothing." I trace my fingers down her cheek, over her smooth lips. Marvelling at the supple softness of her. "I'm just gonna miss this."
You. I'm going to miss
you.
Her dreamy expression vanishes. Goes cold. She glances away, mouth turning downward as she looks at the wall. "It's been alright, I guess."
Why am I so good at saying the wrong thing? "
Red
..."
"What?" I'm now presented with the back of her head, her entire body facing away from me.
"We agreed this was a one time thing." I inch nearer to press my chest against her back, circling an arm around her, a helpless queasiness in my gut. Last thing I want is for her to resent me too. "It was a mutual agreement, right?"