Like almost any mom, I expected I'd do and sacrifice just about anything for my kids. And over the years, I had given up quite a bit to make sure there was somebody home most nights (my husband travels for work, usually being away Sunday nights through Friday mornings), so I had declined various projects over the years in order to ensure somebody was home. No question it had hurt my career, but my kids are worth it. Now my oldest was 19 and about to start his sophomore year at college, while my youngest son had turned 16 a few months ago and was just learning to drive.
As anyone can tell you, college is not inexpensive these days. And when you take into consideration Corey's preference for WVU, the rates for out-of-state tuition were far from cheap. But that was where he had his heart set on and we do try to accommodate both kids in areas like that. He had joined a fraternity on a sort of probationary basis (this was never really clear to me) during his freshman year and assured me he'd be a full-fledged member in his sophomore year. Personally, I never saw the attraction in it and had never even joined a soririty when I was in school over twenty-five years ago. That's right - it was a long time ago and I am not the youngest of mothers. I had Corey when I was 28 and Tim when I was 31. You're as capable of doing the math as anyone - I'm now 47 and no longer a spring chicken. I'm not horrible to look at and do exercise at least a couple times a week, but I'm definitely a little overweight. the weight only seems to hang on my torso, hips and upper arms - you could never tell just by looking at my face, legs or lower arms. So in public when I want to look better, I usually wear undergarments which compress me a little, with a looser layer on top. And like many other women, my boobs grew while nursing, then never quite returned to their former size or shape afterwards. And it's been 14 years since I stopped! No longer as full as they once were, they tend to hang too much for my liking, so I never, ever go bra-less. Most days, either a sports bra or an underwired full-cup is my garment of choice.
why am I sharing all this? Well, I thought I'd always do anything for my kids, but last week that belief was put to an extreme test. We were taking Corey back to school to start his sophomore year. The first year, he'd lived on campus. This year, he and four frat buddies were renting a house just off campus. The whole frat situation was still very unclear to me, but Corey assured me if things went well, he'd be a full frat member with all the associated perks very soon.
i was glad he was taking his own car (well, we leased it for him) to school this year - it meant if he wanted to come home for a weekend, I wouldn't have to go get him, then take him back - twenty hours of driving I could quite happily live without! So Friday morning dawned gloomy with rain in the air - not the worst driving weather, but not the best, either with the chance of heavier showers at any time. Corey set off in his car, the back seat and trunk packed full of stuff. Tim came with me in my car, the back seat and trunk also full. This way, Tim could drive part of the way and we could share the task. We were barely two minutes from home when my phone rang and I asked Tim to take Corey's call. He explained he'd forgotten something and was going back to get it and would likely catch us up somewhere en route. Whatever... I am so used to Corey forgetting things I didn't think twice about it - until later.
We settled into the drive and after stopping for gas, I let Tim drive for a bit while I dozed a little in the passenger seat. A smile crossed my face as I remembered my "bedtime activities" last night. I had been using Corey's USB stick to transfer some files around between my PC and my Mac and had noticed a directory on it, full of text files. They all appeared to be "naughty" stories and after quickly skimming a couple, I had copied those onto my laptop too, for later perusal when I was alone. When bedtime came around, I took my laptop up with me, closed my bedroom door (I normally leave it open if it's just the boys home) and got in bed with it. As I started to read, I quickly became aroused by some of the wife-sharing stories. I had sex so rarely these days, it wasn't long before I was literally dripping in my panties and had to take care of myself, leading to a very satisfying and draining climax. I slept well that night!
The blatter of heavier rain on the windshield brought me back to my senses. "You Ok, Tim?" I asked. "Do you want me to take over in the rain?"
"Oh, no, I'm fine, Mom", he replied. "I was just going to ask if YOU'RE ok, actually. You were moaning or something in your sleep."
I must have turned two shades of pink! I was so embarrassed. What if I had said actual words during my little reverie? What might I have said? so many possibilities went through my mind in a split second. I quickly came up with a response:
"Ah, no, I'm fine. Just thinking about all the things we have to do when we get there, then not looking forward to the drive home again, you know?"
"Yeah, I understand. Bummer of a way to kill a Friday, isn't it?" he agreed.
I smiled across at him, "It is, that's for sure. But it will be so worth it not to have to do it again during the year! Have you seen any sign of your brother yet, by the way?"
Tim looked again in the rearview mirror "I _think_ that's him a couple cars behind us, but I can't be totally sure".
I squinted into the passenger-side mirror, trying to get a better view myself "Yes, I think that may be him. Good, at least we'll arrive at the same time, as he knows exactly how to get to the house from the interstate exit!"
Sure enough, as we approached the exit, I asked Tim to slow down enough to allow Corey to pass us, then he slipped onto the ramp in front of us, acting as guide to his new home for the next few months.
Within ten minutes, we were there at his new residence. Corey pulled up right outside and I had Tim pull in behind him. Kind of a so-so neighborhood, not my choice of places to live, but Corey and his room-mates had chosen it, so who was I to make too much fuss about it? The rent was certainly affordable, at six hundred dollars a month for Corey's share. We started unloading my car first, as Tim and I would be heading back after a quick late-afternoon dinner. Corey could unload his car at his leisure.