Wow. It has been entirely too long. My only excuse is my daughter, who is almost constantly looking for a way to cause trouble. I'm constantly chasing her going "No Kemi, don't hit the dog with that. Stop Kemi, don't put that in your mouth, ear, or nose . Kemi, stop banging that toy against your skull." So as you can see I am very busy trying to make sure my sneaky 1 year old doesn't eat paper, stick beads in her ear (idk where she is getting these beads from, or why she thinks it is ok to stick them weird places), give herself a concussion or kill our dog. Bare with me. I will never go that long without posting again. That was just mean. However, I cannot promise back to back postings. My boss (Akemi Miyoko) barely allows me to take a shower or do homework without her finding a way to destroy something valuable. It's come down to strapping her in her car seat positioned in front of the tub (i need to see those hands at all times) surrounded by towels just to take a 5 minute shower. If I don't give her her desired attention (23 hours of the day), she will escape her child pen, take out all the pots and pans, and bang them against each other until I play with her. She's evil like that. So please don't send me emails cussing me out because I haven't updated fast enough. As you guys can see, my hands are full. I do appreciate nice emails though :)!
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"You have 2 forces living inside of you that cannot coexist. There is a war going on inside of your body and I mean this literally. One force will completely overtake the other or you will be left with neither. There is no way the orb of power that a witch has and a wolf could live in the same body. It is unheard of. You need to either bind your animal side or bind your powers," The doctor explained.
"What about my baby?" I asked him in fear.
I was scared of his answer. I didn't really want to know his answer. I had to find out though. I had originally agreed to go to the doctor because I had estimated that I was probably in my 4th month of pregnancy and there were some things that I felt uneasy about. I still had yet to feel much movement from my son? My daughter? My kid. I hadn't felt my kid move and I was concerned. I had no idea that I would walk out with little to no information about my child, and a whole new concern.
"You need to consider the fact that your child will not survive. If the baby does survive long enough to be born, it will be very sick and more than likely will not live past the night. There is a high risk that neither of you will make it. Your only option is to have an abortion. Your use of magic could harm the baby as it is anyway. You need to make the choice soon."
The doctor's words replayed over and over in my head as we pulled into the airport. It had been only 28 hours since the conversation with the doctor, but I couldn't get the visit out my mind. I would either die and lose my baby or live and lose my baby. Life had been stressful enough without that information, but now I was going through things that I would have never imagined for myself. Not to mention things between Marie and I were somewhat tense even as we unloaded our luggage from the car as quiet as possible. I wanted to make sure she was OK, but I wasn't even ok. She hadn't taken the doctor's warnings too well and I could tell she was having a hard time just accepting the news. I sighed out loud while we unloaded the remaining luggage.
The attempted kidnapping still had me shook. It had been 2 days and I was still checking over my shoulder and sleeping with 1 eye open. After a night of waking up in cold sweats and checking the room every 2 hours, I finally decided that I couldn't take anymore. It was time to leave and honestly I was tired of California. I was very happy we decided to head back to New York. I had talked to Sam's parents and told them that I couldn't handle the trial and had to leave. They understood immediately. I knew I should have never come back. It was too dangerous to begin with. I still had enemies. Potential enemies.
"What's really on your mind Marie?" I asked while unloading the car.
"Why you decided to dress like that for the airport," she answered quickly.
I was taken back.
"Yes. Because you just look so great," I fired back smirking.
She at me and smiled. Only the smile didn't reach her eyes. She looked at me with those big sad eyes and I thought for a moment she would cry.
"I, uh, I wore this because all my other shirts barely cover my stomach and if they do, the bottom hangs out. This was the only large sweatshirt that successfully covered my stomach and still felt comfy. As for the leggings, it is a struggle to put on jeans now Marie. I pretty much have to pray that they come all the way up, and if by some miracle they do, which they usually do not, zipping and buttoning them is impossible and out of the question. So I opted for an easy and comfortable look. I can't explain what I have going with my head. I won't make excuses. Pure laziness," I explained while rubbing my stomach.
"Well you look like you're homeless. And I know what that looks like," she said jokingly with those sad eyes.
"Stop looking so sad," I demanded.
"There has to be a second opinion. Where did you find that doctor anyways?" she asked rubbing her sore shoulder blades.
I knew the pain she was feeling. My own shoulder blades ached with a vengeance. We had done a lot of shopping to get our minds off of things. I had mostly just picked up clothes I knew I wouldn't wear but it was therapeutic. My arms were exhausted from all the bags we had to move. I considered using my pregnancy to my advantage and making Marie move everything, but I'd just feel bad in the long run and end up helping.
"I told you already. He came up to me and told me he could sense my internal struggle. I didn't know I literally had an internal struggle," I said pulling out the last suitcase.
"Done!" I said throwing my hands up in the air.
Suddenly the world stopped moving. I mean it literally stopped. People were frozen in place. Adults stopped mid step. Kids paused mid jump. Birds were frozen in the air. Nothing was moving or happening. Time was at a standstill around us. Marie and I looked at each other in confusion.
"Natalia! Did you do this?" she screeched. "Un-freeze them mamita. Dios Mio! What are you thinking?"
I shook my head and looked around. I didn't mean to do that.
"Mira, mira! Look!" Marie demanded.
"Why did you say mira and look in the same sentence? Doesn't mira mean look?" I asked ignoring her.
She turned me around and I moved closer to her and we watched silently as 2 women walked up to us followed by 5 men.
"Who are you?" I asked out loud.
"I stopped time just to greet you and that is how you welcome us?" A man asked.
I was terrified but I was not going to show it. I didn't know who I was dealing with. Hell I didn't even know what I was dealing with. They were clearly powerful to have stopped time.
A man in all black stepped ahead of the girls and spoke. "Give these ladies your tickets. I don't think it would be in your best interest to refuse seeing as how I can kill you at the wave of my hand. Make this easier on yourselves."
All they wanted were our tickets?
"Ok?" I said handing him our tickets.
"Men, grab our prisoners and let's go," he instructed smoothly.
I looked at Marie who had gone pale with fear as 2 men grabbed both of her arms. I felt a similar pang of anger intertwined with fear when I felt 2 men grab mine. Of course they didn't just want the tickets Tal. I was tired of playing the victim. Every time I turned around I was getting kidnapped or being the damsel in distress. I was constantly being tossed around by men who thought they could run my life. I felt my claws elongate. I was pissed.
"I AM NOT ANYBODYS VICTIM!" I yelled.
I yanked my arms from the men and watched them step back. I was furious. This wasn't a pride thing. This was the reaction of holding so much in that it finally boiled up and leaked out. I felt a familiar tingling and blacked out. Everything happened so fast. One second I was standing opposite the men, the next I was ripping the head clean off the one closest to me. I started for the man dressed in all black until he held up his finger and his ah-ah-ah stopped me. It was one of those noises that give you give a child when they do something wrong. I looked at the man in black and saw an amused look on his face.
"I don't think you want to do that sweet Natalia Miyoko," he teased. "You wouldn't want your friend to die because of your temper. Would you?"
I looked over and saw one of the men holding a gun to Maries head. She had gone paler if that was even possible. I just knew she was finally realizing I was dangerous. I knew she was done with me. I felt the beast calm down and whimper. She's our sister. The beast didn't want her to get hurt. The beast retreated and I heard one last whimper. We wanted to kill these men but we wanted to protect Marie even more.
