Two weeks later I walked nude from the bathroom into my bed room and looked at the black lacy panties of the finest silk that Wolfgang had bought. It struck me then that I was really nothing more than a slut, even a whore. At least he was always buying me the best money could buy.
Nothing but the best for his "aristocratic slut," as he called me.
Lingerie from La Perla, shoes from Manola Blahnik, silk stockings from Fogal, an evening dress from Valentino, blouses and skirts from Cavalli.
How easy it is to get used to what is expected; like wearing black silk panties, stockings, garters and only covered by a short silk robe in the morning when he permitted me. What was most expected was being available to perform at any time.
Each day was an exciting journey even if I was a bit frightened most of the time. Every day I stood on my high heels before the mirror and looked at myself. I felt the heat when I looked at my pointed nipples, staring at the wanton slut in the mirror. I knew until he would depart for Germany that every day I was his Randi, his whore. I paid for the pretty dresses and the beautiful lingerie he bought me with my sexy body.
That morning two weeks after it began was like a revelation for me, when I truly knew myself. I felt a strange wetness in my vagina when I walked into the living room on my high heels, knowing the truth that my body was not my own anymore. It belonged to Wolfgang to use as he pleased.
I was ready to do whatever he wanted to avoid returning to India, even at the cost of further humiliation, knowing that getting through a few more days was necessary to regain my free will.
Wolfgang looked at me and said,
"What is it Mangala, my dear slut?"
"Will you behave and be friendly until I return to Germany or shall we call your Dad and show him the nice pictures of his pretty daughter?
I can tell him that you couldn't wait to have sex with the first man you found."
"You don't want your family to know that, do you Mangala? Just look at these pictures. See the way you are dressed? My dear it's not very decent showing your wet pussy and your nice tits. It is not expected from a nice and aristocratic lady like you to have your hand on my dick and my cum on your pretty face."
"Mangala I have decided that this morning you are going to show me you are a slut. You will be especially nice, friendly and cooperate to whoever I want. When I want you to suck, you will open your pretty mouth and suck the cock of whoever I want and when I want you to fuck, you are going to open your pretty legs without any protest and you are going to show how good you are at satisfying until I am happy with your performance."
What he said horrified me. Why would Wolfgang do this? I looked at him, no warmth in his features, a knowing look instead and he knew he had defeated me.
I nodded my head, realizing that I did not even know how many times he had fucked me during the last two weeks; there had not been a day without him inside me, either my vagina or me on my knees sucking his dick. I begged him,
"No please, I cannot do it anymore."
He leaned over and touched my face and said,
"Of course you can my beautiful Indian Princess. You can and you will! You will do what I want this morning. You will not be an arrogant bitch like you always are to other men, thinking that you are better than them. This my Darling," his tone became gentler, "Will not do..."
I knew the truth by then though. There was nothing gentle about Wolfgang.
"My dear, you are a whore... a sophisticated whore, but a whore."
"You don't live on this large estate in India anymore; You don't have your Daddy to protect you, You don't have your servants or your driver to command... Time has come full circle for you, because now it's you "Princess" who will serve men and obey."
"Mangala, you will be friendly, sweet and polite and you will use your pretty mouth whenever it's needed by a man. You know I will be leaving next week and I do worry about you, Mangala my slut. But I will do my best to ensure you will be well fucked when I leave."
"Darling, I know you may choose when I leave to go back to your decent life, you will sell your jewellery and fool yourself for a while and look for a boring man who you can wrap around your little finger."
"But such men cannot satisfy you. Better for you to continue to satisfy your desires as a whore. In time you will not be able to ignore your body's wishes."
"There will always be men who will look in your "fuck me" eyes and recognise your true desires, your need for sex, your need to obey and serve. They will take and use you the way I have."
"But first this morning you are going to show you are a "good" girl and obey. It's time for a new experience and I know deep inside you can't wait to obey me, to open your pretty legs. You have always desired this since you were a little girl and I have decided to give it to you."
I realized this morning he was particularly evil and he knew I would do anything to avoid returning to India, even at the cost of further humiliation.
But knowing I would submit to another man at his command and actually doing it turned out to be a different matter entirely.
When the room service waiter brought breakfast, he said good morning to Wolfgang and looked at me with a smirk on his face. So I knew right away what he had in mind.
I disliked such common men, how I disliked this ignorant black servant that reminded me of my driver, Samuel because I had liked Samuel until he started to use me like all men want to use me.
I ignored the black man arrogantly like I did every morning, something which I knew irritated Wolfgang immensely as we played our little mind games; me knowing that I had to obey him in everything, he knowing his days in New York were coming to an end to have his fun with me.
But now I was afraid, there was a tension in the room and seeing how they looked at each other and smiled I knew they had discussed me.
The truth is after my experiences with Samuel and how he made me obey him,
"Be a nice girl for me Mistress Mangala,"
black men scared me more than anything; the way they always looked at me with their black eyes when we walked into a restaurant, me far above their station.
In India I knew all too well how black Negro men are very attracted to Indian women like me, women that they could never have given their low status and the meagre jobs they are only able to get in India.
Thinking back, I closed my eyes remembering my own black driver Samuel who always looked at me with his dark intense eyes, telling me in his dark voice I was a bad arrogant girl, that I was always teasing boys.
He took me to school and brought me back alone; then one day when my parents where away on a long trip to Europe he started to influence me.