I looked down at the screen of the test I was holding in my hand and immediately was speechless. In the window on the test was a big plus sign, I couldn't believe my eyes. So I took out another test just to make sure that it wasn't a false positive. The second test showed the same result as the first test, A plus sign. I knew there was a chance of this happening but now that it was becoming a reality I sat there on the toilet and started to cry. I wasn't sure if I was crying because I was happy or if it was because I was scared.
My family was more of the old school type that still hadn't learned to accept colored people into their lives. Now here I am pregnant with a colored mans baby growing inside of me. I had no clue how to break the news to my parents or anything. After I was able to gain my composure which took me awhile I wiped myself off flushed the toilet then pulled my thong back on and buttoned up my shorts and walked out of the bathroom into my room and shut the door behind me. I then took the test and hide it in one of my drawers of clothes in my closet.
I then laid on my back on my bed and thought to myself about what I should do. I thought about getting an abortion but I didn't believe that was right. I came to the conclusion that my family was going to disown me and be disappointed with my decision. I wasn't like my family, I didn't care about a persons skin color I cared abut how the person treated me and the things the person did for me.
Well, I figured I would need to tell Kyle since it was his kid. So as I was laying there on the bed I texted Kyle, "Hello."
Kyle replied back 10 minutes later and said, "Hello Beautiful!"
I replied back, "Aww you're so sweet!"
Kyle said, "I try sometimes."
I then said, "Kyle there is something I need to tell you."
Kyle then said, "Okay what is it."
I said, "Well, The last time we had sex I was ovulating and I haven't had my period yet so I went and bought a test today and figured out the answer."
Kyle then asked, "Are you pregnant?"
I responded, "Yes."
Kyle responded in a rather strange way, "I am so excited you have no clue."
I wasn't expecting Kyle to be excited. I asked Kyle, "Your excited?"
Kyle responded, "Yes absolutely."
I asked, "Why?"
Kyle said, "Because you are the person I want to spend forever with and now you will be the mother to my kid."
I replied, "Kyle you are so sweet!"
Kyle replied, "Thank you I cant believe this is happening."
I replied, "Me either."
I continued, "You are the only one I have told since I have found out."
Kyle said, "Okay, What are we going to do about your parents?"
I responded, "I haven't figured that out yet."
Kyle said, "Okay, Well just know I am here for you babe."
I said, "Thank you Kyle."
With that I went back to looking at my Facebook and Instagram and just relaxing on my bed. I really wanted to tell my cousin but I know she wouldn't approve of this. I was trapped with a secret that I couldn't say anything about. I knew it was just a matter of time before I started showing and then be forced to say something.
I thought to myself, Maybe I can move in with Kyle and not have to worry about any of this. The more I thought about that the more I remembered Kyle would have to come and help me move and my cousin would see where I am going, I really had no choice though.
A couple days had passed and I never said a word about anything to anyone. I had been talking to Kyle about moving in with him and I knew he wouldn't care so I finally grew the courage to go and talk to my cousin. I went and sat next to her on the couch, Her husband was sitting on the other side of her.
I then said, "So I need to talk to you about something."
My cousin then said, "Okay what is it."
I said, "I know what you are going to say and I don't care." I took a deep breath and continued, "I am going to move in with Kyle."
My cousin then asked, "Is Kyle that black guy you went on a date with?"
I said, "Yes it is."
My cousin then said, "Kelsey you know how are family is with colored people this will never work out for you guys."
I then said, "Then thats their problem."
My cousins husband then said, "I have some friends that you can meet that I am sure would be a better choice than this black man."
I said, "Thank you but I am not interested in that. I have made my decision and that is final."
My cousin then said, "You are going to regret this."
I then got off the couch and walked back to my room and shut my door. I then let Kyle know that we could start moving my stuff this coming weekend if he was available. Kyle was more than happy to help me move in this coming weekend. Over the next couple of days I started packing my stuff and getting ready for the next adventure in my life. My cousin kept begging me not to make this choice in my life but I had already made this choice and there was no going back especially with me being pregnant.
The weekend came very fast and Kyle rented out a small u-haul truck so we could load all of my stuff into it. I tried to plan moving when my cousin wouldn't be home but she happened to be off that whole weekend. I was in my room finishing the last of my packing when I heard a knock on the front door. I stepped out of my room to go answer the door but my cousin beat me to it.
My cousin had not formally met Kyle before so I went and introduced them. I said, "Hello Kyle, meet my cousin, Melissa."
Kyle then said, "Nice to meet you beautiful."
This kinda blew me away when Kyle said that.
Melissa then said, "Nice to meet you too but don't call me beautiful."
Melissa continued, "You know this isn't going to work out for you guys."
Kyle then said, "I beg your pardon."
Melissa then said, "Yeah our family doesn't approve of interracial relationships and they don't really like black people."
I then stepped into the conversation and said, "Melissa knock it off!"
Melissa said, "Whatever just hurry up so you can get this black man out of my house before my husband comes home."
With that she turned and walked back to the couch and sat down. Kyle and I went into my bedroom and started carrying stuff to the truck. We started with boxes that had my clothes in them, Then moved to the dressers and bed and stuff like that. It didn't take us long before everything was moved out of my room. I then started to sweep my room and clean it up.
After I was done I stepped out into the front room and Melissa was still sitting on the couch watching tv. I then said, "Okay everything is moved."
Melissa then said, "Okay."
I then asked, "Are you going to get up and say good bye?"
Melissa then got off the couch and walked over to me and gave me a hug. She then turned and walked back to the couch. Melissa was wearing a white tank top and then some Abercrombie and Fitch shorts. Since she had such a big but the shorts were going up her butt and I knew she had to be wearing some type of thong. I don't know why or what was wrong with me but I always have thought my cousin is really beautiful. I watched as she walked back to the couch looking at her butt the whole time. I thought something must be wrong with me as I was always checking out my cousin or wearing her clothes when she wasn't home.
Kyle then said, "One day you will learn to respect colored people the same way as others."
Melissa said, "No I wont."
With that we turned and walked out the door. We walked out to the u-haul truck on the drivers side.
Kyle then said, "Your cousin is really pretty but man she is racist as hell."
I then said, "Thats how my whole family is towards colored people."
I continued, "Lets not worry about that though."
I then gave Kyle a kiss and told him I will follow him to his house. I then walked over to my car and got in and started off to Kyle's house. We got to Kyle's house not to long after and started unloading the u-haul truck. I was so tired after we got done unloading the u-haul truck I went and laid down on the couch and fell asleep.
I woke up awhile later and Kyle had made dinner for us. He had BBQ'd some chicken and corn on the cob and then we had some salad. I ate dinner and then went and took a shower. After my shower I went and put on some pajamas which consisted of some yoga pants and a large t-shirt and then got in bed. Kyle ended up spooning me the whole night and I really enjoyed this at that was my favorite thing to do. I looked over at him and gave him a kiss and told him good night and fell asleep shortly after. The next morning I woke up and Kyle was already gone for work.
I made my way downstairs and made some coffee and just watched some tv. I was beginning to settle into life again with someone else. Truth be told there is something about Kyle that I liked from the first time I met him. I was really excited about now being in a relationship with him and becoming a parent to his child.
The day went on and I ended up going to work. I saw Stephanie at work all the time but we both tried to avoid each other as much as we could. I was also starting to show that I was pregnant so I am sure that Stephanie had seen that and told Chris. I wasn't sure if they were still talking or what their relationship was like but I really didn't care after what Chris did to me.
The day went on and Kyle texted me through out the day. Kyle then said, "I wanna do something this weekend like have people over or something."
I agreed and said, "That would be fun to do."
Kyle said, "We should invite your cousin and her husband over and we can play cards or something."
I said, "I don't think they will come."
I continued, "You saw how racist she was towards you."
Kyle said, "Yeah I understand but they aren't going to learn to accept me if they don't get to know me."
I agreed and said, "Fine I will invite her and see what she says."
I texted Melissa, "Kyle and I are thinking of having a BBQ this weekend at his house and he really wants you guys to come."
Melissa replied back, "No I don't want to be anywhere near that thing."
I replied back, "Melissa give him a chance you don't even know him."
Melissa said, "Kelsey you know how our family is. I have told you multiple times this will never work out."