So I would like to thank those who sent such kind words in feedback. Sometimes someone telling you they like your work is all you need to get back to the keys. I am four scenes away from the end of chapter 7 and then its off to my editor. I am on summer vacation, so writing should be much easier to do with out all the homework in the way. I hope you enjoy the chapter I took into account some of the comments and tried to move Victoria away from selfish nature she was straying in to. Appologies it took so long, but hey it's like that some times
Thanks for reading and I love comments.
-SilentlySilly
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"Enough. Mon petit loup, vous avez sont très égoïste."
Victoria looked up confused; her grandmother was shaking her head. "Selfish?" Victoria had been swamped in a mire of thoughts and emotions from the last few days. She had been recounting everything that had gone on since she had sent her last letter.
She looked up at the calm look on her grandmere's face.
"Victoria, I know that you have been through so much and honey we know, but at some point you have to stop. For so long you have talked about yourself, your fears, your nightmares, but it is time to stop. I know you have been through so much turmoil and now at every turn in your life you are left with horrible memories, but the ultimate revenge is success. You need to stop running and realize that there are people defending you from all sides now. None of us will allow that to happen to you again, so it is time to heal, to stop running and live."
Her grandmother moved to sit by her.
"Step out of the walls of your mind and notice those around you, mon petit loup. With every day you suffer, so does your mother. She looks malnourished for a wolf and incredibly gaunt. We know that you have suffered, but now it's time to return to the world. You cannot let your fear stop you from living and stop the others around you from living. Your friends are worried, you have found a man that wants to love you and you won't let him. Stop hiding in yourself; just stop it because you are not a selfish girl."
Her grandmere pecked her on the forehead and stood up and went back to unpacking. Victoria sat, tears brimming her eyes. Her grandfather moved to sit down next to her and pulled her into his arms. She felt so lost. A lot of what had been said was true, but it still hurt to hear. She didn't know how to do anything else. She had spent so long running and fighting everyone. She didn't let people in and for a very long time she kept her mother out, she had blamed her mother. The tears coursed a hot river down her face as she thought about her mother. Her stomach wretched as she thought about how cruel she had been to her mother. Her grandfather squeezed her tight as she cried. She felt like a terrible person the way she had been treating people.
It was so easy to cry in her grandfather's arms. So she cried about it all as the memories flooded through her mind, she needed to get over this so she could live. The feelings she had for Antony had no place in the cruel mental world she had created for herself. She would stop running, she would stop. She had escaped her father and now she would live her life, but how? She looked up into the face of the man who had always held her and helped her and asked the one question she needed to know the questions to.
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Antony sat in his office, but he wasn't really listening as Riley talked and he didn't notice the intensity with which Jesse was staring at him. He was listening to what was going through Victoria's head. At first he had been angry with his future relatives, but as it began to get through to her, his excitement grew. With each comforting word of her grandfather and the down to earth words of her grandmother, they worked through the emotional wall within her. He had been so relieved when she accepted his mental comfort as her agitation and tension grew. She didn't attempt to block him from anything that was going on; in fact she reached for him.
Their connection began to rapidly grow as she opened up. He blessed her grandparents tenfold. There was so much to this woman that he had never seen. Though he knew she was highly observant, he hadn't known she had a photographic memory. As she flowed and assessed the last two weeks spent at the compound, she remembered the minutest details. Although he stepped in when she began berating herself for her actions, Antony would never have gone so far as to call her selfish, but he understood where her grandparents where coming from.
When it seemed like this would be the way things were going for a while, he turned his attentions back to his two betas in front of him; Victoria's thoughts became background noise in his mind.
"We are getting reports from several packs, attacks from packs that recently had isolated themselves from the communities. The Lourde pack was the only one to fall. We are recalling all of our pack members on exchange and sending those here back home." Riley's words were mechanical, all joking gone from his voice.
"The problem is," Jesse picked up, "There are quite a few who are refusing go. Some have found mates and that is understandable. It is those who haven't found mates that are the most aggravating. They feel safe here. There have been no attacks within this region. All 27 packs surround yours haven't been touched. People have been doing research on our history. One of the youngest exchange members came to me as a spokes member for those who wish to stay. Apparently It has been proven that you were able to reach all of those pack members in decent time in order to protect them and vice versa. They see this as a stronghold. It also doesn't help that this is the birthplace of the first wolf pack."