After several days, she began to feel better. Marianne brought her books to read while she recovered. Caitlin wanted to be nicer to the woman who'd provided for her and began inquiring about her life. "Where did you grow up?" She asked, taking a bite of bread.
Marianne appeared surprised at the question, "Well... I grew up in a place called Rudd. Was about how it sounded, so I left for school. Met a guy, had twin boys far too young. He left me when I refused to void the pregnancy. So, I did what I had to make sure their needs were met."
"All on your own?" Caitlin's own mother had to raise her without a husband but had the town to rely on. She hadn't been truly alone.
"Yep," Marianne set a cup of tea on the nightstand, "but they grew up well enough. One's going to school to be a nurse, the other wants to be a lawyer."
She took another bite, nodding.
Marianne smiled, "Would you like me to get you more stationery?"
"Yes, please." Caitlin said with her mouth full. She swallowed, "Thank you. For everything... really..."
The servant was about to leave when she turned back around, "You're welcome." She departed with a genuine smile.
There was no window in the large bedroom, as they were probably underground. But based on the last few days, she expected the Prince to make an appearance soon.
Caitlin felt strong enough to rise from the bed, she'd been working on her strength so she could explore the new room. It was different than hers, less feminine in design. A desk sat on the far wall, giving her the same conveniences of her double room, sans fireplace.
To her great surprise, the bedroom door wasn't locked. She moved gingerly into the suite, touching decorations as she passed. A golden cherub, a bell clap, twin candelabras made of solid silver. An adjoining room held a grand piano, nothing like the small brown harpsicord she grew up around. She marveled at the pristine white keys, touching one.
The sound that arose was full and clean. Perfectly tuned.
"It was my grandmother's." Kalen watched her from the archway.
"It's beautiful. Wish I knew how to play." Her fingers danced along the keys, touching the staggered black ones without depressing them.
"That can be arranged," he moved towards her, placing his hand on the small of her back. "Your color has returned."
Caitlin's face reddened at his touch.
"In a few days, I'll depart for the city. You'll join me?"
"Do I get a say?" She glanced up at him.
"Yes. But if you stay, you'll swear to take care of yourself."
The prospect of leaving the mansion appealed very much to her, "I'll come with you. Will Marianne come too?"
He chuckled, "If she is up for travel, I don't see why not."
She nodded, "Where will we stay?"
"The crown owns a building suited to my needs. We'll stay there, and in the evening, I'll show you around the city. You've never been, correct?"
"Correct," she admitted, "I've never been outside my hometown until... well." She didn't need to say more.
"It's a pity, but we'll remedy that." Kalen nodded curtly. He drew her by the hand into himself, holding her gently, but firmly. She didn't protest, "I still cannot stop thinking about you." He brushed his fingers against her cheek.
"And I, you, no matter how much I try." She reciprocated, linking an arm around his neck, and standing on her toes to reach him.
He leaned in with a gentle kiss, more so, even than their first.
Kalen was being cautious, she sensed. She sighed into the kiss, tasting only the sweet scent of his breath. Her pulse mounted as he explored her with hands and tongue.
Caitlin pulled away abruptly, remembering the trickle of blood, those kind eyes that had become cruel. "I can't." she whispered feverishly. What had his mouth done? Who had he drained so he could stand before her? That she couldn't forget.
"What is it?" he pondered, allowing her to pull away.
"How can I kiss you? Knowing that you kill people with that mouth?"
His eyes darkened, but he didn't argue. "I haven't a choice."
"That makes two of us, then. Both without a choice." Her voice bittered, "The difference is, you can come and go as you please. I'm stuck here, your prisoner."
"I thought we were past this." He stated.
"Perhaps
you
are. My mother begged me to come back for a visit. I have to write a letter and tell her I may never see her again. How can I sit in this gilded cage and fatten as my mother grows older every day? How am I to-"
bear your child
. She couldn't finish, choking back a sob.
"My presence displeases you." he concluded. "I am a reminder."
"How can you not be?" She breathed, "Every day I wake up, and remember what my role is. I am to be bred like a dog!"
"Caitlin-"
Caitlin stormed out, marched back to her bedroom, and slammed the door. At any moment, he could have stopped her, but he didn't. Without a window to stare out of, she realized just how small her life was. She held her stomach and rolled on her side, weeping for the loss of children she never knew, of a life she could never have.
"If it were possible, I'd release you from the shackles that bind us." His voice echoed.
By the time she looked up, he was gone.
*
Miss Caitlin Stone to be prepared for departure.
Convene on the first floor in the foyer at Three.
Was all the note said. It was in his perfect script, handed over by Marianne who shrugged, "Don't ask me, I just do as I'm told."
"It's cold." Caitlin whispered, it was she who chilled him in the first place. But he kept to his word, he would bring her into the city after all. "It's my fault."
"How?" Marianne collected necessities into Caitlin's suitcase.
"We had... a moment... and I remembered when he bit me. I- I couldn't do it. He scares me sometimes." She clutched her arms close.
Marianne nodded, "Many vampires are changed, by choice or not. He was born this way, their expressions are... a little different from ours. You should meet his father." She said, almost as an afterthought. "But despite what you may think," she leaned in conspiratorially, "he's been completely torn up about uprooting you the way he did."
Caitlin scoffed, "Yeah, right."
"No, really," she countered, "He's asked me countless times if it was the right decision."
"And?"
"And I told him: 'Abso
lutely
not, but you don't pay me to think for you.' However, I also said 'What's done is done. If it were me, I'd need time, and compassion. Maybe a little freedom.' Has he not given you them?"
"But you know what he expects from me."
Marianne sighed, running a hand through her graying hair, "I had my boys, but it's not the same. I wouldn't know the first thing about it; however, there is someone who does." Her eyebrows rose, waiting for her to remember something.
"Kalen's mother." She realized.
The servant smiled, "Wouldn't hurt to have a chat, she was in your position nearly three hundred years ago." She stuffed the last of her clothes into it and zipped it shut. "The city is two hours out, will you be needing a snack to take along?"
"I'd appreciate it." Caitlin took the luggage and set it with the others.
"I'll be back in a moment,"
She snatched the letter off her little desk, it needed to be sent to her mother. In it, she'd outlined the plan for her trip, expressing how much she missed her, and reassured her that she was safe. Caitlin didn't have the strength to tell her she'd never come home. It would have broken her mother's heart.
Stuffing the unsealed envelope into a pocket, she gathered her things and waited.
In the silence, she pondered the conversation she'd had with Marianne, realizing Kalen was almost three
hundred
years old. It would explain his genteel demeanor; however, he was all but naΓ―ve when it came to a young woman's fragile psyche. His childhood must have been as awful as hers if his kind even experienced childhood. Perhaps they emerged from the womb fully grown.
That thought made her shudder.
She hadn't seen him since her outburst; Caitlin was learning that if he was displeased, he would leave without ceremony, and fail to announce his return. He being her only true companion made it that much lonelier when he was absent. Dickens and Poe were not a sufficient substitute.
It was nearing three in the morning, she would leave with him, hopefully with Marianne in tow.
A quick knock and she appeared, "I brought snacks and sandwiches, cheeses and meats. That should do you."