Sorry guys, this was a little late... but the sixth chapter is here!!
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Ayden
I still didn't have the guts to tell her the truth. I had to... Annabell chided me every time she had a chance so I took her home. Mother and father wanted to meet her and I wanted to show Annabell how wrong she was about Mayira. Everything was fine until I saw a flash of Hidie's face in Mayira's mind. Hidie's eyes were flashing white and I could see she was seething with anger. Why would she be angry at Mayira when she'd never met her?
It was a mystery I'd have to solve later. Right now I needed to find the courage and the words to tell Mayira what I really was.
I got all prepared to call her and ask her to meet me but she was already tense about the dream she recently had. I wouldn't know what it was till I met her personally, so I put it off for later. I needed her to have a calm mind and a good mood.
I was sitting with my guitar, playing a tune Annabell and I had recently composed. We were planning to release a secret album... she had a really good voice and I was glad I could help her in any way possible. There was a note that sounded out of place so I was trying to get it right when I heard her call my name. It was faint and I wouldn't have heard it if I weren't writing the recent notations down.
I held still to listen... maybe my mind was playing tricks on me... but then I heard it again, more clearly. It was like the was wind carrying her voice to me... She was afraid, really afraid.
I looked at my watch and it was well after 7. She was supposed to be with Amy and her cousin, watching a movie... Why was I hearing her voice? I decided to follow her trail.
Although I had an unbelievably fast speed and equally good senses, I couldn't track her. She'd obviously taken her car and it had made her scent very faint but still, I found her... like a map in my head had shown me the path. What I saw was something I wasn't prepared for.
The smell of her blood hit me first. It had been tolerable when she had a thin layer of skin in between us but right now, I could almost feel it, warm and sweet... my throat started burning, like I'd drunk acid but that was soon forgotten... the sight of her blinded me with rage. Someone just slapped her and the smell of fresh blood made the burning come back with a worsening pain.
I never knew when the monster inside kicked in. Hunger and anger all rolled into one, I guess it fueled it and the next thing I remember I had my hands on her throat and I was staring at the blood that flowed form her lips... oh how much I wanted to lick it, to suck on it... until her voice brought me back to myself.
"Ay-Ayden?" she was so scared.
I moved back... what had I just done? How did I give into the thirst? How did I ever let go of something my father had so strictly taught me? And most importantly, how did I do this to her?
"I'm so sorry May..." I tried apologizing but I knew it wouldn't be enough for what she saw.
I could read her mind; she was more than just scared. She was terrified- of me... she wanted to run away, from me, from the hideous creature that I was.
"May, please stay..." I tried pleading... I'd do anything just to make her stay.
She was fighting against what she saw and what she knew... she was confused... I knew I'd lost her forever and she'd never be mine.
She ran away, not even once looking back and I stood there for some time, hoping she'd return.
I couldn't bear not knowing how she was, so I went back to her home but she wasn't there. Then I heard her granny talk on the phone to someone and that she was at Susie's. I sat outside the house listening to her cry and feeling miserable for having done that. Is that how you felt when you were punched through your heart? I just wished I could hold her... wished I could soothe her, make her pain go away but I was the one who caused it...
I'd sworn myself to protect her and today I'd tried to kill her. It was right for her to hate me... I didn't deserve her.
I wanted to scream, I wanted tears to wash my agony away but even my tears were stained with blood... and that never helped. Still, they dripped from my eyes, staining everything they fell upon.
I went home, unwilling... I was pacing up and down, wanting a solution.
"What happened to you?" Annabell rushed to my side instantly.
"Nothing... I'm fine. Leave me alone!" I almost growled at her.
"Just tell me..." she pressed.
"I said, leave me alone!" I shouted smashing my hand against a marble statue. It shattered into pieces, just like my non-existing heart... just like I'd broken her.
"What's wrong honey?" Mother was there followed by Hidie.
"Mother, she saw me... she actually saw me!" I said restlessly.
"What did she see?" mother asked, confused.
"She saw me, mother." I said covering my face with my hands. "She saw it all, me, she saw the monster I am and now she's hurt... she's broken mother and I broke her..."
"Tell me what happened...look at me, tell me what happened." She said, firmly holding my face looking into my eyes and I let her into my thoughts... I showed her everything.
She gasped, maybe seeing how I lost control but whatever it was she hugged me again and I sighed.
"Its OK honey..." she said hugging me.
"Its not OK mother, nothing's OK. She hates me." I whispered squeezing my eyes shut.
"I've seen her, Ayden. Believe me, she'll come back." Mother continued. "She loves you; she loves you too much to let you go. Just give her some time. She's meant for you, nothing can change that."
I sighed wanting to believe her. That was all I could do, hope and believe on that small thought.
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I spent a whole week around her, never in sight... always looking out for her, listening to her thoughts. My dead heart almost leaped in joy when she asked about me in the office but then crumbled into pieces as she dialed my number and it went into voicemail. I'd crushed my phone in desperation when she refused to listen to me and now she thought I was gone. I sat there and watched her cry, wanting to comfort her but unable to move.
I was afraid she'd refuse me again...
I knew going into her dreams right away would be a mistake. I didn't have the courage to face her. Yet, I had to gain her trust and the only way I could do so was in her dreams. I would apologize continuously until she'd forgive me.
She'd stopped thinking about the incident and when she did, it was only me she remembered. It crushed me, seeing my face in her memories like that. I had to know what those people wanted... why they attacked her, so I started asking her the same question every time I went for my little visit but every time she refused to answer. I apologized, I begged but she just sat there, staring at me... and I never knew what she was thinking because the dream world is always undergoing constant changes.
Finally one day she spoke.
"Why? Why do you need to know? They're dead and its over. Get out of my dreams..." she was so stubborn!
I hissed but then berated myself. She was looking at me but the fear was no longer there. Maybe a hint of anger but no fear.
I moved to her side in one fluid motion. I needed to know the truth but she still had no intention of replying me. Instead she stuck her chin at me, staring into my eyes as if daring me to kiss her.