I strolled through the door into the lab after breakfast feeling in a very good mood. I was still aroused but not the painful neediness I had been feeling since I had first seen Lorchan. When I walked into the room every eye turned toward me. He told them? I thought to myself, he told everyone? I looked over at him where he was standing with a small group across the room, he was smiling. I felt heartbroken, how could he just go and tell everyone something so personal? I didn't smile back and walked over to the computer to start work for the day. Eventually everyone in the lab returned to what they had been doing before I walked in. I wanted to cry I was so hurt. Maybe Mataisans talk to each other about these things but it didn't ease the betrayal I felt. I refused to look over at him all throughout the first half of the day.
When it came time for lunch I trapped to pack up and leave quickly before Lorchan could catch me but I wasn't fast enough. I knew I would have to talk to him at some point but I didn't know where to even begin.
"Hey sweetie what's wrong?" he asked noting my avoidance of him.
I looked him in the eye and he looked so innocent, he didn't even realize he had done anything wrong. I waited for the room to completely clear out before I responded. "Why did you tell everyone about....us?"
"What do you mean?" he asked, forcing me to spell it out.
"You told everyone about us having sex, why?" the tears beginning to build in my eyes.
"I didn't tell anyone we had sex, I wouldn't do that in the first place and second of all I don't need to, everyone can smell me on you and you on me, not to mention the fact that our hormones aren't as off the charts as they've been lately." He explained to me with a mixture of emotions crossing his face. "I would never go around telling people our personal business."
"I'm sorry it's just that when I walked in everyone was staring at me and you were talking to a group of men and I didn't know whether it was Mataisan thing of not....and I'm sorry for assuming things."
He took a deep breath and looked calm once again "It's okay, just don't think I would betray your trust ever again," I nodded and he then asked "so how about you have some Mataisan lunch with me? And you can meet some of my friends."