It's difficult for me to write this down. It's difficult to put the events in any sort of order but I feel I have to do it. I need it to help me to understand, to make sense of it all. It's hard to know where to begin, so I apologise in advance if I ramble from time to time.
Actually, I know exactly where to begin. The whole story started at the company picnic but that doesn't really make for a good start. Perhaps some background first. Yes. That sounds right.
I worked at a prestigious law firm in the city where I was a junior partner. Sounds grand, I know, but it really made me little more than a glorified filing clerk. Ok, I am underplaying my role but you get the idea. Life was good and looking to get better. Work was going well, my wife and I had it made, as they say. Oh yes, my wife. Debbie was everything to me. I worshiped that wonderful woman and loved her with every ounce of my being. She was amazing. Not a classic beauty but adorable and cute and, well, just wonderful. Standing at only five feet and three inches, she was a delight. My little Tinkerbell, I called her. For all her lack of height, she was just beautifully proportioned and had an impish, mischievous smile that never failed to melt my heart. Debbie had accompanied me to several company functions and was always a big hit with the men there. They flirted with her constantly but she always managed to turn down their advances with good humour, often coming to my side if they got too insistent. Life was good. I was happy. Debbie was happy. I know I never shirked when it came to showing how much I loved her.
And that's what makes it so confusing for me. I mean, sure, if I had neglected her, if I had abused her, then what happened would make at least some sort of sense. I very definitely did not.
It was a company event, a picnic held in the park. A glorious, sunny day filled with chatter and laughter and a relaxed, happy atmosphere. Debbie looked stunning in a short but not indecently short, blue summer dress. It accentuated her delightful shape and her sunny personality. I was so proud of her. No. I was so proud to be with her. The wine was flowing into the obligatory paper cups and we mingled merrily. As usually happens, the men mingled with the men and the women mingled together. Whilst chatting with a group of associates, I noticed that on this occasion, however, Debbie was surrounded by a group of guys from the office. I wasn't worried. It was a familiar scene and one I knew she could easily handle. I was nearby in case she couldn't so I continued joking with the associates.
Some time later, one of the guys, a senior partner called Kevin, came over to me, asking if he could have a chat about a case we were both working on. He was the lead on the case so I said sure. He led me over to a picnic table set away from the group. I glanced over at Debbie, seeing her laughing at something and realised she was ok. So I went with Kevin who began to really grill me on details of the case. I was a little confused as we had a meeting just the day before where we went over everything in triplicate. Yet there he was, asking me pretty much the same questions over and over again.
I glanced over again at Debbie but I couldn't see her. I made to stand up but Kevin grabbed my arm and hissed "Sit down!"
I looked at his hand on my arm and looked up at him. "Whats going on here?" I demanded but he maintained the grip on my arm.
"Just sit down now" he said again. "Sit down and everything will be just fine."
I pulled his hand off my arm but I sat down. I looked again for my wife but she was nowhere to be seen. Nor were the guys she was speaking to. "What is going on here, Kevin?" I demanded again, looking seriously at him.
"You really don't want to know" he smirked. "You Just sit there, drink some wine. It's a nice day. Relax and enjoy the sunshine." I had a sick feeling growing in the pit of my stomach but I sat there. He was a senior partner after all.
"Has this got anything to do with my wife?" I demanded. An odd question but the alarm bells in my mind couldn't be ignored. He simply snorted in derision and I stood up again.
"Look" he said, rising with me. "It really is better for you if you just sit there and wait. She will be back soon enough." Again I demanded to know what was going on but he just shook his head, moving to stand in front of me. I made as if to sit back down and he stepped away, giving me just enough time to dart around him. I felt his hand brush over me as he reached out to grab me but I got away from that, heading over to where I had last seen my lovely wife. There was still no sign of her so I turned, scanning the crowd, just in time to see Kevin run behind one of the cabins beside the lake. I ran after him.
I turned the corner of the cabin and ran right into Kevin and one of the other senior partners, a man named Brad, who both blocked my path. "That's far enough" snarled Brad.
"Tell me," I wailed. "What the fuck is going on here?" and once again was told that I really don't want to know. Kevin grinned and added "And believe me you definitely don't want to see!" which got a snigger from Brad.
And then another voice, a short distance away, simply gutted me on the spot.
"Oh God. That feels so good."
I was stunned. That was my wife's voice in a tone only I should recognize. I shook my head, wondering if I had imagined it. And then two words rung out loud and clear. "Fuck me!"
The two guys stood grinning at me, still blocking my path. I looked from one to the other, a quizzical expression on my face. This could not be happening. But that voice again. "Oh God YES! YES!"