I stand in the shadows at the edge of the wood. The road to the bridge is near but I wait, watching, making sure.
I have been crossing this bridge for years (I snort aloud when I think about just how many) and on nights like this I am always cautious. The ancient stone arch spans a narrow gorge, which is, at this time of year, filled with impatient water. The river that carved this deep cleft is in spate - swollen with snowmelt. One hundred feet below the bridge the river continues its age old war against the rocks. The sounds of this battle, for all the world like animal bellows and growls, echo from the chasm. Despite thousands of years of this contention, of numberless floods, the rocks are still jagged fangs and the water churns against them into white foam.
I have heard told that these sharp stones, combined with the growling of the water, are given as a rationalization for the old name of this crossing place - 'The Wolf's Teeth'. But if you were to pry into the folk memory of those who live nearby you would get another – truer - explanation; one that I could confirm - if any dared to ask me.
My desire is to cross the bridge alone, without meeting anyone, especially at the height of the arch, where the carriageway narrows. This need to avoid meeting others, to be apart, has been strong in me for a long time now. But it is especially powerful tonight. A combination of the weather, my over-active senses and the moon - especially the moon - makes me doubly wary.
The noise of the river masks all other sounds, so I must rely on other senses than my hearing – but I am fortunate in that regard. The breeze that has partially blown away the clouds, revealing the moon, is blowing into my face and carrying with it a message - there is someone on the bridge.
The wind brings still more still information to me. I can detect that the 'someone' is female – as well as being young and scared. But I cannot afford to tarry too much longer. Earlier in the evening I sensed I was being followed and have been trying to put distance between my pursuers and myself. Bitter experience has taught me to trust my senses. I am confident I know who hunts me and know how persistent they can be
I know of some poor souls who believe, despite any evidence to the contrary, that they are unfairly persecuted. In my case I know this is true and have a distressing amount of proof that I am not subject to any delusion. I am persecuted. In fact it would be more accurate to say; I am hunted.
Eventually I conclude that the woman is alone, that any threat from her is less than that which comes hurrying, implacably, behind me.
I wait until the wind-tattered clouds hide the moon again and step from the darkness on to the road. Even in the darkness I feel exposed, the hairs all over my body prickle as I lope towards the bridge.
I pride myself on my ability to move silently, but I can take no credit for getting close to the woman before she sees me. The night is dark, the river noisy - and she obviously has other things on her mind.
I am five paces away before she notices me, reacting with a start. It would appear that this is not a good time or place for her to be startled – sitting as she is with one leg either side of the parapet of the bridge.
She spares me only the briefest glance despite the shock my silent approach must have produced. Barely looking at me she begins to stammer
'D....don...don't try to stop me!'
There is determination in her voice but the overtones of fear are stronger. From the glances she is casting downwards I sense it is the drop she contemplates rather than my presence, which is the source of her fear. This is a pleasant change from the usual reaction to my appearance. But whilst I can see the girl clearly to her I must seem like only a vague shadow in the gloom.
She begins again, 'You can't sto.......'
Annoyed that she believes she understands my intentions. I raise my hand and snarl at her.
'I'm not going to try!'
This unexpected response stops her foolish mouth as quickly as if I had slapped her face.
I lower my hand and study the woman - the girl. She doesn't appear to be mad - just dishevelled, frightened and determined. It seems I have interrupted a suicide
She stops glancing down and looks at me properly for the first time and gasps. Ignoring her reaction I continue to study her, taking in a mass of dark, tangled curls surmounting a pretty face. She appears to be about eighteen, no more than twenty. Her full, well-shaped lips are trembling and her eyes radiate a mixture of despair, but also petition. Her clothes are of good quality, albeit torn and dirty. Her boots (or at least the one I can see) are well made - but clumped with mud. It takes no genius to conclude that she has walked, or run, to this place - apparently anxious to die.
'I'm not going to try and stop you.' I repeat. 'In fact, I want to watch you jump.'
Again the effect of my words is like a blow. But this time I see anger flare in her blue eyes, in reaction to my callousness, after which I raise my evaluation of her appearance from 'pretty' to 'lovely'. I also take time to notice that those good quality clothes are well filled with shapely female flesh. This though makes me remember how long it has been since I lasted mated. Too long!
She gasps in shock and begins to try and marshal her words to respond, but I cut her short.
'You want to die? The get on with it I say. Why should it matter to you if I should want to observe your passing? If I were to guess at your pathetic motives, I imagine you might desire a witness to pass on the details of your death.'
I felt my anger rising despite myself.
'I am sure in your morbid imaginings you imagine that the folk about here will be agog with interest to hear of your tragic demise. Do you picture troubadours keen to hear every word before composing, "the Lament of the Lady of the Bridge", or some such maudlin twaddle?'
I laugh when I see the shock in her face.
'You will, no doubt, want them to tell the world of the cruel man who "ruined" your reputation I am guessing?'
I see her face fall and laugh again, knowing my random jibe has hit close to the mark. But my laughter is full of anger and disdain.
'You poor, pathetic fool!' I bark. 'Do you think anyone cares what happens to you? Do you imagine your loved ones gathered in mourning at your graveside? As a suicide you'll likely be buried at a crossroads, un-shriven and alone, leaving your soul to wander........'
A gob of spit in my face stops my tirade. I see her eyes flashing fire as she shouts.
'You evil............cur, you.........dog!' she shouts in my face, searching for more harmful words, not knowing any worse. But she cannot realise how the words she has chosen do wound. It appears that there is life yet in this girl who wants to die.
At the same time as I wipe her saliva from my cheek the clouds begin to part and the night brightens. The moonlight spills across the stones and seems to gather around the enraged girl. The iron-tight grip I usually keep on my 'Rage' begins to slip. I feel muscles tense and ripple under my coat, my fingertips tingle. To her it must appear that I grow, towering even further over her. I speak slowly, conscious that my mouth suddenly feels over-crowded with teeth.
My voice come outs like a rumbling growl. 'You RRReally shhhouldn't have done that......GGGirl.'
As I speak I start to unbuckle my belt and undo the fly buttons. I watch her mouth open in shock as I push my trousers down around my thighs, thighs that ripple and bulge with new, heavy muscle.
Over the years - the many, many years - I have worked at holding sway over my 'Rage' and the changes it brings. Even when the moon is full, when control is hardest, I can usually manage. But I know that there are times when nothing can stop it. I also know that when it comes, if it comes, I won't be able to manage buttons and buckles
'What are...are you doing? The girl stammers as she watches me.
I ignore her as I feel the Rage flare within me to greater and greater heights, filling me. My veins feel as if fire flows in them in place of blood.
The moonlight continues to stream more strongly through the rent clouds. In the growing brightness she begins to see me properly, fully, for the first time. If she had been scared before, then she now scales new heights of terror.
Realisation strikes her and she begins to babble, choking on her words 'You...you're him.........it! You're..............'
'SAY IT!' I roar at her. 'YES! I am the werewolf. I am Skinwalker. The stories your Grandmother told you, to scare you when you werrre a child, the ones that you never believed – they arrre all trrue. I am legend made flesh!'