This chapter moves the story on a little but is pretty much all sex! Just a reminder that the story features m/m and m/f.
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After two months of training, the teams finally had a weekend off, scheduled to give those with families a break to visit. Alex and Cal had headed off early in the car to get back to their homes miles away. Denn and Rob had mates closer but had taken the opportunity to have some quality time with them. The others were still at the house, but had the time to relax and do whatever they wanted.
Tom knew what he wanted to do, but it seemed unattainable. Still, he was going to take the opportunity, while there were fewer people about, to at least try. He found Tilly in her room. He knew Sam was in the office and hoped he could speak to her in private and get her help. He didn't know of any other way to start things unless he went back on his promise not to corner Sam again, and he worried that if he did that he would end things for good. Tilly seemed his only hope, the only person he might talk to about this.
'Tilly, can I talk to you for a moment?' he asked as he knocked on her door.
'Sure, come in.' was the reply from the other side and he entered. 'What do you need?'
'I need your help.'
Tilly only wondered about that for one second. She had a feeling she knew exactly what this was about. 'With what?'
'I need him Tilly. I know it's not just me either. I need to make him stop denying what he feels.' Tom looked so sad and helpless Tilly's heart went out to him, but she didn't know what she could do without breaking Sam's orders.
'I'm sorry. I can't help you.' she said softly, and started to turn away. Tom grabbed her arm so she couldn't.
'You've felt his desire, haven't you?' her gaze rapidly shifted from his, which was confirmation enough that she had. 'Why won't he let me in?'
'I don't know. I can't talk about this.'
That was a puzzle for a moment and then Tom realised what she meant. 'He's ordered you not to talk to me?'
'No. He ordered me not to talk about it.'
Tom's mind raced. Sam was even denying his feelings to Tilly. That couldn't be a good sign, but everyone knew they were there.
'Well, I order you to talk.' he said firmly. 'So now you have to decide who makes the most sense, like you said you would. Is it better for us to be together, or pretend nothing is happening and both end up going mad with unfulfilled lust?'
Tilly looked shocked at him asking her to make that decision, but was actually glad she had the counter-order. Sam was miserable already, and she knew exactly what he needed to make him happy. The most annoying part was that he did too but for some reason he was fighting it. 'I agree with you.' she said after a moment, and felt Tom's emotion lift. 'But I really don't know what I can do to help. I don't understand why he's fighting it either. I wish I could make him see reason, but he won't talk to me. He shut me down on day one.'
'Day one? Was that what you argued about that day in the car?'
'Yes. I felt his lust when he saw you naked, but he wouldn't admit it and ordered me not to discuss it.'
'Will you try, please?' Tom's look implored her. 'Start light if you can, get me an entry so I can try again?'
'Again?' she asked, her interest clearly peaked.
Tom looked embarrassed. 'Unfortunately I backed him into a corner on day one as well, and he shut me out too. I should have had a bit more patience, but it isn't a cat trait.' he smiled a little thinking about that. 'I just think you will have more of a chance than me of breaking through.'
'I'll speak to him. I can't promise it will have any effect, he's fighting it hard.'
'That's all I can ask. Thank you.' Tom was ecstatic that she had agreed and hoped desperately that Sam would open up to her, and then to him.
'Don't thank me yet, I could end up making things worse. If not for you certainly for me.' she smiled a wry grin.
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Tilly was nervous as she went to the office. How could she start this conversation and make Sam see sense? She knocked and he called her in. She decided to start with a classic.
'We need to talk.'
Sam looked up. 'Take a seat. What's up?' he thought she looked serious and wondered what was wrong.
'You need to sort some things out Sam. You're miserable and wound tight. Everyone can see it, and it's going to start affecting all of us. We need to be working as a tight unit, not worrying whether your mind is on the job.'
Sam was shocked she was talking like this, and horrified that his personal mood was that bad or obvious. 'I don't know what you mean. I'm fine.' he told her firmly.
'You can't keep denying things and hope they will go away Sam. Let me help you. You can talk to me about anything.'
His tone was sharp. 'You already think you know what is wrong, don't you? Everyone seems to think they know what I want and what's best for me these days.'
'I know what's right, and I know you fight it. I just don't understand why. I hate seeing you sad Sam. I love you brother, and it's hard to know you are making yourself suffer, especially when I can feel your suffering as well as my own.'
Sam looked at her then, sad for her as well as himself. 'I'm sorry. I don't want to hurt you.'
'But you're happy hurting yourself?'
'I'm not' he said, but the frown on her face reminded him she knew he was lying. 'It's too complicated. I can't get involved with him.'
Tilly was glad she was finally getting somewhere, and hoped she wouldn't blow it and make him shut down again. 'Why not Sam?' she asked quietly.
Sam took a deep breath. Perhaps he needed to unburden himself, maybe it would help. 'He's an Alpha, he's a cat, I'm supposed to be working with him on something important not trying to get in his pants. Where should I stop?'
'Sam, that's rubbish and you know it. Alphas mate all the time, the Council doesn't disapprove, and I can't imagine it will make a difference in this case. They think it makes for stronger units if there are personal relationships. Isn't your real problem that he's a cat?'
'I don't know. Perhaps.' he admitted. 'We are different Tilly, it's not going to work. And I'm not going to put myself out there just for a quick fuck.'
That choice of words surprised Tilly. 'Do you really think that is all he is after? Because it isn't like that at all for him either. You don't know it won't work, you're just afraid to try. Do you really want to let the chance of something incredible slip away on the offchance you weren't meant to be together, because I can tell you that the lust and need that floats between you two makes that highly unlikely. He might be a cat, but he's also a man Sam, and one that you want, and who wants you. You need to stop denying yourself the chance of something amazing.' she said, with a wry grin recalling that she was doing exactly the same.