He can't remember how he got to this place but it doesn't seem to matter. Everything seems calm and quiet and his presence seems correct. He finds it hard to describe why. It just is. He just is and to wait and not move from his kneeling position seems perfect and natural. He is aware that there were other times now, before this where activity surrounded him and he felt lost in some process of choice; but there is a lightness now. A wonderful sense of clarity-where every choice has been taken away and he can simply wait. Blissful, content and passive.
There is no view to see here. No complications with thinking or perceiving at all, only the pale lull of white light flecked with reflective gold, the earthy tones of wet grass and stone. Sweet scents as well and a breeze so perfectly warm that an exquisite shiver passes through his body and rests, with a tender ache between his thighs.
He looks down to his body and realises that it is naked. Changed someone too but he can't quite recall how. The other times before now seem irrelevant but there is a memory of softer skin; of weaker arms. He passively inspects his limbs and their functions and notices the strength he now feels .The lines of muscles, the precise arch of his back and it pleases him to know he will be of some use and serve his purpose. And then in that moment, the feeling perplexes him. There is nothing to see in this clear, bright world but the shimmers of light reflecting back to his body- so the idea of being of use to another seems unfounded. But the feeling remains. He continues to feel no desire to move from his kneeling stance-as if to wait is correct. ' A wait to be summoned' he thinks; and the thought elicits such unfathomable joy that a gasp escapes his lips, the tender ache returning once more.
Hours pass; or maybe days but slowly time laps its gentle waves and pulls back darkness and a sky full of stars. He is still warm and whole and there are scents of wild flowers; intoxicating in the humid, night air.
And then, without any conscious process he is standing bolt upright. His muscles tensioned as if to run but he stays routed to the spot. She is speaking to him. All thoughts disappear. There are no words; there is no language only the infinite space she inhabits in his mind; "My servant"
A soft chill up his back and all at once there is brilliant light and the world opens up. This voice is everything; he understands. And to follow her direction would be humbling; honouring. "My servant;" her voice again and in a gentle yet strong command; "come to me."