I have this fantasy I would just love to share with you. You know we have not seen each other for quite a long time, for reasons that are too numerous to venture into right now. Yet, no matter how much I try to shake you out of my mind, you appear in the imagery of my impulsive, overactive brain. I see you in one scenario, then it is another....but there is one scene that captivates the passion and lust that we once shared, that no matter what I do, I can't seem to escape from, literally and figuratively.
I live in a small, country town, where everyone knows each other, and doors remain unlocked, as neighbors behave neighborly and all is quiet and safe. It is this particular morning, sky threatening with rain, that I wake up rather later than usual, but have no where to go. I stumble around the kitchen, running water for the coffee, as it drips aroma into the air. I sit down and make a clearance on the cluttered table for the now ready cup of coffee; the table, a symbol of my cluttered life. Beyond the bamboo shades, I see a red truck- a Chevy-and despite the sleepiness still in my eyes, I wonder if it is yours. I carve a clearance amidst the papers and bills of my life, so that I have an empty area to read the newspaper. I sip the coffee sweetly as the caffeine begins to offer sustenance, and I begin to come to life.
The news of the day was nothing more than politics, as the presidential elections near, while houses foreclose and gas skyrockets. Alone in my universe I am safe, sheltered in my cluttered but simple existence. I read about the promises of a better future from Obama, while in Iraq, the military needs millions of dollars to replace and repair the machinery of the war. I read lightheartedly about the gossip of the rich and the famous. I am absorbed in the fantasy and feuds of Hollywood, when I sense a movement from behind me. Before I have an opportunity to turn around, I smell the scent of Ivory soap, as I am summoned by the hair from the nape of my neck that is being pulled, and manipulating my movement. You quietly grab the hair in the back of my head, and forcefully push it forward, preventing me from seeing you. You push my head into the paper; almost making me spit my coffee onto the paper from my swallow. You tightly wrap your fingers through my hair, pushing me out of the chair, elevating me to your will. "Clear the table," you whisper, as I try to turn around and identify you. You are beginning to hurt me, as my hair is taunt between your fingers. You pull me out of the chair, pushing me into the objects of my life that covers the surface of the table. I clear the paper, try to move the candlesticks and fruit bowl, but I am not fast enough. Your fingers remain tight around the nape of my neck as you whisper and run your tongue in my inner ear. "I am going to take what I want," you tell me as you push my head against the table. I can feel your body rub against the back of my ass as you position me, hands and face down on the table, pivoting my head to the side so that I can not see you.