Perched over the side of the bed while staring down at the collar, an absurd image suddenly takes root in my head. All I can picture is Gollum in Lord of the Rings, reaching out for the eponymous Ring itself.
Precioussss,
the creature in my head croons and, suddenly, the mood shifts and I roll as a giggle fit overtakes me.
Despite being alone, I reach for my mouth to hide my smile and laughter but my hand bumps into the side of my muzzle. And it just makes me laugh louder because now I'm picturing my dainty little hand- paw- I don't know. Hand, I guess? Anyway, my hand at the very tip of my long muzzle. Not covering my lips or anything. Just my nose and the front of my mouth and the corners of my lips curled up.
I squirm in bed as laughter turns to chortles. My tail rests awkwardly against my back but when I move, it feels
good
. Like someone scratching my scalp lightly.
Can I smile? Note to self - check later.
Fur drags against hair as my ears twist and part my hair like the fin of a shark terrorizing a dark sea. It makes me want to fix my hair since years of being human have taught me that that sensation means messy hair needing some attention and fixing.
Ah.
Oh. Okay.
Laying on my back traps my tail. It rests against the glossy tan fur on the inside of my thigh. My hips lift in a small motion, left to right and left to right again until I frown and gently gnaw on the inside of my lip. Once more they lift and I focus harder.
There.
I tense a new strange muscle in the middle of my back and my tail moves, pressing against my left thigh and then my right. A slow smile spreads over my furred face as my mouth opens and the corners of my lips draw upwards. It feels good to move it. Really-
Oh. That's why. It was pressing against my pussy and now it's flicking against it. Gently and slowly like a lover teasing you before foreplay. The hairs are nearly as soft as a feather until the tips needle into my sensitive flesh. And now that I'm conscious of it, I can feel the swollen lips against my thighs, warm and soft and covered in my drying cum. Dull and stiff compared to the sleek hairs further away. Trapping my scent.
I roll again and then shudder, bowing my head as my ears lance back. The sheets tug at the piercings covering my teats and nipples, twisting them until they beg for attention. Worse, the chain between my breasts catches and
pulls
, forcing me to moan. I'd dreamed of being treated roughly and now it's like a lover's pinching and pulling my nipples. My entire body grows tense and I grab at the bed.
Dull, dark claws threaten to cut the sheets as my ass slowly lifts and my tail curls up.
He's there again as a low throbbing beats like distant taiko drums, steady and rhythmic. That presence. The phantom lover teasing me with long repressed fetishes. My breath out is long and ragged as I picture him drawing me up by the hips, strong hands holding me in place. Dominant. Fingers dug in. A hand going to the middle of my back to hold my chest down. Fingers clenching against the more dense black fur along the nape of my neck and between my shoulders.
I have to-
I have to move. I want it so bad that it scares me.
Instead of giving in and masturbating, I push forward, denying myself and the specter the pleasure. Of course,
that's
a mistake as, once more, all eight of my nipples drag against the bed. I continue forward with a groan, placing a thickly padded paw on the floor next to the collar. My hips rotate right-left-right-left-right as my tail wags behind me. I try to steady it, focusing on that muscle I'd found earlier but it resists. Instead, I place my right hand down.
My short fur glides over the sheets on the bed as I pull myself forward, bending slightly shortened fingers to dig into the carpet for support. Out of curiosity, and 90% because I can, I use my claws alone to pull my body. I feel the bones within pull apart as the curved, dense obsidian nails dig in and I continue to move.
When my thigh slides free, I bend my leg and touch my foot to the ground, once more using my toe claws while balancing on the tips of my toes. Finally, my other foot comes down and I place my palms to the floor and lean forward in an exhilarating full body stretch. The chain connecting my piercings dangles beneath me, swaying gently while reminding me of its presence.
A new impulse makes me shake side-to-side after the stretch and it surprises me loud enough that I bark. Which forces my ears to angle backward. It was impulsive, loud and sudden but felt right in the moment. An involuntary response that worries me.
Finished stretching, I pull myself up to stand on the balls of my feet. My heel dips, touching the floor before raising once more. The padding makes walking flat-footed impossible now, despite the still-human shape of my feet.
I can hear the apartments around me now that I'm not so inwardly focused. Television shows filled with explosions and gunshots, clinking silverware on plates that carry tantalizing smells, faint music and loud, passing cars. The world is alive beyond my tiny bedroom. We grow up believing we're the center of our own universe but as I stand naked in my bedroom, I feel connected to all of it, drowning in sounds and scents of everyone else living their lives.
I'm panting, tongue hanging free as anxiety grips my heart with a firm fist. I feel like I'm losing myself as the noises threaten to overwhelm me. A soft whimper escapes my lips and my tail curls down, pressing against the back of my thighs. I need to run. It's my escape and always has been when the weight of the world presses against my shoulders.
And then my eyes open and I see myself in the mirror.
Taller now, on wide paws covered in tan fur that becomes glossy ink higher on my shins. The tip of my tail is between my calves, soft and firm as it trembles slightly between my legs, mirroring my anxiety. It feel it over the curve of my ass. It's a strange warm and comforting presence that'll take some getting used to.