Author's Note: I'm so glad that so many people are enjoying this story. I love hearing from all of you and hope you continue to enjoy it as the chapters go on and the mystery unravels.
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7. Gains and Losses
Mary woke up on the sofa in the library and saw Maureen pacing nervously. She looked like she as considering how to approach something and not certain the best way to go about it. Maureen had gotten better at speaking her mind, and Mary was glad that her housekeeper didn't feel the need to tiptoe around as much anymore. Mary sat up and the older woman jumped.
"Sorry." Mary yawned. "Aiden and I were up talking until almost sunrise."
"So you told him then?" Maureen sat down next to Mary.
"I told him about my visit with Robbie, yes." Maybe it was just the lack of sleep but Mary was at a loss why the housekeeper would be so concerned about it. Maureen knew there was something odd about Mary's strange guest, but she had told her very little about her suspicions. For some reason, that seemed safer.
"I don't mean that." The older woman waved dismissively. "I mean, the," She searched for the right word. "The other matter." Maureen's face was absolutely serious. Mary felt like she was missing something important.
"Maureen, I didn't sleep as much as I should have last night and I just woke up now so I'm really not following what you mean."
"I shouldn't have mentioned it, it's really none of my business." Maureen got up again.
"But you did and I'm going to be worried all day about what it is if you don't tell me." Mary said. Maureen sat again and took a deep breath.
"When you said that Mr. Aiden was your mate, did you mean that you and he are physically close, like a husband and wife?" Maureen was blushing as she asked the question and after meaning registered in Mary's tired mind, she blushed too.
"Yes, that's one of the things it means."
"Then, with you being sick like you are, have you considered that you might be, well, in a family way?"
Mary leaned back and closed her eyes, fighting down the swell of emotion that threatened to overwhelm her. She had started to consider the possibility that she might be pregnant, especially when she realized how late she was. Before she could even consider doing something to find out one way or the other she got the answer.
"If I was, I'm not anymore." She said. "I started my period this morning. It doesn't seem right to tell him now and upset him."
"I'm so sorry, Miss. I should have kept my mouth shut." The older woman looked wounded by her own bad timing.
"It's alright Maureen." Mary sighed deeply, she had cried before coming downstairs, but now the loss seemed fresh all over again. "The truth is, I don't even know if I can have children with Aiden. We're so different."
"Are you sure you want to?" Maureen sounded shocked, then she turned red. "No, that didn't come out right." Mary laughed softly.
"Don't worry about it, I know what you mean. I guess it looks kind of strange to most people." Mary blushed a little too. Maureen had never said anything about Mary's relationship with Aiden. Mary knew that the older couple liked Aiden once they got to know him, but feeling comfortable with him wasn't the same as understanding Mary's feelings for him. She didn't really want to try and explain it right now, either. "Maggie's being unusually quiet today."
Normally Maggie could be heard banging around in some part of the house and, if one was close enough, the dour maid's line of mumbled complaints and curses could be clearly heard. Mary was disturbed by it at first because she'd never been around anyone that seemed so openly angry at the world. Aunt Patrice never seemed particularly happy with life in general, mostly because any kind of fun was sinful, but she was silent about it. Maggie made certain that everyone knew her life had not turned out as she had hoped and her complaints had become like the creaks and groans the house made; background noise that was only noticed if it wasn't there.
"I wouldn't know." Maureen got up. "She didn't show up today."
The fog of sleep completely receded when Mary heard that. Something uncomfortable began to press against her consciousness.
"She's never done that before, has she?" Mary got up and leafed through her phone book, looking for Maggie's number.
"No, Miss." She watched Mary dial. "If you're trying to call, the number's been disconnected. She's probably run off somewhere with that boyfriend of hers." Mary listened to the recording and then cradled the receiver.
"She has a boyfriend?" Mary said, truly surprised that anyone would be interested in spending time with such and unhappy woman.
"He's a drunk from what I hear, but yes. Her whole family is the same way though, the men drink to deal with the women complaining and the women complain about how much the men drink. You're going to be alright?" She still looked concerned.
"Yes, thanks." Mary managed a smile. "Did I hear the phone ring earlier?" She sank down into the large chair behind the desk.
"You did. I'm sorry Miss, I completely lost track. It was Mr. Barnaby, he'd like you to call him at his office as soon as possible. He left the number, if you need it."
"No, thanks Maureen. If you need any help with chores today, let me know." Mary said. The housekeeper looked at her strangely.
"You won't be able to find a girl to start so soon." She said.
"I meant that I would help. I do know how to do housework you know." Mary laughed softly.
"I doubt things are that dire, Miss." She smiled and left Mary alone.
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"Barnaby." He said simply.
"Robbie, it's Mary. My housekeeper made your message sound desperate." She tried to keep her tone light, but something told her that it shouldn't be.
"That's the impression I gave her. I've had some news of our visitor."
"He's been to see you?" Mary asked, sitting forward in her chair.
"No, I think he's finished with my family for now, but I have a friend, Andrew Cranmore, who found our guest speaking with his elderly mother."