I'm not going to waste time with excuses as to why this chapter has been so long coming but I will say that I am incredibly sorry that it has been so long. Thankfully I have now recovered my inspiration for this story and it's fair to say that it only heats up from now on in.
There are those of you that are going to hate me for this chapter but that is all I am going to say...
Caution- this chapter does contain violence. If you don't want to read it then you have been warned, just don't complain to me at the end.
Enjoy... mochadesire
Chapter 6
Faces. There were so many faces. They kept swirling, changing, shifting, and dissolving in and out of the midnight backdrop. Some, she recognised, but there were others that were unfamiliar to her. And yet, it seemed like she knew them all the same. One was a woman, cold yet fiery, with a calculating glint of intelligence burning bright in her dark, crimson eyes. The other was a man, beautiful and rugged with a startling resemblance to the woman before him. He too had a look that screamed danger.
As they swam in and out of view, she had the overwhelming feeling of sadness. It swept up suddenly and consumed her so that tears stung her cheeks, hot and wet. What was it about these two mysterious faces that caused her so much grief?
And then there was just darkness. No more images. Just sheer emptiness. And from the emptiness came the voice. In that moment she heard something, a whisper like the rattling of bones. It came on the edge of the dream, an afterthought if you will, as the remnants of the dream world faded out to the corners of reality: Allaine...
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Rowan woke with a start. Sweat was dripping off of her, staining the delicate satin sheets and her hair was wild. Raising a shaking hand to wipe away the perspiration from her face, her fingertips brushed her cheeks. Pulling her hand away in shock, she was stunned to see tears glistening on the pads of her fingers. She had been crying?
Struggling to extract herself from the restricting bindings of the bed sheets, Rowan tried to remember her dream. It felt so imperative that she remember but why couldn't she? At last free, she stumbled towards the gleaming marble bathroom where, gasping deeply, she stopped in front of the huge gilded mirror that spanned the wall above the sinks. Sinks that she had once joked could double as bathtubs.
There was no joking now. With her chest still heaving, it took Rowan a while to take in her haggard appearance. Her hair was not so much artful curls but more a mess of knots and tangles. Her face was damp, angry red blotches appearing; a result of her subconscious tears. Her eyes were... For a moment she could only stare. How was that possible, she thought? She blinked, hoping that her eyes would go back to normal; but they didn't. And then she snapped. With a scream to wake the dead, Rowan flung herself away from the mirror, scrabbling to get as far away as she could from her reflection. But no matter how far she got, she could not escape the image of her bright green eyes... and the ring of blood red that now surrounded them.
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Luke woke to screaming. At first, he believed it to be a dream, but as the fuzzy boundaries of sleep slipped into clear-cut reality, he realised his mistake. Coming to full consciousness with a hard jolt, Luke wildly did a full scan of the room. His vampire eyes took in the rumpled sheets and the tears that covered them. They took in the half open bathroom door and the slight cracks in the painted wood where the door had been crashed open just a little too forcefully. His ears picked up the irregular breathing of the now quiet person next door. And his brain screamed
stop acting like a calculating vampire you idiot, Rowan is in trouble!
Finally able to shake away the remaining cobwebs of the dream world, Luke blurred into the bathroom in less than a second. Automatically searching for threats and finding none, he rushed to Rowan's side. She was lying in a ball on the cold, marble floor just in front of his overly large tub. Luke could see from a mile away that she was shaking.
Luke felt an icy feeling settle in the pit of his stomach as he reached out to his mate. It persisted as he gently rolled her over to see her hands covering her face, quiet sobs echoing from behind her makeshift mask. His heart broke to see her face stained with tears through her fingers. He fought back the urge to growl; it went against everything he held true to see her like this.
He had never felt more on edge or scared as he carefully and silently picked Rowan off of the floor, moving slowly and steadily to ensure he didn't jolt her. He set her on the smooth sheets of the four poster bed, before he stood back, utterly at loss, his heart feeling like it was being ripped to shreds in front of him. What could he do? For once in his long life he cursed that he had been given these supernatural powers; what good were they if he could not help her?
She still had her hands covering her face.
"Rowan..." he started, but then stopped. Somehow words didn't seem adequate enough. But his mangled attempt seemed to get through. She was silent now and her hands slowly left her face, not without a few tremors he noticed. But still she kept her face turned away.
"Don't look at me Luke," Rowan whispered. There was no hint of fear in her voice. Luke struggled to place it, but it almost was as if she was ashamed. The icy feeling still hadn't gone away.
Carefully, the vampire circled the bed until he came to stand in front of the raven haired woman before him. Kneeling on the plush carpet, he took one delicate hand in his own large, coarse ones and looked straight into her face.
"Show me your eyes Rowan," he murmured. His mate kept them steadfastly shut and mutely shook her head. Ice fire spread from his stomach, taking over every nerve as she continued to squirm away from his scrutiny.
Luke sighed and bent his head forward so that his forehead was touching Rowan's. He too shut his eyes and exhaled again, slowly. They sat like this for what seemed to Luke like a lifetime before he felt the moistness of lips brush sweetly against his brow. His eyes shot open and his head flew up to see Rowan gazing apprehensively back at him.
His first thought was that of relief. It flooded through him, growing in momentum until it poured out to his extremities. He still had no idea what had caused her such distress over the past, tense few minutes but he felt relief nonetheless. And then he looked closer. He looked deep into those expressive, emerald eyes that he had grown to adore and suddenly understood. Ringing her irises was an unmistakable circle of crimson that screamed vampire. It seemed to pulsate and almost swirl with a life of its own, fading out through browns and khakis until the tendrils became green again. He could not help but let his mouth hang open; this was way beyond what he knew.
Rowan maintained a tense silence as she let Luke stare deep into her new eyes. She knew however with certainty that there was no reproach in his eyes as they took in the ring of blood; all she saw was surprise. But she could see that there was also a hint of fear and that scared her more than any supernatural physical alterations.
"Please don't fear me Luke," she whispered, snapping her eyes shut again, "I can live with your anxiety and concern, even your anger, but your fear? I cannot survive that."
Luke felt a tugging in his chest as he watched Rowan retreat again back into herself. He was terrified of this new, unsure woman before him. So used was he to her exuberant confidence and tough nature that he couldn't fathom even beginning knowing how to deal with the insecurities that seemed to rise up around her now with increasing regularity.
"I could never fear you Rowan," he murmured back, trailing a line of feather kisses across one slender cheek bone. "I fear the thing inside you, yes, but only because I am terrified that it will destroy you, that it will destroy the beautiful, radiant, fearless woman that I have grown to know and adore." He stroked the pad of his thumb over her moist lower lip, battling with his temptation to throw her back on the bed and kiss all her anxieties away. He placed one kiss on each eyelid before sitting back again.
Rowan hesitantly opened her eyes again to see a beaming Luke kneeling before her. "You know personally, I think that the red suits you," he chuckled before gathering her in his arms and peppering her neck and face with kisses. She too snorted at his vain attempt to make light on the situation and thumped him playfully on the chest as she tried to escape his overzealous administrations.
"Aha! There she is," Luke cried as she freed herself from his grasp and leapt gracefully to the over side of the huge bed where she stood with an eyebrow cocked cheekily. "Finally, Rowan is back," he said with a huge smile before blurring to catch his raven beauty again.
To his surprise she seemed to sense his coming and had vaulted away from him with a wild shriek of mirth. Peals of laughter echoed around the room as she bounded to the great, oak door and grasped the gilded handle. She blew an arrogant kiss before disappearing without a backwards glance.
Luke threw back his head and laughed, shaking his chocolate curls as his mate slipped from the room.