Chapter 3: The Unforgiving - Wife & cuckold seek revenge.
Author's Note: This story is the conclusion of "Victims, Ch. 1. Gullible Husband: A cuckold learns the truth, " and follows immediately after "Victims, Ch 2. Remorseful Wife: Cheating wife is humiliated." It was not written as a stand- alone story.
CUCKOLD'S HOMECOMING
It took me twenty-three days to figure out what I wanted to do. After driving for most of three days, I bought camping supplies and hiked to a remote campsite. I spent almost all of my time away from other people. I watched a lot of sunrises and sunsets. I sat up at night and watched the stars. I sat in my tent when it rained. Through it all I thought about what I was feeling. It didn't make me feel proud.
Although I had limited sexual experience before I met Jeannie, I was still the one in our relationship who was the expert, the one who knew how it was done and how it was not done. I'd had terrible sex and I'd had hot sex. Jeannie had only had sex with me, and that gave me security. I knew I wasn't the world's greatest cocksman, but she had never had any reason to think otherwise. Until now.
Knowing that Jeannie had experienced better sex than I had ever given her sliced the center out of my sense of myself as a man. Knowing she had done things that I had never done made me like the sexual rookie in our relationship. My self- confidence couldn't handle it. I was afraid that she'd never be satisfied with my penis again, and when I didn't give her the satisfaction she had learned she could get during sex, she would get it from somebody else. Like Paul. Or like Jack with his huge dick.
Once I realized how pathetic this all seemed, I began to laugh at myself. And then I began to heal. I realized how much I missed the love that Jeannie and I had once shared. That love was more than sex, even though sex was a part of it, too. And I loved my daughters, and I really missed them, too. How could I abandon them? How could I go on living without being a father to them?
Then I thought about everything that had happened. Even in my state of mind, I could see that Jeannie really hadn't had a choice, particularly once things reached a certain point. If I had been a supportive husband - even after Paul had drugged her - things would never have gone so far. It wasn't entirely her fault. My ego was damaged because she had learned to enjoy what she had been forced to endure.
On night twenty-one, I tested myself. I took out the manilla envelope and I removed the sets of pictures. One by one I threw them into my campfire, face down, without looking at them. Finally I threw the plastic bag with Jeannie's cum-stained panties into the fire. There was no physical evidence for me to use in a divorce case. There was nothing to remind me about our nightmare. All I had to do was learn to cope with being Jeannie's husband, even if I wasn't the only man who had rung her bell. Even if I wasn't the best bell-wringer she had known. Even if she knew more about sex than I did.
I remembered burning her pantyhose at the party, and I began to cry. I didn't know if she would allow me back into her life and the lives of our daughters. I had been extremely close to killing her several times. Could she forgive me that, even if I knew I could probably forgive her for fucking Jack and Paul?
After driving two twenty-hour days, I pulled into my driveway and parked my car next to Jeannie's car. I left everything in the car in case I wouldn't be welcome, and I walked up and rang the bell. Jeannie opened the door and stared at me with her mouth wide open. I was so overwhelmed with emotions that I couldn't speak.
"Thank God you came back! I can't imagine how much I've hurt you, Jim. You can do anything you want to me. Even kill me. But please don't hurt our girls! Not any more! They really missed their father. So did I."
Jeannie had misread the expression on my face. I grabbed her and I kissed her, the first real affection I had shown her in several months. Her response was immediate and passionate. I went inside with her and we clung to each other. Both of us were crying. "God, Jeannie! I'm so sorry! I don't even know what we were fighting about! Was it my fault? If I hadn't driven you away, this would never have happened!"
"I don't remember what we were fighting about either! But if I had been willing to give a little, I would never have talked to Paul. This isn't your fault, Jim, it was mine!"
For another half hour we kissed while each of us tried to take the blame for Jeannie's terrible ordeal. We were staring into each other's eyes when we realized that neither of us was entirely to blame, and we stopped talking. Our kisses evolved into erotic touches, and we made loud, frantic, passionate love on the rug in the living room. My climax was so strong it felt like my penis was burning with each shot of cum. Jeannie's entire body jerked and shook as she came. Yes, she screamed, too. A few minutes later we did it again.
We rolled around on the rug until it was almost time for Jennifer to come home on the school bus. Jeannie got dressed and walked over to get Lizzie. The girls didn't recognize me at first. Once I shaved the three weeks of stubble from my face, they accepted me back into their lives. That night at dinner Jeannie and I smiled at each other. I couldn't remember the last time that had happened. The girls kept interrupting each other to tell me all the things I'd missed by being away. I was a father again. And a husband.
I thought I'd experienced a nightmare, but what Jeannie had endured was far worse. I told her so and we held each other that night. We didn't make love, but we were intimate in every other way possible. It was strange, but for the first time since the party, we knew there was a real chance that we could save our marriage. At least we would try to put this terrible ordeal behind us, even though we knew it would be the most difficult task we'd ever attempted. We both felt it was worth the effort.
Two days later I went back to work, much to the relief of my coworkers who had barely managed to keep up without me. Life quickly returned to normal, and Jeannie and I devoted ourselves to rebuilding the love we had once felt for each other. The embers were there, but the fire had been mostly snuffed out. We didn't know if we could do it, but we tried.
There were some incredibly difficult problems for us to solve. Jeannie would remember the way I'd humiliated her by turning her into a twice-a-day cocksucker, and she would be unable to get excited enough to climax. I would remember seeing her lying in bed with Paul between her legs, and I would feel my erection fade away. I tried to go down on her, and I found I couldn't. I kept thinking about Jack's huge penis having ejaculated inside her, and I couldn't put my mouth there. Jeannie felt overwhelming guilt because she had enjoyed having sex with Paul and Jack. She also felt guilt about telling me that she had experienced powerful orgasms with both of them.
Then there were Jeannie's nightmares as she remembered Paul raping her - and her experience on the machine. Several times she woke me as she screamed. Neither of us could go back to sleep after these episodes, and I would hold her like a little girl as she sobbed and sobbed and sobbed.
We talked about getting professional help, but neither of us trusted marriage counselors. So we struggled on, rarely ever achieving satisfactory sex, but sometimes putting our demons to rest long enough to recapture a few moments of our previous love. I kept wondering what would happen to our marriage if Jeannie realized that she needed the sort of stimulation that only a large penis could give her. Would she seek out other men who were better endowed than I was? We couldn't find any way for me to restore my sexual self-esteem.
After eight months of this nightmare, I almost couldn't handle any more, and neither could Jeannie. Our sexual failures were so much more frequent than our successes that we were beginning to avoid sex entirely. We had slowed to having sex about once a month. It was not as good as masturbation for either of us. We were talking about how to divide our property if we got divorced. Then an article appeared on the front page of our local paper and we were galvanized to put our efforts into something else.
TIME TO TAKE ACTION
The headline announced: "Local Realtor Chosen as Man of the Year." The story went on to describe how Paul Keener had been selected by the local Chamber of Commerce for this special honor. The accompanying photograph showed a smiling Paul with his arm around his beaming wife. They had two children from his wife's previous marriage. Paul was described as a "real family men" and a "man who is fair and honest in his dealings with everyone. A selfless man who makes our town a better place to live in."
Jeannie saw the article first, and she immediately handed it to me. "Read this piece of fiction!" She demanded. She sat back and waited for me to finish the article. When I looked up, she said, "We've got to destroy this monster! I can't believe how much hate I feel for him! We've got to find a way to show this town what he really is!"
We had always heard - and believed - that people seeking revenge always end up destroying important parts of themselves in the process. It came as a complete surprise to both of us that we were once again able to enjoy sex with each other as soon as we decided to avenge ourselves on Paul. Almost certainly we were trading one set of demons for another.
Our new demons allowed us to enjoy our most passionate sex since the unforgettable party. Just thinking about getting even was getting us hot! The night Paul was honored we weren't in the mood. We tossed and turned, each of us lost in our individual thoughts and bad memories of him. We plotted and planned.
Our terrible anger fueled our excitement, and two weeks after Paul became "Man of the Year," we were ready to begin. While we waited for out day of revenge to arrive, we made love morning and night.
TAKING CONTROL OF PAUL
I drove several hundred miles to another state and purchased a stun gun. For less than $30 I bought one that was about six inches high, used two standard nine-volt batteries, and delivered 300,000 from it's two electrodes. It was not one of those that shoots tiny darts. This one had to be placed directly against the skin of the person being shocked.
I read the directions, inserted the batteries, and finally talked Jeannie into testing it on me. When she touched my biceps with the electrodes, I felt an abrupt jolt. It only hurt for a moment, but I lost control of all of my muscles. I was completely helpless for about fifteen seconds. The electrodes left two little red burn marks on my arm, but otherwise I was completely normal within five minutes. The way I went limp frightened Jeannie so much that she was afraid to test it on me again.