I'd forgotten all about it, the kinky conversation I'd had at my next door neighbor's party last week. I moved to New York City just a year ago, and Kyle was the first friend I made. He was hot. Tall, blond, and lean with muscular swimmer's body, but oh my God, he was kind of a goof-ball. At one point I thought we might hook up, but nothing ever happened. Still, when he asked me to come to his Birthday Party I definitely wasn't going to turn him down.
It was a nice party, kind of quiet at first, but after twenty minutes, more people arrived, the drinks started flowing, the music got good, and I had a great time. The conversation was cool too. Kyle's friend Cate is a sex therapist, and she started a hysterical conversation in the corner with a bunch of other women and a bottle of Cinnamon Schnapps. I have a weakness for Cinnamon Schnapps.
"What's your sex fantasy Jessica?" Cate asked. "Come on, everyone's sharing."
"Okay." I tossed back another shot and rubbed a hand over my face. "Don't judge."
"Never." Cate shook her head.
"Okay I have this like...rape fantasy."
Cate nodded seriously. "That's actually really common for women."
"Yeah well, as a feminist, I find it kind of fucked up," I said. "But I can't get away from it, it ramps me up like nothing else."
"Yeah but think about it," said Cate. "You're not talking about real rape right? It's a fantasy. You've consented to that fantasy in your head, so that's totally different."
I shrugged. "Sure, I guess that makes sense."
A few of the other women in the conversation nodded in agreement and that made me feel more comfortable. Like I was less of a freak.
"Have you ever acted on that fantasy?" Cate asked.
"No never." I shook my head. "Which is kind of hilarious since in my line of work, I could probably find plenty of willing partners but-"
"Oh? What do you do?"
"I'm a fetish model," I said. "I model kinky lingerie and let people tie me up for photos. I've also got a burlesque show at CupCakes-"
"Oh my God!" said Cate pointing at me. "I thought I recognized you! You're Jinx Numanox!"
"Yeah that's my stage name." I smiled and ran a hand through my long blonde hair.
"Wow," said Cate. "I was trying to figure out where I knew you from."
"Well I look a lot different as a civilian I guess," I said, with a chuckle. "I'm normally wearing a lot more body glitter and a lot less clothing."
"Of course."
"And I don't wear glasses on stage," I said with a laugh. "Well unless I'm playing the Naughty Librarian. Or Teacher's Pet."
Cate grinned and leaned close. "Okay so tell me about this fantasy? I'm dying to know."
Smiling, I reached for the bottle of Cinnamon Schnapps and poured myself another shot. "Alright, well, there's at least three guys, hopefully more. They invite me over to hang out and chill, I'm wearing something skimpy, oblivious to what it's doing to them. As the night wears on, I overhear them plotting, and before I know it, they're on me. Ripping my clothes off. Fighting over who goes first. Fucking me senseless...in every hole..."
* * *
So, like I said, I'd forgotten all about that fantasy conversation. Hell, I'd had enough to drink that night I'd forgotten about most of the evening itself. My Schnapps hangover was so bad I swore off alcohol for a few weeks, which meant when New Year's Eve rolled around I was ready to spend it alone. Just a quiet night in.
When Kyle knocked on my door I was wearing a pair of leggings that had seen better days and an old sweatshirt that I had cut the bottom off of to get rid of a stain. The leggings were so worn out they were practically see through in a few spots, and the sweatshirt didn't cover the bottom half of my tits, but it was my comfiest outfit, perfect for lounging around at home.
"Hey you," Kyle said with a smile when I opened the door. "Thought you'd be out at some sexy fetish model party or something?"
"Ha, ha." I smirked at him. "Nope I'm afraid not. Just chilling with my cat and gonna watch Anderson Cooper ring in the New Year."
"Aw, no. Don't do that." Kyle frowned playfully. "Come hang out with me. I've got another bottle of Cinnamon Schnapps."
"Oh no, no." I laughed. "I'm not drinking that for a while. I had a headache for days after your birthday party. I'm just gonna stay in. But thank you."
"Come one." Kyle leaned against my doorframe and smirked. "You can't stay home alone on New Year's Eve. Just come over for a little bit. I've got beer, and I ordered a couple of pizzas from Grimaldi's."
I bit my lip and studied him for a minute. "I dunno," I said.
"Don't make me do it, Jessica," he said.
"Do what?"
"Okay fine," he sighed. "I hate to play the birthday card, but I'm gonna have to."
"The birthday card?"
"You didn't get me anything," Kyle said with a shrug. "Which means I get to pick my present."
"Oh really?" I crossed my arms over my chest and chuckled. "Is that how it works?"
He nodded seriously. "I'm afraid it is. You're gonna have to come over, at least for a little bit. It's your no-birthday-gift-punishment."
"Alright then." I sighed dramatically, and grabbed my keys from the side table by the door. "But I'm not getting dressed up for this."
"No need," he said as I followed him down the hall toward his apartment. "It's a come as you are party. Everyone else is casual too."
"Everyone else?"
* * *
Five guys. This New Year's Eve party Kyle was so adamant I attend consisted of five guys and me. I'd met these guys before, so they weren't total strangers to me. Still, talk about awkward.
"Hey Kyle," I said, sidling up to him in the kitchen. "Anyone else coming to this party?"
"Uh, lemme see," he took a bite of pizza and turned to the living room, lifting his finger to point off each guy as he counted.
"Mal," he said, pointing to a tall man with dark hair and bulging muscles.
"Theo." A guy with wavy brown hair and piercing blue eyes turned to Kyle and gave him a thumbs up.