Author's Note: This story contains elements that may be disturbing to some readers. If you would prefer not to read these elements, I've put a trigger warning (line of +++++) before and after each of those scenes so you can skip if you wish. The scenes are included only to provide background and motivation of the characters involved.
The story takes place between the end and the epilogue of Behind the Lines of the Were Wars. I recommend you read that first. -Partwolf
Beyond the Were War Ch. 1
"And if I show you my dark side
Will you still hold me tonight?
And if I open my heart to you
And show you my weak side
What would you do?
Would you sell your story to Rolling Stone?
Would you take the children away
And leave me alone?
And smile in reassurance
As you whisper down the phone?
Would you send me packing?
Or would you take me home?"
-Roger Waters, The Final Cut
Alpha Robert Hastings had only known fear like this once before, watching his mate bleed out while he carried her towards help. The pit now in his stomach threatened to swallow him whole.
He watched as the woman he loved and hoped to mate, Renee Johnson, bled out onto the sand and stone of the amphitheater at Red Rock. His own body was still in shock at what she had just done. She had stood up to a powerful Alpha and refused to play along with his game of dominance and power. Like Gandhi, she had offered to lay down her life for the principle of leaders who served their people, not ruled them. It would have ended in her death, on live TV, to the horror and disgust of human and Were nation alike. Just before she collapsed, Alpha Diggs was in the process of raping one of the women in her pack and she somehow rose up from the ground and killed him.
Her last words were not going to be "Asshole" if he could do anything about it. He rushed forward to cradle her head, his tears falling onto her ashen face as he pleaded with her to stay with him. He watched as the doctors and medical personnel rushed forward, surrounding Renee as they opened their kits and went to work. Other Alphas moved him away from the medical staff, and his senior pack members held him in place.
Why? Why did he let her enter this ring? Why was the kindest, most reluctant Alpha in the country the one on the ground? Would Luna be so cruel as to give him hope at a future, at a life with a mate again, only to tear it from him again?
He was a proud man, but this day had truly broken his spirit. Tears flowed freely as he remained kneeling down at the edge of the challenge circle. His pack members felt his anguish over the Alpha bond. They came down and surrounded him, letting the closeness and contact of the Pack do the talking. Renee's Santa Fe pack members came into the group as well, having bonded during their visit to his Gila pack prior to the Wolfstock festival. Many shifted and howled their grief to the night sky.
Other pack Alphas and pack members came down from the stands and joined the large group, surrounding others who were crying and praying to Luna to save this brave woman. Rank, sex, power- none of it mattered as they gathered together with singular purpose. No one spoke, they all watched and prayed as the doctors and nurses worked frantically to stem her bleeding and get replacement blood into her. It took ten minutes before they had her stabilized enough they could move her to an ambulance; as they moved off they could see the bandages, the clamps tying off torn arteries, the bags of blood being squeezed to force more blood in before her heart would give out again. They had already shocked her back to life once.
They watched in silence as she was loaded into an ambulance and taken to the nearest hospital. The doctors had spread the word of her blood type through their respective pack bonds, and matches were already heading to the parking lot to go donate. Renee was not just an Alpha to the gathering of werewolves here, she was a hero, a statesman, a mother to be and a hope for a better future.
The siren was enough to prod Robert into action. "Derek and Amanda," he called over to the Johnson Pack alpha who was her older brother and his mate, "I have drivers ready to take us to the hospital. Can you join me? I need to speak to you both." Derek nodded his assent, he was still trembling and holding onto Amanda's hand with a death grip.
The ride was awkward as no one wanted to start talking. They were all too worried about whether she would make it, but none of the three would voice their concern. They knew it wasn't just Renee in danger, but the twins inside her that were at the 12 week point of her pregnancy.
Derek finally broke the silence. "Renee told me she was getting close to you. When she last talked to me I could hear in her voice she was happy again. You challenged for the right to be her mate. As her older brother, I have to ask what your intentions are."
Robert sat up a little and looked him in the eye. "I've fallen in love with her. I think she is too. I want to mate her, if she will have me. I got close to her earlier this week but then she pulled away. I think she was trying to protect me."
Amanda looked up at him. "Protect you from what?"
"From having to watch what I just saw. From feeling the pain of watching someone you care about deeply, slipping away, and there is nothing you can do. Again. I barely survived when my first mate died, I don't know if I can keep going if Renee doesn't recover. I want her by my side, I want her pack to merge with mine and for us to raise her children and have our own. I want the dream back."
Renee reached over and took his hand in hers. "She is strong, she will get through this. She's too stubborn to give up now."
"I know her strength and courage, she proved that to everyone. I have never been so ashamed to be Were as when I watched an Alpha tear her apart because she wouldn't accept rule by brute force. We have to find a better way as a race, especially now that we are in the open."
Derek put his head in his hands. "We will deal with this problem at the Alpha level. Right now I just want to know she will recover. She's been through so much already, I just want her to be happy again."
"She was happy. Even though she didn't want the Alpha job, she's a natural for it. People are drawn to her, and she doesn't make others jealous. You should see her face light up when she is with her Pack."
"I'm glad she has that," Amanda said. "Ever since she lost her mate she has been moody and withdrawn, with frequent nightmares. She isn't getting enough rest for a pregnant woman."
"I've been trying. I know the night she was with me she slept well."
Derek tensed, he knew she was a consenting adult but he didn't want to think about his baby sister in bed with a man who wasn't her mate. Yet. "Do you think she is ready to move on from Gary and be mated again?"
"I don't know. I'll find out soon, I hope. I don't plan to be apart from her much." Robert sighed. "We have all these Alpha meetings this weekend, I expect some will be delayed tonight but we can't reschedule the weekend. I hate the idea of going even though she would want me there to push through the changes."
"Well, we can have Andy represent his Alpha while she is in the hospital. You and I can be at the meetings, and Amanda can stay here. If anything changes she can let us know and we can be here in fifteen minutes if anything changes."
Robert nodded. "That will have to do. I'll make sure we have cars and drivers on standby." He gazed off in concentration for a moment. "My Beta is making reservations at the hotel next to the hospital, can I reserve you a room there as well?"
"Yes, thank you."
Just then the car pulled into the visitor parking lot. Renee was already in surgery, being worked on by a team of human and Were doctors. It was going to be a long night.
**Two Years Earlier**
Just outside Hachita, NM
Carlos Gomez ran into his home like a man whose life was in danger.
It was.
Running through the kitchen, he looked frantically for his daughter. She had just turned eighteen and was a senior in high school, but not after today. Today they had to run for it. "MARIA!!! Pack quickly, we have to go!" He burst through her door without knocking, finding her on the bed with headphones on as she worked on her homework. The movement was enough to get her attention.