and he's using my own disobedience against me. I open my mouth to speak, and he places a wiry, infinitely authoritative finger to my lips. "Don't speak yet, Ruth. Remember, truth or lies... you are deciding your fate. As always, this choice is yours."
Tears begin beading at the corners of my lashes, threatening to destroy my makeup and send dark streaks cascading down my cheeks. This can't be happening! He caught me, in the beginning... he caught me and he could have destroyed me, but all he demanded was my panties and my obedience. And I betrayed him yet again. Why? Fuck!
WHY
!?!
I know that these thoughts are akin to Stockholm syndrome, but they ring entirely true within my mind. He's making me choose! Obviously I've disobeyed and thrown away the only chance I had at continuing to live a normal life! Why? WHY?!?!
Brent's eyes are gazing down at me with such an overwhelming sense of... is it disappointment? I've let him down even after he gave me a second chance! What in the world compelled me to try to sneak something else by him? Going around the office without panties wasn't hurting me! Yes, it was causing me anxiety and stress... but nothing like what I'm going through now! Why did I try to cheat and take the easy way out?! My thoughts crash into my mind like a wrecking ball. This is a lesson. He's reminding me, once again of what a terrible decision it was to start down my deceitful path to begin with. Only this time, it will be my last... or at least the last time I'll do it outside of prison... for a long time.
"Ruth." My name thunders within my ears, and I look up at him, tears smearing down the sides of my face. "There is no part of me that would enjoy seeing you lose your job. Do you understand that? I devised this plan to keep you on your toes... to give you something to hide, and teach you the dangers of deception. I honestly thought you were learning your lesson. And now, I'm convinced that you're attempting to deceive me again." He lets out a heavy sigh.
"Brent... I... umm..."
"Look..." he interrupts. "I don't have to give you another chance. I could let it be over right now. You've made your bed, and I see no reason why I shouldn't just make you lie in it. You're pretty good at lying, as we've established. Stand up, please."
As I rise shakily to my feet, I can feel my chin quivering. There are no words in this instant that can make up for what I've done. I know that the demands he's made of me weren't exactly proper... but I'm the one who stole from the company to start with.
Brent turns his back on me, and I'm waiting for him to walk from the room, ending my life in the process. I want to cry, beg, cajole... do anything that could convince him to change his mind... but no words populate within my mind. Only the nauseating sense that I've betrayed him. I've done wrong,
again,
and nothing I do now can undo my errors.
Without looking, he speaks. "Ruth, there is only one way, which I can see, that gets you out of this situation, with your job and your freedom still in your possession..." Brent pauses, and the combined weight of the words and the possible meaning that they could have is squeezing the life out of my pitiful heart. "As I already said, if I ask you right now if you are wearing panties, and you lie... I
will
know the truth. However... if I were to, say, turn my back to you for a few seconds, and then turn back around, would you be wearing panties then?"
My terrified heart skips a beat. He has given me a simple question, but somehow the answer is entirely eluding me. Is he suggesting that I somehow lose my panties in a few moments? How? I have them now, and they aren't going to just disappear...
His voice is stern, but somehow reassuring. "It is important that I don't see any panties that you may or may not be wearing. As long as they are gone when I turn around, then we will be fine, right?"
My shaken mind feels as if it is struggling to comprehend even the simplest concepts right now. He doesn't want to see the panties, how can I...? The incredibly obvious answer hits me, and I have to fight the urge to actually slap myself. Of course! He is giving me an out! He will let me take off the panties and... hide them, I guess? I have no idea where I can stash them, but I have to find somewhere!
My voice stammers slightly as I speak, my voice so mousy and timid. "No, Brent... if you... ahh... if you turn around and then turn back... and then ask me, I won't be wearing any panties at all! I swear!!" The sensarity is rich in my voice, and I know that all the unspoken words in that moment are so clear, they are practically audible. Oh thank you, Brent! Thank you, so much! My silent gratitude must be evident, because I see a wry smile spread across his face.
"There is one caveat to this agreement which may cause you to second guess your decision. I'll look away momentarily, but afterwards you must know that I
am
going to check. I have given you every opportunity to do this without micromanaging your panty situation, but I feel that a little closer inspection may help keep you in line. Alright, I'll keep my end of the bargain."
He immediately faces away from me, glancing down at his phone nonchalantly.
He's... he's gonna check!?! That means that he's going to either look or... I can't bring my frightened mind to follow the thought to its logical conclusion. Feeling an immense stupor draped over my mind like a heavy blanket, I simply study the details of his back. His shoulders are broad and muscular, and even from the rear, his designer business suit is somehow perfect and alluring. The angular shape of his torso works its way down to a perfectly toned...
I need to slap myself! I'm in an incredibly compromised situation, and somehow I'm staring at my boss' ass!? What the fuck is wrong with me?!
Brent holds up five fingers. Oh God! I know what the gesture means this time, but I feel like my body is paralyzed. I am a deer, frozen in the headlights. His thumb folds, and my sense of panic doubles. I pull up my skirt and hook my fingers in the band, snatching downward. The soft fabric slips over the luscious curve of my ass, and I pull it down past my thighs. I give my legs a wiggle, and it slips to the ground.
His fingers have already reached two, as I kick off my shoes to slip the lingerie free from my ankles. Thank goodness I didn't wear shoes with a strap this time. As soon as the pumps leave my feet, I step out of the panties. My undergarment is now lying on the floor, but it's still fully exposed!
With a swift flick of my bare toes, I slide the panties under one of the storage shelves. Brent turns around, his dazzling, hazel eyes searching deep into mine, with a mischievous smile tugging at the corners of his lips. He's loving this, and that realization fills me with a dual sense of shame and arousal that I want so badly to deny. My pulse is thumping wildly within me; this man's control over me is so infuriating... and yet so impressive.
"Alright, Ruth. I've given you ample opportunity to undo any wrongs you may have committed today. Now, as I said before, I'm going to check; I assume you would like to face the wall?" He touches my shoulder, and the simple sensation of his fingers upon my body sends a ripple of salacious unease reverberating through my frame. With the gentlest motion, he turns my body as if I weigh nothing. I take one step closer to the wall, and the simplest push upon my back causes me to instinctively place my hands against the vertical surface to steady myself.
I feel so exposed. Even though my skirt is still covering my bottom, the cool air drifting up to the bare skin of my womanhood reminds me that I am entirely naked underneath this simple piece of dark fabric. Suddenly, the decision to shave myself down below strikes me as so shameful. I prepared myself for this! I went out of my way to ready myself for violation by my boss...
As soon as Brent realizes that my entire pubic mound is shaved, along with every other inch of my flesh down below... he will know that I did it for him. It's no secret that I'm single at the moment, and I have no other excuse as to why I groomed myself. He will know for certain that part of me is craving this. He'll know how badly I want him in the depths of my depraved, lascivious mind.
No! He can't know any of that, because it isn't true! Again and again, I reassure myself of that, but it is growing increasingly difficult to believe. Oh fuck... Why is he just standing behind me like this?
I was expecting him to move in immediately, pawing at my body, and ravishing me like a greedy, insatiable bastard... instead, he is waiting. Patiently, he stands, and a desperate part of my mind is begging him to close the distance, even while the higher functions within my brain are insisting that he should stay away, because this isn't right.
Finally, after what seems like a thousand lifetimes, he draws in close, until I can feel his gentle breath on the back of my neck. I can feel the warmth of his body as he presses against me. Torso to torso, the bulk of his strong, masculine body presses firmly against my curvy form, and I just know that my pussy is probably drenched right now. Worst of all, I know that I don't have any panties to soak up the fluids that are building. Shit... please don't let Brent realize!
The moment his fingers touch my thigh, I can sense my arousal growing out of control. This isn't fair! Why does the touch of this man have so much power over me? I'm not some horny college kid, and I'm not a simpering slut either! I'm a dedicated - if occasionally dishonest - professional office worker, and this is my boss! He's a man whom, up until a few weeks ago, I'd never considered in a romantic capacity whatsoever!