This is it, the chapter that will (hopefully) stop confusing the absolute hell out of everyone! I agree with you all, the last chapter was very confusing, but as it was written in first person, I figured it would be best to feel like you were literally in her shoes (which is not always desirable).
Also, before people start asking, 'ocella' is a Latin derived word meaning 'dear' or 'beloved'.
I hope you all enjoy, but I must admit, not EVERY secret is revealed in this chapter. That would ruin all the fun! I have many tricks up my sleeve (hypothetical sleeves of course because it's summer now), and I can't wait to get the next part out.
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The Breakup
'What the hell?' it seemed to be a common phrase in my vocabulary as of late. I had been asking that in my head for the past six months after my parents were found dead in our suburban home, apparently murdered. I had been asking that to myself after David had proposed. What would an amazing, not to mention inhuman, guy like him want with a mere human such as myself?
And yet there I stood, watching as my sister made out with my fiancée in a back room of our wedding rehearsal dinner. I could feel tears of anger—tears of heartbreak-- begin to form in my eyes. I could feel my heart shattering, slowly, agonizingly. They didn't see me standing there; they were too... consumed by each other. She was all over him, her hands in his short hair as he grabbed her ass, drawing her as close as possible.
Normally I was a very assertive person. As a photographer I had to be to talk to certain people, to get whatever information I needed and to get what people wanted to see on film. But the assertive edge I usually possessed had abandoned me in this moment.
Instead I spun on my heel and raced back down the hall, trying my best to hold in the sobs I knew were coming. I didn't hear the footsteps behind me until someone's arms caught me around the waist, holding me tightly to them while I struggled. "Marlow, stop." David's voice caused me to freeze momentarily.
But only for a second; in the next I was raising my foot to kick him in the shin. As I made contact, he grunted, but otherwise didn't say anything. His hold remained firm. "I guess I deserved that," he muttered.
"Let me go!" I snarled, thrashing against his hold.
"Marlow can we please just talk about this?" The tone of his voice made it seem like he was trying to have a conversation with a five year old. I fought to control my rage.
"No," I replied austerely.
"Marlow, come on."
I struggled free of his grasp, whirling around to face him irately. "What the hell makes you think that I want to talk to you about this?! Just go and find my sister and finish whatever you two were clearly starting back there!"
Glancing around for a second, he grasped my arm and pulled me into another room. As he shut the door, I took a step back, crossing my arms as if to fend myself off from him.
He came forward, grabbing my shoulders with both hands, trying to get me to look at him. I stared at the floor. I knew one look at his face would cause me to lose it. "Marlow please look at me." His voice was earnest, and I struggled to resist.
I succeeded. "Why would you do that to me?" I whispered. I didn't trust my voice.
I felt his hand grip my chin, raising it so that I would look at him. There was no kindness or care in his eyes, only sympathy and pity. There was no love left in them for me. I shoved him away from me. "Get out."
"Marlow, you have to understand-"
"I have to understand what?!" I hissed.
"You can't tell anyone about me, about my kind," he spoke softly. His words finalized that he truly was leaving me. And for my sister! I swallowed tightly, trying to push aside the suffocating feeling.
"Please just get out," I whispered.
"Marlow, I'm so sorry..." he reached for me and I avoided him.
"No, you're not. If it's some freak wolf thing, then I don't want to know. Just get out and leave me the hell alone!" I shouted at him. I noticed him wince as I said the word 'freak'.
"Stop!" he said suddenly as I stormed to the door, desperate to show him out. I whirled on him, furious, but the look in his eyes made me pause. "She's my one," he murmured, stepping forward and fingering a lock of my hair. "You know I cannot help what I feel with her." My chest ached as he continued, and I didn't look at him. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of allowing him to see my face while he tore me up inside.
I bit my lip, closing my eyes tightly for a moment, willing the tears to not come. "Then go to her. Don't worry about me." I hadn't even blinked once and he was already gone. The silence of the room he had just been in mere moments ago was staggering as I caved in on myself, curling up into a ball against the door he had just vacated.
My heart broke for the second time that day at his final proclamation.
And yet I couldn't help but wonder... what could I have possibly done wrong?
The Present
"I want you to let me go," I stated as calmly as I could. I began to feel like I was suffocating all over again. David's face swam in my mind, and I shoved it out just like I was shoving Cassian away from me.
"Marlow-" he tried to get me to look at him, but I was having none of that.
"Let me go right now! I don't know who the hell you are, and I don't want to be here, so just let me go before I start freaking out!" I clenched my eyes shut as I spoke through my teeth, my voice sounding desperate as I demanded to be released.
Slowly his arms unwound from me, and I quickly slid off of the side of the bed, standing up warily. Our eyes locked and remained so for an undefinable amount of time. Cassian's gaze was hurt, and I tried to ignore the pang of guilt that swept through me at causing him to feel upset. I crossed my arms, staring at him evenly. "I need to see David."
The change in his composure was immediate. "No," he snarled, his eyes shimmering for a moment. Fear and tension invaded my mind for a second as he did, but he calmed quickly. "Anything you need to speak to him about, you can speak to me about."
"I don't know you," I replied evenly.
"You will," he edged off of the bed, padding over quickly until he stood in front of me, looking down at me as his dark hair fell into his eyes again. "You will remember." The way he said that, so cryptically, sent shivers through me.
"Remember what?" I asked, biting my tongue as I waited for the answer.
"Our past lives."
I couldn't help but burst out laughing at that. Our past lives? This man was the definition of a lunatic—slightly ironic due to his being a creature of the moon, but hey, no one ever accused me of being funny—and I was not going to sit here and listen about how we were freaking soul mates or whatever it was that he was getting at.
Cassian stared at me, irritation evident somewhat in his expression before he composed it again. "Why don't you believe me, ocella?" he asked softly, barging in on my personal space as he took another step closer.
"Stop calling me that," I told him, taking an intentional step back.
"Make me." I glared at him in response, too irritated to form a coherent response. He took my hand then. "Why don't we go talk to my parents about what is going to happen now?"
I snorted. "So they can do what? Tell me I have to stay here now because you're under some delusion that I'm your soul mate?"
He frowned at that. "So they can meet you properly," he amended.
"No," I stated, crossing my arms.
"Why not?" he was getting frustrated and I couldn't help but grin slightly at my being able to rub his fur the wrong way.
"Because I don't want to," I replied with a casual shrug.
He sighed agitatedly, running a hand through his hair. It was almost laughable. He was clearly not used to being refused. "What do I have to do to get you out of this room?" he asked, crossing his own arms. It looked a little ridiculous, my small frame glaring up at his six foot plus tall body. I felt absolutely minute compared to him.
"Let me talk to David," I replied dryly.
"That is out of the question!" he snarled, baring his teeth. His face looked ruggedly handsome, his features feral and terrifying but also beautiful. He really did look like a wolf in human form.
'Bad Marlow, stop it!' I chastised myself.
"Why?! At least I know him!" I shot back.
He unwound his arms and began to walk forward. I moved backwards until my back hit the bedpost. He towered over me, and I began to feel fear creeping back into my mind. "I don't want you interacting with any other males until you accept me! You WILL accept me, and you WILL come with me to talk to my parents!"