I yawn as I stretch my arms over my head in the middle of my bedroom after seeing that it's 9:59 p.m. What a day! I'm so tired but very happy! Today was the official end of my first semester of college. I just had my last final that I had to take, and now summer break is on, and time for me to relax. Life is good. I'm 18 and just had a fantastic first semester in college.
I'm wearing my fav pajamas for this relaxing celebration of sleep, which is a black tank top and flannel pajama bottoms. I stop in front of my mirror that is atop my desk so I can look at myself. I frown a bit and pull down on my shirt as I examine the size of my chest. I've always been top heavy, but I hoped I had stopped growing. But it sure looks like I've grown even more. I thought maybe I imagined it the tightness whenever I put on my bra, but I'm not sure I can pretend to ignore it any more. I guess it makes sense as I always look forward to removing my bra for bed.
Other than my chest, I think I look like any other average girl. I'm not a knockout, but I'm by no reasons ugly. True, I am focusing on my studies right now and not so much partying. Nor do I get dressed up or anything. I'm just a standard Latina girl, with a bit more of a chest than most. But I've become good at hiding my chest too, or else there would be nothing but stupid horny idiots trying to get my attention every hour of everyday. And I rather enjoy being known for my mind than my body. I see tons of girls at the college that use their body to get by and get perks, but I just made the Dean's List. I'm smart enough to get everything on my own.
Yawning again, I know that my parents have probably been asleep for at least an hour. It's just them and myself in the house as I decided to come home from college as soon as I could. Now I reach for the small bottle of tequila I have on my dresser and take a bare sip from it. I've been sipping on it all night as I celebrate finals being over. Not that I'm drunk or getting drunk, but I like to be relaxed and loose. My friends are all out getting plastered to celebrate, but I wasn't feeling it. Mainly because most of them would be bringing their boyfriends and it would feel like I was tagging along.
After I put the bottle back on the dresser, I gasp in surprise. I think something just walked past my window. It looked like a man. My heart bets a little as I stand there, thinking if I really saw that. I live on the bottom floor of this house while my parents live in the top floor on the other side of the house. Which means if someone did walk past my window, they had to have walked to the side of my house, between us and the neighbors. And that's just crazy. Surely, even if that happened, someone would have seen them and called the police. Things like that happen in a big city, not out in the burbs where the biggest crime that happens is letting your grass overgrow.
I start to relax as I figure that I didn't really see it. That it is my tired mind making it up as it's been pumped full of tequila. Maybe in a weird way it was my mind trying to make up a boyfriend that would, well, "make me feel good" in celebration of acing all my classes. Oh, how that would be great right now. Not that I could with my parents in the same house.
I keep looking at the window and laugh a little at how stupid I'm being. Then a man seems to materialize out of the darkness as he walks towards my window. The figure walks slow and stops feet away from my open window.
Time seems to stop as I see him there. Fear and horror fill me as my window is open, wide open. There's no screen or bars or anything blocking the outside from my room. There's nothing to stop him from coming inside.
The figure is all in darkness, yet I can see he has blue eyes. Dark blue eyes. I gulp as those eyes hold me, and I don't even see the rest of him. They seem to be full of power and strength, making me feel more scared and oddly excited than ever.
The truth of the situation hits me like a ton of bricks. There's a man looking at me outside of my window. He's looking at me. Staring at me. I want to scream, to run, to grab a weapon, but those eyes hold me. They are unlike any eyes I've ever seen and not in a good way. Those eyes look at me not as a person, but as a thing. They seem to show they don't care about me at all, that they would love to hurt me for no other reason than to hurt me. And the fact he's snuck around to the side of my house only serves as proof that this man must be completely evil. Maybe he's an escaped convict. Maybe a sexual predator. Maybe even a serial killer.
Breaking his gaze, I turn to look at my door to see how far away it is and when I do, it looks miles away. I know it is just a few feet in reality, but it might as well be in a different country for all the chance I have to reach it. Concerned, I turn back to the window and I let out a loud gasp when I see the man is now standing at my window. Right outside.
"Hello," the man says in a dark voice that shows he smokes or used to smoke a lot. When I was younger I used to watch a lot of horror movies that had the one crazy killer killing the gang of people. His voice would perfectly go in one of those movies as the killer.
"Not a smart thing to do...leaving your window open like this," the man says, looking around at the large window frame. The bottom half of him is hidden by the wall and window ceil but his upper half is completely visible. Then the man leans forward and his face comes into the dim light that my lamp casts out of the window. I see his face and can see the smile on his bearded face. I can't make out much, like if there's any scars or what not, but I can tell he's older, maybe 40 something and a very rough character.
"W-What do you want?" I ask in what I hope is a strong 'don't mess with me' voice, but I know is a scared whimper. Every part of me says to scream. To scream as loud as I can. My neighbors will hear it, along with my family. That my father will burst in with a gun or the neighbor's will call the police which will make him run off. That someone will save me. All I have to do is scream.
The man doesn't response or move after I ask what he wants. He just stands there, making me think he might be drunk or high or something. Then a shiver of fear runs up my spine as I wonder if he's thinking of what to do. If he means to hurt me. That he's thinking of all the possibilities.
All I need to say is that I'll scream and he'll run away. But I get hit with a realization. I'm not going to scream. But why not? Is it because I'm too scared? Too much of a sacredly cat? I consider that if I scream, I might make him mad, and I don't know what he might do if he gets upset. Then I remind myself that he's still outside and I could run out of the room before he manages to get in. I am not as helpless as I think I am. But a part of me, well, wants to be scared. Like, really wants to be, to the point that it's making me feel odd in a sexual manner.
"Please, don't hurt me, ok?" I finally tell him in that horrible whimper of a voice. He tilts his head after I say this in a strange way. It's almost as if he didn't think I would react like this. After a moment of looking at me like this, he nod once as if agreeing to something.
"Get a bag," the man suddenly says in an upbeat tone. "A bag?" I ask, confused as this come out of left field. "W-What type of bag?" I ask. "Any, doesn't matter," he answers calmly.
I look about and spot the reusable bag that I use when I go shopping next to my dresser. I walk to it and grab it, noticing how badly my hands are shaking when I reach for it. When I grab it, I curse myself as I've walked further away from the door.
I stand up with the bag and find that I can no longer look directly at the guy. So I stand there quiet for a moment, showing him the bag. When I do this, I can't help but feel weird. I feel a mix of fear, but also shame for not screaming or running away. And as strange as it is, I feel, well, aroused. Definitely aroused. The tingling between my legs that leads to my stomach is very strong which leads me to believe that a part of me is liking this in some dark strange way.