"Hey you, out there on your own
Sitting naked by the phone
Would you touch me?
Hey you, with you ear against the wall
Waiting for someone to call out
Would you touch me?
Hey you, would you help me to carry the stone?
Open your heart, I'm coming home."
-Pink Floyd, "Hey You"
Hotel Parking Lot
Los Cruces, NM
Caleb and Maria waved at Enrique, it was two AM and he was going to get some sleep before the morning. Caleb had offered to take the rest of the night, but Maria didn't want to be left alone in their room. They had napped together, fully clothed on top of the sheets. It was progress, Caleb thought, his mate was becoming more comfortable with him in human form.
They sat in the darkened cab of the cargo truck, guarding the fortune in drug money and gold that had almost been returned to the Cartel in exchange for their Alpha. The window was cracked open slightly, but they kept the engine and radio off. They had a job to do, and part of it was to watch the mirrors and make sure nothing happened until everyone was up in the morning. That didn't mean they couldn't be comfortable; they had brought down a blanket and used it to cover them as Anna burrowed into his side, her head on his shoulder. He gently kissed her head, his love pushing through their mate bond as best it could since their mating wasn't complete yet. They had claimed each other, sort of... it wasn't meant as that, but when they bit each others necks in wolf form the bond had formed. Completing it would require them to bite each other while making love, and that may take a while. Maria had a lot to work though to get past her treatment at the hands of the Cartel. He had been warned it might take months, even years, before she might be able to complete the bond.
It made Caleb furious, but that was all in the past now. The men who did this to her were dead. As they were driving to the hotel, she had asked him to show her what happened in the desert. He projected his memories to her, she got to see Juan and Carlos again and it had shaken her. Watching them die should have provided closure, but it didn't. He had just held her, she didn't say much of anything that night and now she just seemed tired. "Sleep, love, I'll keep the watch."
She opened her eyes and looked up at his. "I'm afraid, Caleb. I'm afraid he will still own my dreams."
Caleb rubbed her back. "Then we will make new dreams, and kick his out. He's gone now, love, and I have you now. I'll never hurt you, I'll never let anything happen to you. You and I will have a life together, we will be happy and your dreams will make you smile again."
She sat up a little and put her hand on his cheek. "I can feel that deep inside, I just have a hard time trusting that to be true. I want it to be true. I love you, Caleb, and I will be yours and yours alone." She stared into his eyes, he could see the desire and doubt warring in them until they clouded over. She pulled his face to hers, and their lips touched ever so gently for the first time. She felt her lips coming alive with the tingles and the sensations of being with her mate. Caleb allowed her to lead as she moved her lips along his, before the tip of her tongue parted his lips. He opened his mouth and allowed her entry, her tongue gently twirling around his as she pulled him closer. Her breathing shortened and her face blushed as her body responded in a way she didn't know was still possible.
It was desire. She could feel it deep within her chest, moving through to her core. Her nipples had swollen and hardened, and her sex was swelling with blood and lubrication. They could smell her arousal, and she pulled back from him, confused. She looked at him, she loved him, but the thought of doing those things again had her mind screaming no. Those things were painful, they were degrading, they were things she had sworn never to do again.
Caleb understood what was going on when he smelled her fear, he expected that to happen, but to have her kiss him was a victory. He let her move down to his shoulder again where she could hide the emotions on her face from him. He kissed her hair gently as he pulled her close to his chest again. "Thank you, my love, that was amazing. Just as you are."
Maria was trying not to cry but was losing. "I'm not, I'm broken, I can't even kiss you without being afraid of everything. I'm not much of a mate to you. I'm sorry I can't do those things. You deserve better."
Caleb picked her up gently and set her on his thighs, her legs straddling him. He put his hand under her chin and lifted her head up from were she was hiding it so he could look into her eyes. "Maria, look in my eyes. You are my mate, I want no one but you. You are not broken, you are healing, and every time you face your fears and move past them you make me so proud of you. It wasn't that long ago you kicked me across the room and knocked me out, and now you are able to touch me and hold me. You just kissed me of your own free will, and it was the kind of kiss I was dreaming about. The kiss of a mate, the kiss of desire, the kiss of love." He wiped the tears from her eyes with his thumbs as he held her face gently. "We have all the time in the world, my love. We will get through this together. Understand?" She nodded. "Good. I think you should lay down and get some sleep, but I'd like to kiss you before you do that."
Maria smiled and closed her eyes, her lips parted slightly and he saw her lick them in anticipation. As softly as he could, he leaned forward into her lips while his fingers caressed the back of her head. This kiss quickly escalated, her moan of pleasure leading him to push forward, his tongue exploring her mouth as he started to possess her. Her hands fisted on his shirt before she opened her hands and started to run her fingers over his chest. He allowed the kiss to go on until he felt her getting nervous again and pulled back. "I love you, Maria, and we will do that many times in the future."
"I think I would like that." Maria sat back and yawned. "You are right love, sleep would be good right now." He helped get the blanket over her as she laid on her side in the seat, her head in his lap, his throbbing erection pulled out of the way before she could notice it. She was asleep before it went down. Again.