That night, K and I lay in bed silently; we had a roof over our heads, but at what cost? I wanted K to take me in his arms and tell me that he loved me, but I was afraid to speak. I concentrated my thoughts – it felt as though if I wished hard enough, he would speak, but he lay silently in the bed.
I realized it was up to me to speak. "K, I need you to tell me you still love me," I told him. "I didn't want to make love to Masuro and I didn't enjoy it."
K sat up and began to cry. "Oh, I do love you, so very much. I'm so deeply ashamed. I want to provide you with a home and a life of happiness. Can you forgive me?"
I clutched K violently, feeling such a surge of love for him. "You don't need my forgiveness," I told him. "We have to make our way in this world any way we can." Sobbing, K held me closely and I kissed his neck and held him tightly.
"K," I whispered to him. "I need you to take me, to make love to me. I need to know you still want me." I trembled, awaiting his response. If he were to reject me, I couldn't bear it.
"I will always want you," he told me.
We kissed passionately and K traced kisses down my neck, to my belly, to my most sensitive parts. His skilled tongue seemed to know how to precisely unlock my pleasure. I felt embarrassed at how quickly he could bring me to orgasm. "My K," I told him, climbing atop him, "I will always love you."
I mounted him and began to rhythmically ride up and down. I enjoyed feeling my buttocks splash down against his thighs and I loved the feel of him moving inside of me. Grabbing K's hands, I placed them on my breasts and he pressed them together. K began to groan and I felt proud of the pleasure he was receiving.
I leaned forward, pressing my breasts against K as he continued to thrust in and out of me. I whispered in his ear, "What do you want most of all? What would make you feel as though you completely possessed me?"
"Oh Love," he whispered back. "I want you to take me in your mouth, as far as I can go."
I gently rose off of K and sat upon the bed. "Show me how you like it," I told him. He stood up and positioned himself so that he could thrust his penis into my mouth. He slowly penetrated my mouth and, opening my mouth widely, I took him in as far as possible. Gradually, I even engulfed his scrotum with my mouth. As I maintained this position, K let out a small whimper and began to thrust his hips. I could feel his penis hitting the back of my throat, but I relaxed, not wanting to gag and disrupt his pleasure. We stayed in this position for several minutes, K thrusting powerfully, and me holding his entire penis and scrotum in my mouth, not allowing any part of him to escape my mouth, my tongue curling under and around his scrotum.
"Oh, Love!" he cried out, and I could feel streams of ejaculate flooding my mouth and throat. I stayed calm and relaxed, simply allowing his seed to overwhelm me – and I concentrated on calmly breathing in and out through my nose. Finally, I released him with a gasp, and he staggered back, his penis dribbling a small amount of ejaculate down my chin and chest.
I felt so accepted by K and grateful for his love. He fell asleep quickly, in my arms, as I gently stroked his hair.
The next day, we awoke and K set to the task of finding work. I begged him to let me seek work as well, but he insisted that I stay in the apartment. Bored, I set about cleaning the apartment and about an hour after K left, Masuro awoke and came out from his room, his chest bare, in baggy sweat pants. "Where is your little man, Love?" he asked me, in a mocking tone.
"He'll be back shortly," I lied.
"He can't protect you here," Masuro boasted. "While you are here, you are my possession for me to do as I please."
I ignored him and continued to clean.
"But I'm tired today, so I've invited a friend over," he informed me.
"The agreement was that you would make love to me each day – not force me to make love to some stranger."
"Oh, so you and I are more than strangers now!" Masuro exclaimed. "You are really quite friendly." He walked over to me and, standing behind me, grabbed my breasts through my robe and began to roughly massage them. I felt his penis stiffen against my buttocks. "You'll do as I say or you and your stupid little fellow will be on the street."