****Warning****
This story contains non consensual sex. This is FICTIONAL and everyone is OVER 18. If you read this story, you have done so at your own discretion.
Beer_tease is the co-author of this story.
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I've been feeling obsessed with these sexual fantasies of late. To the point that while I'm in my classes, all I can do is play out different fantasies in my mind. I'm not paying the attention in my classes that is needed and now my grades are suffering for it. I didn't know what else to do, so I decided to book an appointment with a therapist. I felt that this is the responsible thing to do. I knew I needed to talk to someone about it. Daily masturbation and internet searches only took me so far.
Being a freshman in college, away from home, I was excited at the prospect of getting away from my rotten high school experience. It was the same repetitive melodrama. Being an Army Brat, I transferred from one small school to the next. It was always the same. Same girls fucking the same kind of guys. I was always the outsider. That is why, the prospect of college was so appealing. An escape to something different, something better, anything that would diverge from the same high school social setting.
I was afraid that I would begin to explore these fantasies - or any sexual situations outside of my imagination, but 'Thank God' it hasn't happened. That's all I would need, further digression from my studies.
Men certainly interested me, however, I am scared to open up. I've been on a few dates. They were nice. Flowers, dinner, movie, some chit-chat. But, there wasn't any chemistry. Nothing made me want to have any type of sexual encounter with them.
However, when I'm in class, that's all I can think about. Sometimes, it's bad enough, I leave the class to go to the bathroom, just to momentarily satisfy myself in the stall. It helps, sometimes.
I went to the school counseling office, and got a bunch of names for referrals for psychologists, whom I might be able to talk about this. That was a chore in itself, it's not like any of them listed themselves as sex therapist. It was a difficult choice for me, I wasn't sure if I wanted to go with a woman, someone that could possibly relate to me and I might be able to open up to. It all sounded good, until my devil's advocate suggested that maybe, just maybe if I went with a man, I could help get past my barriers. Talking to a man about my issues... what harm could there be. Then, one particular name stood out, Dr. Alex Miller. Receiving his Masters here at the same university, but he had received his Baccalaureate and Doctorates from somewhere else. I wrote down the names of several women, and just one mans.
Later that night, I was studying for my Economics class as my mind started wandering to the guy that sits next to me. Isaac always smelled so good. I imagined him and I studying in the library. Dropping my pen, it lands next to his foot, I lean over resting on one of his legs as I reach between them reaching for my pen. Accidentally rubbing his crotch.