This has been sitting in a drafts folder for years. It's going in Non-Consent because that's its theme, but this is one of those stories that borders other categories. If you're into romance with your non-consent, you might like this one. It's there, under the surface. If you're more into rough stuff without happy endings, you might avoid this.
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Brad pushed the green beans to the side of his plate and jabbed at the pork chop. He hadn't really been eating much for the past two days and I could tell something was bothering him. "Are you still mad about Saturday night?" I asked. That was when I'd gone out with a group of girls from work to O'Henry's, which had hosted a male dance revue. I probably crossed the line when it came to drinking that night. Brad wasn't the least bit jealous about guys slinging their dongs in front of me, but he wasn't happy about the mess I made in my drunken state. I didn't blame him.
The reason why Brad isn't the jealous type is because we're only roommates, after all. We barely have anything in common, but the one thing we are great about is our weeknight dinners together. We share our thoughts, sort out financial issues and clean up the dishes together. Sometimes we might clean a room or two, as well. It helps keep the place tidy and splits the workload. We may not be the best of friends, but we're a good team as roommates. I wouldn't trade him for anything, except maybe a husband one day. I was still on the hunt for one of those. I reiterated to Brad, "I'm sorry I came home so wasted and threw up on the floor. I can't thank you enough for helping when I didn't deserve any."
Brad dropped his fork, clinking against the plate. "Yeah, yeah, whatever, Mindy. It's... it's not like you do that every weekend."
He wasn't being sarcastic. This was the first time anything like this had ever happened. I don't usually drink at all, actually. Brad kept shifting his eyes away from me, so I pressed. "Something is bothering you. Come on, Brad. Tell me. If it's an issue you have with me personally, it's okay to communicate what's going on. Did I make more trouble for you than I remember? Did I make an ass of myself? Please, it's okay to-"
Brad was shaking his head, waving me off. "No, no, it's nothing you did. It's just..." There was a long pause, but I stayed silent until he was ready. "You, uh... don't remember much of anything, do you?"
"I barely remember Tammy and Becca hauling me through the front door. I recall you helped drag me inside and tried to get me to the kitchen, just so I could throw up in the sink. Didn't make it. I don't remember much after that."
"Yeah, uh..." Brad scratched behind his ear, sighing heavily. "Listen, Mindy. I have to tell you something and... well, it's really hard to say." Admittedly, the hairs on the back of my neck perked. Did Brad take advantage of me while I was drunk? I would never in a million years have thought him to be the type. I felt so safe with him. "You remember waking up in your room, right?" he asked.
"Yes." Then it dawned on me, I didn't remember how I got there. I woke up in my Winnie the Pooh nightie that I often wear to bed. I assumed I put it on myself.
"You threw up on your shirt. When the other two girls left, you insisted on cleaning it up and took your shirt off. And your bra."
I slapped my hand to my forehead. "Oh, my God. This is so embarrassing. Brad, I..."
"Well, I, you know... we've been roommates three years now and I have never seen you... uh, you know... naked. Uh, up until that happened, anyway."
"Is that why you're so upset, Brad? I swear, I am so sorry for making you uncomfortable."
"No, no, please... let me finish. Anyway, you were kind of writhing on the floor, mumbling, pulling your clothes off. I tried to stop you mostly, but you probably don't remember... and as I was trying to convince you to slow down and stop, I told you I would get you a change of clothes. Anyway, as I was struggling to help stand you up, your left breast pushed against my right hand, hard. You fell over again and I pretty much groped you while trying to catch you and keep you from hurting yourself. It was awkward and..."
"Oh, my God. Is that it? That's why you've been so frustrated? You accidentally felt me up, Brad. I recognize it wasn't intentional. It's okay. It's fine. Hah. If you weren't so bothered by it, I'd probably laugh it off and tell you I hope you got a good squeeze in." It was a pitch to lighten the mood, but Brad wasn't biting. "Honestly, you have my word. No big deal."
Brad sunk his head further. "I wish that was all, Mindy. You passed out with your shirt off, all twisted up on one arm. Your bra was just torn off. I went to the bathroom to get some towels and the nightie from your room. When I came back, I turned on the master lights..."
"Yeah, go ahead."
"And that's when I got a better look at you. You didn't wake up at all and I called your name, tapped your shoulder. When I did that, your... uh... your breasts kind of jiggled. I don't know what got over me."
"Brad? What are you saying?"
"I did something very wrong, Mindy. Maybe if I hadn't had two or three beers earlier myself, I wouldn't have done it, but it doesn't excuse my behavior."
"C'mon. Spit it out, Brad."
"Mindy, I got an erection looking at you." There was silence. Again. Then I started laughing. Once more, I found myself about to explain that Brad was blowing things way out of proportion, but he spoke before I started, "I masturbated over you." Now that was heavy. There was another moment of silence as I absorbed his words.
"Whoa... what?" I asked, softly.
"You were just lying there, Mindy. And I, I uh... I mean... I know you're very pretty, but wow. Even in your drunken state, you have the body of a goddess." I said nothing. Perhaps one reason why Brad and I made such great roommates was because he never made a pass at me. He respected our relationship. When we first met, I thought he was gay until he dated Lilith Peterson. They unfortunately broke up a while back.
"Okay, step back a bit. You masturbated over me?"
"I mean, while watching you. Looking at you."
"You got hard while I was passed out, so you decided to stroke one out. Is that correct?"
Brad looked away again. "Two," he said, meekly.
"TWO?"
"I don't know, Mindy. Something primal took over. I saw your body and just kind of lost it. When I was finally finished, I felt like an absolute shit-heel and cleaned everything up. But the fact is, I can't go on without letting you be aware of this violation. I am so ashamed of myself!"
While what Brad did was uncool, even criminal, I've unfortunately been violated much worse. A story too many women share. Still, Brad was right. This was crossing the line for most people. What Brad didn't know is that it didn't really cross my lines. I'm kind of kinky, I admit. I just don't go announcing it to others. "Brad, where did you cum?" I asked.
"What do you mean?"