Five o'clock on Friday couldn't have happened soon enough. After a hellish two weeks of calculating gains and losses for a botched run of client letters in the chaos-stricken office, Ben was ready for the weekend and its two brief days of solitude and peace.
Adding to his stress was his friend Adrian's departure from the department, a reassignment to another division. Ben knew that Adrian had hoped for another boring week so that the last one he'd have to spend in Ops could be whiled away bullshitting with the rest of the guys and playing pool on the Net. No such luck.
Some few minutes ticked past five, and Ben was closing down his workstation when Adrian leaned into his cubicle.
"Hey Bennie, you hitting Happy Hour tonight?"
"Of course - your last day here is excuse enough. And after a week like this besides, you have to ask?"
Adrian chuckled before heading off to get his coat. Ben watched his computer grind down to its shutdown screen as a mild gloom settled over him. Ben appreciated being alone probably more than most other people could tolerate, but he sensed it was getting old even for him. Locking himself into his apartment and letting the silence absorb the week's stress while reading a book, or wringing the agitation from his brain with the alternately pounding and soothing music of Verdi, Stravinsky, or Saint-Saens - all this Ben looked forward to on the weekends, but now the expectation was mixed with a growing depression from his self-enforced loneliness.
Maybe getting out once in a while for a drink with a few friends would brighten things for a while. "Live a little, for Christ's sake," he muttered to himself as he pressed the power button. Living a little, unfortunately, meant putting up with a noisy crowd of people. Maybe (he hoped, though unhopefully) something would happen tonight. The last half-dozen times he gave in to expectations when agreeing to go out for a Happy Hour, what happened was nothing.
That thought irritated Ben - but so did feeling sorry for himself. A flickering impulse resolved into steely determination: he would make something happen tonight. "Shouldn't be too hard," he thought to himself, "I'm no Quasimodo."
Ben met up with Adrian and four other coworkers and walked out onto the jammed streets of the City. Bar Street was only a block away - filled with convenient watering holes for the local mucky-muck business men and fellow office grunts like Ben. Despite the innocent aura women had back in his smallish hometown, many of the city girls didn't seem the least bit coy. Some were very obviously on the prowl. Ben had never picked up a woman at a bar before. Adrian, however, was an accomplished flirt and general lech. Ben needed to be in company with outgoing and genuinely warm friends like Adrian to even tolerate the bustling crowd of strangers and other miscreants lurking in the local bars, and perhaps an added benefit would be seeing him at work.
Unfortunately, Adrian had disappeared suddenly, and Ben was left with the several acquaintances from work he didn't exactly get along with as well. Firmly planting a smile on his face, Ben tried to hear what they were talking about over the noise the DJ was playing, but was only able to make out, "Art flavor jar spackle for necklace plant" before giving up and letting his eyes wander over the crowd - which was faceless thanks to the insufficient lighting.
"Here," Adrian nearly shouted into Ben's ear shortly before pressing a sub-room temperature plastic cup of beer into his hand. Adrian had miraculously found, infiltrated, and returned from the Free Beer stand at the back of the bar, all within the first few minutes of getting in the bar. "A regular pro, Adrian is," Ben thought.
A chorus of greetings rose up from the group of coworkers as they suddenly noticed as one that Adrian was back. Ned from Processing craned his neck out and hollered at a group of women turning from the bar. They flashed smiles and walked over, the men opened their standing circle to let them join in the unintelligible (as far as Ben could tell) conversation. Ned went on to introduce the girls to the guys - Ben simply smiling and nodding as each were named to him. He was able to make out his own name when he was introduced, but that was about it. Adrian immediately hit it off with a dark-eyed brunette, and several other guys very shortly seemed to establish intended pair-bonding. Ben didn't bother to stake any sort of claim - he simply nursed his beer and planned a departure strategy before the night got too late for him to get the subway out of town.
"Bennie!" Adrian shouted in full volume; the DJ, for some inscrutable reason, decided that eight people in Manchuria weren't deaf yet and had somehow found enough power to make the so-called music louder - "Joellie, Dianne, Hank, and Brad are at the PowderKeg," which Ben guessed was another bar, "We're all about to head over there. Stick close behind." Not having the patience to explain that he was about to head home, Ben lamely followed the crowd, dropping his still half-filled cup into a garbage can.
Once they were outside, Ben made his way up to Adrian.
"I think I'll actually be calling it a night,"
"You kidding me? You had, what, half a drink? And no beauty on your arm?" - the last bit brought paradoxically mature sounding giggle from his new date.
"The week took a lot out of me, Adrian. I'm on the verge of collapse."
"Alright. One of these days, though, I will get you drunk. Mark my words!"
"I'll mark my calendar. You'll be missed, Adrian."
"Hey, I'll see you around - just one floor away."
"I know it. See you around."
Despite the ringing in his ears, Ben was able to make out Adrian saying to his date, "That kid's the oldest twenty-two year old I know." Ben agreed, and kicked himself with nearly every step to the metro station. "What of my resolution?" he taunted himself, "all talk and no action." Shaking his head suddenly to clear his mind, he pulled his walkman from a pocket and put the earphones into his ears, nearly running down the escalator as the driving strings of the last movement of Vivaldi's Summer played out.
The subway train was pulling in as he made it to the platform, its doors opening seconds before Ben reached them. Hen walked in and swung down into a seat facing in the opposite direction of travel, back towards the rest of the car, and glanced up to see if anyone else was in there. There was. A young woman -
- Ben knew he was staring. She was not more than fifteen feet away. Their eyes were locked; she had the clearest, most brilliantly green eyes Ben had ever seen. He had to turn his head to face out the window to keep from looking at her, but her eyes were burned into his mind. He was able to see his own reflection in the window - his own eyes he knew were a brown so deep as to be nearly black. Women he had been with before loved to look deep into his eyes - and he now understood the allure they probably held for them after getting caught by this woman's.
He could sense her still watching him, still staring. The subway began to slow for the next stop, the growing quiet making him realize how loud he had his walkman set. The Vivaldi movement was spinning toward its conclusion, and the tape shortly afterward ran out. As he flipped the tape, he allowed his gaze to sweep towards the woman again. She was still looking at him, and she once again trapped him with her eyes. Ben wasn't used to such overt attention. He felt blood flowing to his face - and elsewhere. The doors of the subway car slid open and shut, and it began running forward again, and throughout it all Ben wasn't able to tear his eyes away. It was too late to say something now - nothing he could possibly think to say would be adequate, or even sensible. Despite the lurching acceleration the subway car made, the woman managed to get up and make a graceful walk towards Ben and sat sideways in the row in front of him.
"Was that Vivaldi?", she asked.