"Shit." Renee started to laugh. "I guess it's a good thing I just gained a medic because I just lost my nurse."
Robert laughed. "They will make a good pair then. Terry is my pack Doctor."
"This road trip has been exciting so far, can you introduce us to your Pack?"
Robert started the receiving line and as the small group of Santa Fe wolves went past, there were no more matings but there were a lot of happy faces. Robert moved the group to the raised area at the back of the dining hall and let Renee do the introductions.
She was interrupted several times by loud squeals and screams as long lost extended family members found each other. A half dozen pack members were led away to sit with relatives they hadn't seen in years and had feared lost. The meal went on well into the afternoon, with groups of Gila Pack members coming by in small groups to introduce themselves.
Renee motioned to a young female Omega who was bringing food and asked her if she could bring a picnic basket for the new mates. "I want to check in on Wendy, and they might need to stop for five minutes to eat and drink." A few minutes later she had a box of food and some bottled water and walked with the Omega to Terry's home. They didn't hear anything so they knocked after ensuring no males were nearby. A minute and a few ignored commands to go away later, a naked and protective male cracked open the door. The smell of new mates- sex, sweat and arousal- was heavy in the air.
Renee didn't attempt to approach the door, not wanting to challenge him any further. "I wanted to check on Wendy and I brought you some food." He took the basket as Wendy came out of the bedroom. She walked up behind her mate and hugged his waist.
"I'm fine, Alpha. We've cleaned and treated our mating bites and I might let him out of here someday if I ever let this fine erection go down." She was reaching around and playing with his cum-covered balls as she talked. He was hardening again and was losing patience with the visitors already.
"Good to hear. I guess you won't need to go to Wolfstock then." She grinned as Terry turned and picked her up and carried her giggling to the bedroom. Clearly, the time for sex had returned. Renee closed the door for them and they walked back.
Robert met them at the door to the dining room. "Would your pack like to join us on a run? We've been doing it as often as possible since the end of the war."
"Absolutely, they will love it. I don't think we'll get the new mates to join us, though." They shared a knowing smile. The two Packs quickly assembled and switched in the field behind the dining hall, and they all disrobed and shifted, leaving a few elders and the young behind. Robert was a good sized gray wolf, and he drank in her white wolf form with appreciation. His wolf was forward and VERY interested in her. They both howled to start the run and he set off with her at his side.
Two hours later, the group returned, tired and happy. The mated pairs returned to their homes while many of the single wolves paired up; there was nothing that got the libido going like a good run! Pairs started to drift away into the woods as Renee and Robert retrieved their clothing.
"Tired?" Robert didn't want to push things too fast, she was still in mourning from the loss of her mate, he had to push down his wolf side that wanted to mate her now. His human side was captivated.
"I wouldn't mind a walk. I spent so much time cooped up in the caves and in hiding places that I've forgotten how nice it is to just be outside under the moon. The rock formations are amazing in this light."
"Amazing... yes, just what I was thinking. I'd love to walk with you." He offered his arm, she took it and they left by a narrow trail.
Renee looked over at the man she was with, she was strongly attracted to him but felt like she was betraying her dead mate by looking at another that way. It was uncomfortable for her human side. Her wolf was all for spending more time with him, especially naked. She was rolling over on her back and wiggling. "Can you tell me a little about yourself?"
Robert slid his hand down and interlocked it with hers as they walked. "Well, I'm forty two years old and I have been Alpha of this Pack for twenty of those. My parents were killed by a raiding party and I had to grow into the job quickly. Luckily, I found my mate early. Lucy was the daughter of the Sawtooth Pack alphas, and we made a great team." He paused, the emotion starting to overcome him. "She was smart and beautiful and wise and made me feel like the luckiest man in the world. When she got pregnant with twins I was over the moon." He stopped walking and looked at her, fighting to hold back the tears. "We don't talk about it much. She slipped on a steep trail while we were on a run, she liked to exercise even into her sixth month. I caught her before she went over the cliff, but she hit a rock hard with her stomach and started bleeding. The bleeding wouldn't stop, she was panicking and could feel the distress of the cubs. We were miles away from help."
Renee pulled him into a hug, knowing how difficult it was for an Alpha to share weakness. "You don't have to continue if it's too painful."
Robert wiped his eyes clear. "No, I need to talk about it and I want you to know." They walked in silence until they came across a fallen log they could sit on, she snuggled him under his arm as she buried her face in his chest. "I called for help as I picked her up and ran back. I moved as fast as I could, but she lost consciousness after a few minutes. By the time Doc arrived, she was gone." He was no longer able to hold back the tears. "Terry said she had an abrupted placenta. They tried an emergency C-section but the cubs had been without oxygen too long. My boys were dead too. I was absolutely crushed."
Renee held him tight, she shared his grief and let some of her own out. It was ten minutes before either could speak.
Renee looked up. "Didn't you want to join them?"
"Every day. I dreamed of ways to kill myself. The Pack tried everything to get me out of my depression."
Renee paused. "So did I. I went through the motions for those weeks, just because I still had to work to end the war. I didn't want his sacrifice to be in vain. I was planning to kill myself after the funeral so I could be with him. It was only when I found out I was pregnant that I found a reason to live."
Robert pushed her hair aside and kissed her forehead tenderly. "I would go to sleep every night thinking I couldn't go another day without her, and every morning I had to find a reason to get out of bed. I don't know if I was stubborn or a coward, but I could never do it. I buried myself in my Pack. I had no heir, we were on the edge of falling apart, so I forced myself back."
"How are you now?"
"It got easier as I got used to being alone, but I've not been happy. Busy, but never happy. Every time I would see new mates I would go into a funk and be depressed for days."
"You didn't seem to be sad with Terry and Wendy, did that change too?"
"That... is a very recent development. I think I've finally let her go and I'm ready to move forward."
Renee squeezed his chest. "I hope you find your happiness someday, someone who can share your life and give you a family."
Robert hugged her back. "I would like that. I will wait as long as I have to for that woman to come to me." With that, they walked silently, hand in hand back to the compound and to her guest room. "Have a good sleep, Renee, I've enjoyed our time." He cupped her face and lightly kissed her lips before releasing her. "My room is at the end of the hall, please don't hesitate to ask me or any other pack member if you need anything."
"Thank you Robert, I enjoyed it as well. Can I join you for breakfast?"
"I'd be delighted." With that, he reluctantly turned for his own room and she watched him for a few steps before closing the door. She listened to her voice mail- mostly updates on the planning for Wolfstock- and took a quick shower before going to sleep.
The dream came quickly, but tonight it was different. Her wolf was running along the riverbank, nose up and hunting for the scent that she desired so much. He appeared across the river, a majestic brown wolf, his bright eyes focused on her as she approached. She became aroused as she scented him, the need pulsing through her body to be dominated and loved again. She watched as he shifted into human form, his strong body sending her desire through the roof as he looked at her. "Follow your heart." He waved and after he shifted back he trotted away. She howled and whined and paced the river's edge but he didn't look back, so she put her head on her front paws and waited.
A new scent wafted over as she sensed another wolf approaching. This one was gray and strong and his eyes bore into her soul as he approached. He sniffed her as she lay there, then he put his head into her chest and pushed. When she didn't get up, he yipped and dropped his forelegs down, tail up and wagging. She ignored him, and he trotted back the way he came, looking over his shoulder occasionally to see if she was following.