I wasn't sure I wanted to go back to the urologist's office after my last visit.
The doctor's assistant, Liz, had gone to great lengths to convince me I needed a circumcision. You can read about those two appointments
here
and
here
.
Furthermore, Liz had a way of persuading me to do things I never would have done otherwise, such as ejaculating in each of her exams. But letting her cut my foreskin off was not on my list. I like my 'skin; we've been together a long time. And even though it was giving me some difficulty, I couldn't imagine life without the tantalizing sensations I got even when Liz herself rolled it between her fingers.
But I did have a persistent issue that needed follow-through.
Originally, I'd had phimosis, a tightness that prevents the foreskin from retracting at all. But once I'd stretched it enough to open fully, the glans still had an abnormal texture. Liz said it was caused by synechia, the remains of the fibers that had bonded my glans and foreskin at birth. The fibers had broken long ago, but they left remnants embedded in the glans that usually wear away in childhood. These seemed to contribute to a hypersensitivity that Liz had exploited to its fullest in our last encounter. She'd offered to extract the fibers with tweezers, or to cut my foreskin off so the exposed glans would rub the fibers off against my clothing. My other option, keeping the glans moist and masturbating, didn't seem to have had much effect.
After our last appointment, I looked up the YouTube videos Liz had mentioned. Sure enough, on "The Circumcision Channel" I found multiple, close-up recordings of men's and boys' penises getting circumcised. Liz didn't appear in the frame, but I recognized her pale arms as she worked through the procedures. She made a point of holding each severed foreskin up to the camera.
For my next appointment, I asked to meet with the doctor herself, thinking she might be less enthusiastic about circumcising me. Curiously, I never got a bill from the office for either of my appointments with Liz. And when I arrived this time, I completely forgot to ask about that, as Liz appeared in the receptionist's window and immediately rattled me with her chipper talk.
"You're back for your circumcision?" she asked, a little too excitedly for my comfort.
"I don't think so," I replied, "I'm here to follow up on the synechia thing."
"Well, the doctor will see you in a few minutes. Cheers!" and she slid the opaque panel shut.
This time, I had to wait a while. Two older guys were already seated there, I assume for prostate issues, given their age. There was also a very nervous-looking teenage boy with his mom. I busied myself with my phone until Liz reappeared at the door and waved me in.
"Let's get your vitals," she said, gesturing toward the scale. I weighed in while she talked.
"I don't know if I mentioned this last time, but you're different from most of our patients," she narrated, taking my blood pressure. "They tend to be older, like those guys in the waiting room, or babies and young boys who come in to get circumcised."
I swallowed hard. She continued.
"I try to comfort the boys, because they know they're about to see their foreskins for the last time. They're so afraid sometimes, their little testicles pull all the way up inside."
"Glad I'm not in line for that."
"Ah," she said, taking my pulse, "Well, I would help you out, too, if that's the case. It's not easy for a man to lie down on the table, knowing his foreskin is about to be touched for the last time by a girl who's about to cut it off. The needle is the last thing he feels before we start snipping."
At that, I felt my own testes climb a bit.
"So, you're one of just a few guys your age that we see who hasn't been circumcised yet. I'm sure the doctor will be glad to help you."
Liz showed me to an exam room, with its customary exam table and paper gown.
"I'll be back," she said, "and it may be a little while. I'm helping to circumcise the boy you saw in the waiting room." And with that, she waved gaily and closed the door.
Knowing that Liz would return fresh from cutting off someone else's prepuce didn't take the edge off my nervousness. I changed into the gown and took a seat in one of the chairs against the wall. My phone ran out of battery just then, so I browsed the magazine selection.
Liz returned, and as I took my seat on the table, she beamed and handed me her tablet.
"Here's the consent form for your circumcision."
I looked at the screen, then at her.
"I didn't ask for a circumcision today."
"I know," she chirped, "but I thought you'd like to sign the form now in case you change your mind after we've examined your penis. See? You can sign here with your finger, like a pen."
I handed the tablet back to her.
"I'll let you know if I want to do that."
"Oh, okay," she said, turning away, "It's just easier for us, you know, so we don't have to take our gloves off and wash up again after we handle the tablet. I'll put it here on the counter for when you're ready."
She gestured toward the opening in the robe.
"Okay, lie back so I can examine your penis."
I slowly reclined onto the table, which had footrests built into the sides. Liz gestured and I braced my feet in the stirrups. She leaned over me, snapping on a pair of gloves.
"Yep, there's that king-sized foreskin," she said, reaching to adjust an overhead lamp to light up my genitals, "and like I said, an unusual sight, as we mostly see circumcised penises here."
She took my sheathed glans in her fingers and turned it side-to-side.
"No doubt, the largest foreskin to enter this office in a while. So, tell me what's been going on since our last appointment?" she asked, pinching my acroposthion and tugging my penis out to its full length.
"The foreskin is opening fully, now, as it was last time," I stammered, trying to ignore the obvious effect that her tugging had on the nerves in my pelvis, "but those fibers, the synechia, are still there and they hurt when they're touched."
Liz looked right into my eyes, slowly rolled my foreskin open, and lightly dragged her finger over the glans.
"Like that?"
My hips twitched involuntarily and I caught my breath. Her touch felt like sandpaper on a sunburn.
"Yes."