Ersine

I could not wait for my mother to get home. I had so many questions and feared what would be the inevitable breaking of my mother's heart. After seeing the pain, my father's memory left upon her, I did not want to be the cause of more tears. Disappointment was another emotion that until now I had not thought of, I mean your only daughter leaving to marry a fairy? Was that not akin to your daughter running off with the circus or joining a cult? How would she explain to our family and friends? I did not want to leave that burden on her. I calmed myself down with the thought that I would have a few days to come up with a feasible story, one that no one would question or look into. Faking my own death would be out of the question, since I may be able to come back to this realm. Oh, this is so complicated; I now know why I was given seven days, even though it felt so unfair at the time.

I sat at my table listing off all of the possible stories: a sabbatical to work on my doctorate in a foreign country, I ran off with the circus may actually work, (ok that's a terrible idea.), going to India to work with a yoga master, to fine tune my skills, or she could say I went back packing in Europe. All of these could work, in each I would not have much contact with the outside world, no one would be able to find me, and my mother could feign ignorance. I think the Europe story would be perfect since it would explain why I remained so pale, the lack of contact information, and my long term absence.

I spent the day packing and getting my things ready for donating or bringing over to my mother's. She may enjoy the upgrade in furniture so I will ask before disposing of them, she may also want to sell them for money She would stand to make a rather nice profit. I could even start an account for my unborn child, should they decide to come to this world they would be provided for. In fact I may not want to get rid of this place for that reason, just rent it out and give my mother the management. For would not a bi-world training be wise? I will consult Erskine and his mother on the issue, I know so little of how things work. My thoughts strayed to Erskine and our last joining, I missed him so much. Everything about him brought joy to all of my senses. It is a feeling unlike any I have ever known. And this child was yet another expression of that joy. I could feel the energy growing stronger within me. Nothing showed except for the ivy growing as the child grew. I could only wonder what I would look like at full term. I may be as green as my love.

Finally, I knew my mother would be home, so I got in my car and packed up my courage. My steps to the door were slow and careful, I almost turned around, too afraid to face her. I put my brave face on and knocked on the door.

"Hi mom!" I grabbed her in a big hug, trying not to show my face or fear.

"Hello honey, wow you have great timing! I just got in." She pulled me away a little to look at me. "Ok what is up? You look different, a bit off, if I may be so frank. Oh well come in and sit, I missed you."

"I have missed you too, more than I can express. Mom please sit, I have some rather big news for you."

"Oh God, are you all right? Please tell me you are well."

"Yes, my health is fine, never been better in fact." at that she gave an audible sigh and her face softened. "I want to prepare you that you may not like the news though for me it is happy."

"Ok I am warned." She smiled at me, not knowing the true gravity of what was about to hit her.

"Ok I want to treat this like a band aid, I have met someone and we are very much in love."

"Ok what am I missing, how is this bad?"

"Well I am pregnant and we are to be married rather quickly." Her look of shock spoke volumes, but so did her eventual smile.

"You mean I am to be a Grammy?"

"Yes, but that was not the bad part, I am going to be leaving here, for a very long time."

"What? Where? Oh well I will just have to come and visit you."

"Well you see there's where the problem is."

"Why? Where are you going?"

"To a place most people do not know exist." All of a sudden it was as if a light bulb went off.

"I knew, I knew it was only a matter of time."

"What?"

" Stay right here, I will be right back." Uggghh where could she be going at a time like this? My head filled with so many questions. How could she possibly know? Within minutes she came back down the stairs. I could hear her footsteps throughout the house. I have always been able to. She entered the room and asked me to hold out my hands. She had placed in my hands that little silver necklace my father had given her before my birth.

"Place it around your neck and go to the mirror." I did as she asked and could not believe my eyes when I saw it begin to glow, brighter than anything I had ever seen before, even brighter than when I had seen Erskine's mother.

"What does this mean?"

"Ok now it is your turn my dear to take a seat." After a long pause she said, "You see, the man who gave me this, your father, is of the same world that you are going to, assuming that you were speaking of the fairy realm. You are as you may have figured out only part human, you have fey blood running through your veins."

"How could you have kept this from me? And no, I had no idea."

"I was not to tell you, for your own safety. I really do not know what happened to your father, but do know that his heart was always with his home. I am sure that he has always been with you looking on. I was too heartbroken, myself to go looking for him, and bid my door to the realm closed along time ago."

"Wow this certainly does explain a lot of things, I laughed. I had thought the necklace you gave me was the same one that was in the box."

"No, I had switched yours with a replica, so that the secret would be kept until the time was right."

"The time certainly is!" I laughed at the absurdity of this entire conversation. On the other hand hadn't I always known I was a bit strange? I had been able to read most people's thoughts, I have been able to see auras as long as I can remember, and even spending every day out side during the summers off from school, my skin had maintained its ghostly pallor. She took my hands in hers and said,

"You must go and fulfill your destiny, you were mine and I am grateful to have had you with me for so long."

"This isn't goodbye mom, I will be back, I just do not know how often, and perhaps you could find a good reason to re-open your door."

"A grandchild is a very good reason, but I doubt that I will be able to, it has been such a long time."

" We will find a way, My child must know its roots, I do not want any more mystery shrouding this family."

"That's all well and good, but your fiancé may have other feelings about it. Their world has rules and structures. They are all in place for a good reason. If you tell your child at too young an age, they may go exploring on their own. If you wait too late, they may resent you. Best to consult the elders. What else do you know?"

"I have been told that to marry Erskine would be my choice, but that if I do I would be fulfilling a prophesy. That apparently my powers are rather strong, so our child would be powerful, even if raised here. There would be no detriment to living in either world."

"You have decided to go though?

"Yes, if I have a destiny, I feel that to shirk it would be detrimental to the greater good. I could not live with that guilt. That and I love Erskine, more than words can express. He has brought out a side of me I did not even know existed. I am more powerful, I feel all of my beauty in a tangible and spiritual sense, and my life now has purpose. I have spoken with my Lawyer and all arrangements have been made for you to take over my assets and property. I do have one favor to ask, that as of right now, unless Erskine and his mother disagree, that my house and a small savings account be maintained for our child, should they decide to live here. Would you be willing to keep everything safe for me? The other assets would be yours though."

"Do you even have to ask? Of course? How could I say no to such a small request? When do you leave?

"Well I have three more days left, These first three have been very difficult though."

"Why?"

"Between you being gone and This guy at the gym, I have been so stressed."

"I am soo sorry about being gone, I should have been here."

"Absolutely not! You needed a vacation and I was happy that you were out with the girls. I was just so afraid of how you would take this news."

"I am sad to be sure, but glad that you have found your love and path to happiness. Please worry not for me. Now tell me about the man at the gym."

"He started flirting with me a few weeks ago, about the same time that Erskine and I finally met face to face. A simple comment here and there, then the comments turned to touching. Then touching to grabbing and finally this week he cornered me outside of the studio. He was being flirtatious, but there was something fake and menacing. Then after I rejected him, he mumbled something that eventually turned me into full on panic mode. I drove to my friend, Anne's house where she could see his energy invading mine. She said she could see it literally crawling all over me. We did a purification spell and cleansed his energy from mine. After a card reading, she said that he was a large obstacle and that I should be especially careful of him."

"She is absolutely right, if you are indeed part of a prophesy, you will need to be a bit wary of every new person you meet. Think of it as being Snow White, you are possibly seen as a threat to someone. Even if your intentions are pure, your path may be intersecting others who seek the same ends. Even Fey can be competitive and greedy, though it is a rarer trait in fey than in humans. They will usually seek the light and jovial aspects of life, but there is always one who seeks to gain power, or keep it. For that matter your child must also be taught to be wary, to read between the lines, to feel another's energy. Always trust your instincts, you never know who you are talking to. Fey Auras are trickier to read, humans are not evolved enough to manipulate their aura, but fey have generations to hone their skill. They have to, otherwise they could never seduce a human."

"I had no idea how much danger was involved, but all the more reason to go and see what I can accomplish." A smile crossed my mother's face.

"You are so much stronger than I was, I do regret that I did not fight to see your father. More for your sake than mine. I feel I may have deprived you of even more power."

"Mom, what is meant to be, will be. You followed your heart and did what you thought was right. I have no sorrows over that, I just do wish I may have known earlier, but that too is as it should be."

"I am so proud of you! Your wisdom and strength astound me." We hugged as if it were for the first and last time. I knew I had three more days, but I felt as if we had a life time to catch up on.

"So tell me how did you meet dad? I want all of the juicy details!" I winked at her making a very strong blush spread all over her face and neck.

"You can be so cheeky sometimes you know that!! Hmm you are so much like your father. Well I was a young girl of 17 when I had began experimenting with meditation. There was a field behind our home with a lovely small clearing all surrounded by rocks and trees. It was remarkably circular for a natural formation."

"Oh my goodness, that is my place, in my meditation. I have been going there since I was a little girl."

"Your father probably showed you, I am not surprised it is probably how he got to be near you. I am glad you know about it now. Well I was in that place meditating when I felt a hand run through my hair, then touch my shoulder. My eyes flew open to see nothing but sunlight. I closed them again assuming it was just the wind. I then felt two hands slip the straps of my sundress down. I quickly pulled them back up, not wanting to be improper. But sure enough down they went again, and those same ethereal hands dipped below the already low cut material. I was fearful, yet excited, buy this vapor invading my senses. His hands continued down their path to my remarkably pert breasts and began their magic. I closed my eyes unable to bear the bright sunlight. I felt a weight descend upon my lap and his hands move up to my face. I can still remember his kisses tasting like the honey of wildflowers. My heart began to fill with unfamiliar feelings and my body with sensations just as unfamiliar. I was tingling all over and felt a warmth spread from my lips straight down."

"Mother!"

" Well you asked! Do you want the story or not? I thought you could handle it, you are after all pregnant. So it seems a bit familiar to the ways of seduction."

"Yes, yes, its just we've never had these sort of conversations."

"Ok, here goes, his hands moved to my shoulders and he gently laid me back onto the soft grass. He continued to kiss me all the while shifting my skirt to give him easier access. I felt a mix of fear, guilt, and excitement. I was raised to avoid situations like this with human men, but nothing had prepared me for this. The silence, the exotic, smell, the well... magic of it all kept me in the moment. I decided to just go with it. I could fell his long thick member pushing at my thigh and with a slow steady motion he entered me. Unbelievable sensations flew through me, My body was responding to a slow burning fire, I opened my eyes to see a lean strong man, his skin was a deep green and his hair was a long mass of back curls. He smelled of honeysuckle and fall leaves." I could not help but notice how she smiled as she recounted his smell. "His mouth moved to my neck and then to my breasts. He continued to move inside of me, eventually picking up speed as his sweet mouth continued to explore my tender breasts. I began to pick up speed using my hips to take all of him in. He began to match my rhythm and bring me in tighter. I felt the fire burn hotter and hotter until we both reached the apex of our ride. I released sounds I did not think were humanly possible. As his seed filled me I exploded again, with the raw sensation of it. Over the next few months we continued to meet like that with your father telling me of our life together, one that would never happen. Part of me knew when he gave me that necklace, that it was his way of saying goodbye. I have no regrets about those three months since he gave me the most precious gift I could have asked for. You, you were my greatest gift." We hugged and shed silent tears for all of the emotions we had uncovered.

We spent the evening going over all of details of my transition. I wanted my mother to be taken care of as well as the future of my unborn child. I told her my cover story that she could give to my friends and relatives, which she thought was brilliant. I could only wonder at how the next three days would go and hoped I would get a visit to give me some more guidance. I felt a bit lost at what I should be doing and how I should prepare. These are just things that no one can teach you. I was also afraid of running into that jerk from the gym. I just hoped, our purification spell would hold.