Author's note: Thank you to Liter Knight for her careful editing!
Author's note: This chapter contains themes of non-consent/reluctance.
Chapter 3
Ronan jerked awake to a knock on the door. Cesta jumped and made a sleepy, startled sound in his arms. He untangled himself carefully and crawled out of bed, went to the door and opened it a crack. Declan was standing outside.
"Time to get going," he said.
"Alright, I'll be down in a few," said Ronan.
Ronan closed the door and turned to see Cesta sitting up in bed. He couldn't read her expression.
"You're leaving?" she asked.
He nodded.
"Alright, I..." she trailed off and ran a hand through her hair, messy from sleep. She looked at him uncertainly. It was an uncertainty Ronan shared. He wasn't sure what they were to each other now. He went and sat on the bed and took her hands. It wasn't an entreaty; he gave off no Allure. He just felt a need to hold her hands.
"You remember their names?" she asked.
"Bamron and Mafron Anuthdion, and Anuthdir Edlennion. Third Amon Taered regiment I'll write it all down. I'll be back when your whelps are ready to drop, or soon after. I will keep my promise to you."
Cesta looked at him for a moment, then turned her head to the side, sucked in her lips, and let out a ragged breath.
"Alright. Alright, thank you," she said.
He nodded and she leaned forward. Their goodby kiss was as soft and cool and perfect as their first, but this one meant something else. Then he rose from the bed, washed and dressed. Cesta watched him silently the whole time. Her eyes made Ronan tense and jittery. When he was ready he looked back to Cesta. She opened her mouth and closed it, struggling for what to say, before finally speaking.
"Be careful out there," said Cesta, "I need... I want you to come back."
"I will," he said.
He leaned forward and kissed her one more time. Then without another word he slipped downstairs.
Declan was sitting at the dining room table, stuffing his face with eggs and toast. Cesta's sister-in-law, Niril, stood nearby, ready to serve. She gave Ronan a cool glance as he entered the kitchen.
"Did you have a good night?" asked Declan, giving Ronan a dirty grin.
Ronan felt a surge of irritation at Declan's tone; it felt profane somehow. He pushed the feeling away, assuming the attitude of casual confidence he used when talking to a savay.
"No thanks to you."
"Ha, I knew how things were going to end up. I was here with my dad last spring and he went through the same dance you did and it ended the same way. Cesta's quite the girl. I'm jealous."
Ronan glanced at Niril. The pale woman was looking down at the floor, shame marring her features. She was very pale so the blush of her embarrassment was impossible to miss. Ronan idly wondered which of the E'Allain had put a litter in her, how many times she had whelped, whether she considered it a betrayal of her husband, Cesta's lost brother. It wasn't anything he had ever thought about before.
He looked back to Declan.
"Yeah, Cesta's quite the girl."
Declan looked uncertain for a moment, sensing something in Ronan's tone, a subtle anger.
"Eat up, we should get going," was all he said.
Ronan nodded and sat down to eat.
...
The next day, the patrol was taking its midday rest, feeding and watering the horses and orcs, when Declan's scout thraka, Zag, appeared on the horizon. Lum and Zag were doing at least three times the work of anyone else on the patrol. The scouts ranged far ahead of the party, sometimes for miles, and used their keen senses to look, listen, and sniff for any sign of men. Based on Zag's gait, a little faster than her normal ground eating stride, Ronan thought the thraka might have finally found what they were searching for.
Ronan made his way over to Declan and arrived just about the same time Zag did. Bol, Declan's fighting thraka, walked over as well.
Zag stopped in front of the small group, her eyes taking them all in. Her long pointed ears were drooping from exhaustion and sorrow.
"There's a small farm about a mile east, burned. The vay are in front of the house, all dead," she said.
Declan's face contorted in rage, "Fuck,"
Ronan knew exactly how he felt. The news made him so angry he felt like his head was going to explode. Savay rarely raided each other anymore, not when there was so much easy land available and so many humans to fight and capture. But when they did they never killed vay. Killing a vay on a raid accidently was an act of the deepest shame. The deliberate murder of a vay would destroy a savay's house completely. His sept would abandon him and all his neighbors would ally to hunt him down. The casual way men murdered vay was deeply shocking to savay, and the acts of revenge that followed could be equally shocking to humans.