13. Seek and Ye Shall Find
Over the next few weeks, Mary began to feel physically better but she was having a difficult time adjusting to the new attention Aiden was lavishing on her. If she left the room for anything other than a trip to the bathroom, he would follow. He scrutinized her body and the changes that were just beginning to make themselves apparent seemed to fascinate him. His fascination embarrassed her and Mary found herself hiding in all the ways she used to when they were first mated.
At the same time, she was trying to cope with the other changes that the pregnancy brought about. Her abilities seemed to take over the role of protecting the child, whether or not she was concerned with his safety at that moment. Three weeks after her first visit with Nigel, she was coming out of the kitchen as Maureen was coming around the corner to enter. It was one of those moments when, under normal circumstances, both would have stopped short and laughed. On this particular day, Mary stopped and Maureen was knocked to the floor.
"I'm so sorry!" Mary offered the housekeeper her hand to help her to her feet.
"You didn't lay a hand on me, Miss." Maureen got up mostly on her own, but used Mary's proffered hand for balance. "I must have tripped. I don't know what else could have happened."
"It was me." Mary sighed. "In the last few weeks I feel like I have no control over my abilities. I worry someone who doesn't know about me or the baby is going to be around when something happens and then what am I going to say?"
"Sounds like nature taking it's course to me. Cup of tea?" Maureen asked.
"Yes thanks. Some of that herbal tea Aiden likes." She sat down at the table.
"Really? I've never known you to drink that." Maureen got the jar of herbs out of the cupboard and prepared the infusion. She used a regular tea bag for herself.
"I know. I used to hate it but the other night I made some for him and it smelled so good I tried it again. Must be a pregnancy thing." She found an apple in the bowl on the table and bit into it.
"I guess I was odd when I was expecting. I never had the cravings everyone talks about." She poured hot water into cups.
"I don't know if I would call them cravings so much as anti-cravings. I know what I don't want and everything else is okay. So far anyway."
"Do you take anything in this?" Maureen sniffed the tea and wrinkled her nose a little.
"No. Smells awful, doesn't it?" She smiled a little and took the cup.
"Are you sure you should be drinking that, Miss? What if one of those herbs is poisonous?" Maureen sat down across from her.
"I asked Nigel about it, he says it's probably better than regular tea or coffee." She sipped the hot liquid and sighed. It was horrible and heavenly at the same time. "Any ideas for a menu for the meeting next week?"
"Are you certain you still want to go through with it?" Maureen seemed surprised. True, Mary hadn't really mentioned the gathering or waking Esme very much since she found out about the baby, but that didn't mean the issue was off the table. Aiden wasn't being realistic about the whole thing. He talked about Esme being awake and helping with the baby, but he didn't like to hear about Mary waking Esme.
"Why wouldn't I?"
"Well, after what happened the last time-"
"That was because it was the first time I had ever done it, and because I was ignoring my physical symptoms. This time, I pretty sure that I'll have better control over the physical stresses. At least I know what to look out for." Maureen didn't look convinced.
"What are you going to tell Mr. Aiden?" She asked.
"I don't know." Mary responded. "I was thinking of bringing it up when Nigel is here the day after tomorrow. I really don't think can put off waking Esme at least without answering questions that I don't want to answer." Mary kept regular appointments at Nigel's office, but on weeks she didn't come to London, he came to the Hall. It wasn't a formal kind of medical visit, but she knew it wasn't entirely social either.
*~*~*~*~*~*
"Aiden, you're not being realistic about this." Mary sat at her dressing table and brushed out her hair. The light blue nightgown she was wearing was new. The wide elastic panel around her upper back was stretchy and comfortable. The rest of the fabric was voluminous and easily covered the small bulge in her lower tummy. Logically, she knew that she looked no different to anyone else at this point. Having lived with her own body for so long though, little things seemed very apparent. At least she didn't feel like Aiden was staring at her.
"I am being very realistic. The last time you attempted something like this, you fainted. Clearly, that means it is unsafe." The lights flickered and the power failed again. Mary sighed and listened to Aiden get up and begin to move around in the darkness. Mary had looked into fixing the power, but the cost was formidable and the time it would take to do the job right meant that this side of the Hall would be unusable for months. She had been putting it off, but she was starting to rethink that position. She was silent, waiting for him to light the candles that were scattered around the room.
"You know that's because I wasn't used to the aggregation and because I was so early on in my pregnancy. I wasn't really eating right and I wasn't resting like I should have been. That part of it has been taken care of now. I've felt fine for weeks." She watched him moving in the mirror and drew the brush slowly through her hair.
"It is still a risk." He shook his head and lit the final candle.