"My sister is strong, she will pull through this trial." Gary went ashen at this, after everything he had done he had followed it up by attacking the Alphas sister. Maybe they were just resting him up for the next round of torture? He could see he was in a pit, and there were some people looking down at them. Derek reached out his hand and placed it on his shoulder. "Do not worry, you are family now." Gary was even more shocked, how could he be family after what he had done? "How much do you know about werewolves?"
"Not that much. This war started my senior year at the Air Force Academy. We watched the coverage, the base was on lockdown. The next day they had officers come down the ranks and shine lights into our eyes. There were a few pulled out of our ranks, we never saw them again. One was a friend of mine, I never suspected a thing. We were told they were werewolves who had infiltrated our ranks. It didn't take long after that before the shoot on sight orders came out. We knew was that they could pass as humans, were incredibly dangerous, and if one got to you and you survived, you would become a monster yourself. I saw the tapes in the hospitals, and I understood what was at stake."
"Then you know that you have that kind of power inside you, but you also know that we can be friends. I have seen and talked to your wolf, we were able to keep him sedated until the worst of it was past. My question is how much YOU know about your wolf."
"Nothing. I have gaps in my memory, and then it's just fleeting images. Like when I saw the blood on her head, I saw an image of her naked and hugging me, and I couldn't understand it. I know somehow she is important to me, but why?"
"You need to understand that for a werewolf, there are two forms in our mind. Our human which you are used to, and our wolf form. The wolf is driven by instinct, not conscious thought. It is fiercely protective and strong. It's driven to mate, to reproduce and to function within the Pack. Wolves mate for life, and the wolf is the one that recognizes their mate by smell. The wolf knows that there is one out there who completes them, who they are meant to spend their life with, and is the only one they can have children with. The scent of their mate comes to them in a dream when they are sexually mature, and it is the hope of every one of us to find that mate and make them ours. My sister, Renee, is your mate. She got close enough to get your scent and claimed you while you were still chained up."
Gary laid back and closed his eyes. He remembered how aroused he was by her that day, how beautiful she was, and then he started crying as he realized how badly he had hurt her. He didn't understand before why she didn't even try to fight him when he was choking her, only now he realized that she couldn't hurt him.
"Your wolf has already accepted her as your mate, even though the actual mating hasn't occurred yet. You survived because of her. Your mate was with you the whole time, never leaving your side. Her smell and touch kept the anger away until your body could heal and your wolf could accept the change. You owe your life to her." Gary knew this to be true. "I want you to relax and close your eyes. Weres are able to communicate mind to mind with their Alpha and their mate. I want to show you some things you missed." Using his bond, he then projected to him the events after he had passed out; how Renee had protected him, cared for him, and healed him. The tears ran freely as he watched; when he first saw her he thought she was perfect, but she was more than that, she was magnificent. His heart ached with the stirrings of love as he saw her holding him.
"Now I want you to look inside your mind for your wolf. He is there with you, he will always be with you, but you have to find a balance between your human and your beast nature. Think of it as a sliding scale, on one end fully human and the other fully beast. One or the other is primary, but you have to share. What both of you have been doing has been to lock the other up and keep it from interacting. This will only lead to madness and destruction."
"But can I let him win?"
"It's not about winning, you can't win against yourself. It's about sharing your mind, each side respecting what the other can provide. You only go to the extremes when you have to, say in battle you give yourself fully to the wolf side, when doing intellectual activities you go to the human side. Your body then follows your mind, when the wolf comes forward your body does the same. Just understand that it is fluid; it's not an on/off switch, it's more like a left/right balance on your stereo. Moving back and forth is easy once you establish trust between the two parts, and your mind can control when that happens."
Gary considered this; he was afraid of his wolf and what his wolf might do. Then again, his wolf had seen what his human side had done. Laying back on the mat, he searched his mind for the place he had locked his wolf. He found him in a cage in a dark room, pacing and snarling. He saw his human form approach and unlock the cage, holding out his hand for the wolf to sniff. Tentatively his wolf came forward, hackles still up, but he could sense the sadness in his eyes as he sat down before him. He hugged his wolf and in his mind tore down the cage that kept him trapped. "We will have to share. I'm sorry about what I did, I hope you can trust me." His wolf rubbed his muzzle against his cheek and showed him their mate's joy when he came out of his drug-induced sleep. "Yes, my wolf, we will have to share our mate too!"
Gary changed over to his wolf form, but this time it was different. He immediately noticed how sharp and bright his vision was, and the smells of the place exploded in his nose. He realized that he was now seeing the world through his wolf, who chuffed and moved around happily. The voice in his head came back. "If you are ready to leave, I'd like to take you to her." He immediately changed back, but this time he could feel the wolf side in his consciousness. Sharing was different, but interesting. He could feel the urging of his wolf to go to her. "Alpha, if you would permit, my wolf and I would like to see our mate." Derek smiled broadly and called for ropes to be lowered. Gary left the pit for the first time in four days and walked back out the cave towards the sleeping areas in the front.
His heart broke when he saw Renee in the bed, tube sticking out of her mouth and Ann watching by his bedside. Ann smiled as they came in. "Alpha, she is stable and breathing well, but she has not regained consciousness yet." Gary fell to his knees beside her, sobbing as he moved the hair off her face and caressed her cheek. The guilt crashed upon him; how would she ever forgive him for what he did? Could he forgive her for torturing him? He traced the scars on his arms and chest as he looked down on her. Forgive? He already had. He had known she was special from the first time he saw her. She was his MATE and he vowed at that instant to protect and love her for the rest of his days as his wolf agreed. He held her hand and whispered into her ear, "My love, come back to me. My wolf and I want to be with you forever."
He felt her squeeze his hand and a huge smile broke from his face. "Sleep, my love, we will never leave you." He stretched out on the bed alongside her and fell asleep listening to her heartbeat.
Air Operations Command Center, Cheyenne Air National Guard Base
General Thaddeus Martin's day had just gone to shit.
The Charles C. Carson Center for Mortuary Affairs at Dover Air Force Base in Delaware had been charged with identifying the remains from Pedro 155. The rescue helicopter had mysteriously exploded and all crew were lost shortly after recovering Air Force Capt. Gary Johnson from the forest below. Except it wasn't Capt. Johnson, as the flash message in his hand revealed. They didn't know who he was, but the DNA tests showed WHAT he was. The body parts they recovered were of a werewolf.
Capt. Johnson's status was just changed from Killed in Action (KIA) to Missing in Action (MIA). His squadron commander and chaplain were on their way to his parent's house in Denver. Now Gen. Martin had a downed pilot, presumed captured by werewolves and deep behind enemy lines.
Every aircraft they had was pressed into service to begin a low altitude search centered on the crash location. Army personnel were being deployed to start a ground search. The biggest rescue mission since the Gulf War was gearing up in south central Wyoming.
He rescinded the shoot on sight order, requiring visual verification of targets prior to engaging. He couldn't take the chance of killing his own man.