My name is Jean I am the 49 year old stay at home mother of four grown children. I have three boys ages 19, 22 and 27 and a daughter age 18.
My husband Andy has been a good provider but has traveled for business a lot in our 28 years of marriage.
With my daughter Sally and youngest son Ted starting college, I have for the first time in my marriage had some free time for myself. I have always stayed in pretty good shape just running after 4 children but over the last few years I have had to join a gym and work out at least a few times a week to keep ahead of gravity that I know will eventually cause the body to start sagging.
I keep my gray hair hidden and have been told that my long dark hair and fair complexion accentuate my perky little body and my dark eyes.
My problems began a long time ago but until recently even I didn't see them coming. Ted has had a life-long friend named John that grew up a few doors down on our quiet street almost as a member of our family. My other children always had friends, but John is the only one that consistently joined in our family outings and vacations.
I think his parents came from money but both had a bit of a drinking problem and John, as far back as I can remember always seemed to be alone.
Andy was pretty active with the kids when he wasn't traveling and both he and I used to go out of our way to make John feel like he belonged. Because of our focus on the kids, our sex life lost its passion a long time ago. Sex became more compassion than passion long before Sally was born. We just accepted it as the way it was. The one thing that Andy always reassured me was that he was serious about our wedding vows and hoped I was to.
John first started wandering into our lives when he was about seven. Because he and Ted were the same age and in the same class at school, it was not long before they were the best of friends. While my own kids treated me as mom John treated me differently. From about the time John turned 12, he started doing little things like bringing me little gifts or always sitting next to me at family outings. He would always be the first to volunteer to help me with clean up or running errands.
By the time he was fifteen, he would make up reasons to hang around the house when I was home even when Bill and the other kids were out. When he was 18 he started coming up behind me and putting his arms around me in a big hug. I just thought he was trying to find a mother figure in his life.
Slowly over the next year, his hands during one of his hugs would accidently touch my breasts. I never thought much of it until later. As he got more daring his hands would linger on my breasts or he would squeeze my bottom. I finally had to tell him that he was being inappropriate when just before his 19th birthday he came up behind me and boldly tweaked both of my nipples while standing so close that I thought I could feel his hard on against my bottom. As I spun around to express my displeasure he took my chin in his hand and kissed me on the lips until I pulled away and scolded him.
Almost 19 years old, John was not a little boy. In fact he was quite a handsome young man standing about 6'4' and what I would guess to be 220 pounds. After I scolded him he put his head down and headed for the door.
It was then that I realized that John had actually started my motor running so to speak. Here I was almost 50 years old, the mother of 4 and this good looking young man couldn't keep his hands off me. Rather than create a scene or embarrass him, I decided to keep this to myself.
For the next few weeks John seemed to disappear. I guessed it was because he was embarrassed or maybe afraid to face me.
With my kids getting older their interest in doing things as a family became less. I was taken by surprise when Andy was able to round up all the kids for a Saturday hike. I had made plans to get my hair done that afternoon and in spite of all the encouragement to join the family, I decided to take a me day and let Andy have some time with our kids. The family loaded all their gear and was on their way at the crack of dawn for a long hike up a nearby mountain.
I took a long leisurely shower and had breakfast out on the patio. My plan was to run a few errands, get my hair done and then be back in time to join the family for dinner at our favorite steak house.
As I was putting the dirty dishes in the sink dressed only in my under ware and a dark blue house coat there was a knock on the door. Thinking nothing of it I answered the door to find John standing there. Before I could ask him what he wanted he stepped in and said hi Mrs. Johnson. I know that my behavior has been a problem for you and I just wanted to find you alone to say that I am sorry.
Without thinking I stepped forward and took him in my arms. I looked up into his eyes and said no harm done let's just keep this as our little secrete Ok.
I'd like that a lot Mrs. Johnson. You see I have had a crush on you for a long time and I know that my inexperience with girls probably led me to offend you.
John, I am old enough to be your mother and I have always treated you as a son. Why don't I get some coffee for the both of us and let's sit and talk thru this.
As I joined John in the living room and set the coffee on the small table, he sat about as close to me as two people can sit. He took my hands in his and said I really like you a lot and being with you has become an obsession with me. I know you see me as a kid but I am not a kid any more.
He seemed to be pouring his heart out to me and I didn't have the heart to stop him as his hands started rubbing slowly up and down my arms. As he talked he ran his hands over my shoulders and started massaging my neck. When I told him that even though what he was doing felt good and that I was flattered by his interest in me, he was once again being inappropriate.
He must have heard only the first part of what I said because he smiled down at me and held me tight as his lips touched mine. As I struggled to get free John's hands were all over me. Covered by my thick house coat I am not quite sure what Johns hands could feel but I knew that he was looking for something and that if I didn't stop him soon, I was in real trouble.