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| Chapter Eight |
The sun was high in the sky, rays of light warm against Astera's face. She clutched the blanket tighter around her shoulders. The Sanctuary's towers had been built against sheer cliffs overlooking the lake. The crescent-shaped cliffs loomed over the water, nearly half a league tall. Mist from the crashing waves left behind a rainbow shimmer in the air.
The lake fanned out front of her, partially hidden by the cliffs and rising mist. Twinkling lights speckled the cliffs and the city below. From the Solar's balcony everything looked small and insignificant. Everything except the water.
Astera chewed off another piece of dried fruit. Her stomach had stopped roiling enough for her to manage a few bites. The elixir and the pleasant warmth from the wine had burned off hours ago, leaving a familiar throbbing pain in her head. The scent of rain hanging in the air was clearing her mind at least. She felt like she could think again.
The glass door slid open and Soarruk stepped out onto the balcony. He sat down beside her on the bench, scooping her up into his arms. She was too tired to protest his touch. His bodily warmth was already chasing away the ache pulsing behind her eyes.
He adjusted her in his lap so they could both stare out at the lake. She could feel his lips move against her temple as he spoke. "You slept well?"
She shrugged, trying to ignore the blush creeping up her neck. They hadn't slept very much at all. At least he hadn't forced her to get out of bed until late in the afternoon. Someone had come knocking, and this time he had been the one to turn them away. Astera had wanted to stay in bed as long as possible.
His hands massaged her shoulders, snaking up her neck to knead her scalp. He seemed to sense where she was hurting, as his fingertips ghosted over her temples. She closed her eyes. As the pain was momentarily soothed her mind drifted. She mulled over their conversation the night before.
Uncertainty leaves you open to manipulation.
Her father had told her those words once, told her to always act with utmost confidence. A sour taste crept up her throat.
My confidence has been misplaced.
He was the one she was no longer sure of. She was split wide open now.
She sucked her bottom lip in between her teeth, chewing on it as she thought.
Protect the treaty. Help my people... help the orcs.
If she could help both their peoples, then she needed Soarruk to trust her.
But can I trust him?
Her thoughts turned endlessly in her mind. The longer they sat, the more restless she became. There was no easy solution.
One of Soarruk's lower hands moved to slip between the blankets. Her stomach flipped as his hand spread over her abdomen. His upper hands were still gently moving in her hair. "You will have to leave the Solar eventually," he murmured.
"Just a little while longer. I like the view."
"Hmm.. so do I." He placed a kiss on her temple. "Something troubles you."
She shook her head, not trusting herself to speak. The gnawing in her chest grew worse.
I shouldn't have said anything last night. I should have kept silent-
"Astera."
He had stopped rubbing her scalp, and the headache was beginning to throb again. Hesitantly, she leaned back into his touch. The soothing motions returned.
"It is nothing." She gritted her teeth. "Tell me about the rest of the celebrations. There are four more days?"
Soarruk paused, seeming to weigh his words before answering. "Aye. Tonight is the hunt. Then Ishten and court."
"Ishten?" Astera asked. It took her a moment to remember the orcs' words on her wedding night: 'the
Bridal Scrimmage.
' Her face turned pale. "Is there going to be a fight?"
Soarruk chuckled at her expression. "Yes. It is a test." He interlaced their fingers, his much larger hand engulfing hers. He brought her hand up to his mouth, the soft press of his lips warming her. "I think you might enjoy it."
The hairs raised on the back of her arm. She didn't like his expression- his eyes were narrowed on her, but glinting with mirth, his mouth slightly upturned at the corners. "You are teasing me now," she said slowly. "Tell me the truth!"
"I cannot lie to you, remember? It is a tradition between tribes. You ought to see for yourself."
She tried to work out what the joke might be, but gave up. She turned away from him with a huff. "Fine, if you don't want to tell me, then so be it. A hunt tonight, then a fight tomorrow, and court. And then?"
His stubble was itchy along her temple. "Once the celebrations are over, I think you should enjoy spending time among our people. Eventually you will decide your role."
She half-turned to face him, her eyebrows raising in surprise, "You would let me choose my involvement with your kingdom?"
"Our kingdom," he corrected.
Astera blushed, turning to face the water again. It seemed almost absurd that this would be the choice he gave her. Even more frustrating, the thought of choosing something on her own was exciting. Almost enough to distract her from the uneasy sensation building inside her. He was pushing her to rethink things. Constantly forcing her to be an active participant..
Her eyes narrowed. "What if I liked leading your armies? Would you let me
choose
to lead the Merkradh Vrel?"
Soarruk chuckled. "You wish to ride beside me into battle? Then, my pretty flower, you shall spend the rest of your life in the training arena."
"Training?! I have fought with a sword before-"
"You are slower than any female orc, and weaker than any male. Your strengths do not lie in your prowess over a battlefield."
"I could learn," she said stubbornly.
"If you desire training it can be arranged. But you will choose another role."
She squinted at him, searching his face for the trick. Unreadable dark eyes stared back at her. "If I am going to decide for myself, then I should see the rest of the city too. Maybe I could visit the smithy! Seeing weapons being forged..." Her voice broke off wistfully.
Soarruk's lips pulled down slightly at the corners. "There are still a few hours until I have to leave for the hunt. Would you like to see the lake?"
She looked over the balcony's edge, eying the serrated cliffs below. It felt very strange, being so high above everything else. She leaned back into Soarruk's embrace. "I would like that too."
He led her back inside. She followed him down the hallway, to a room dominated by a large stone tub. It was almost big enough to be considered a pool. A stone bench ran around the inside of the tub. They undressed, and Astera hesitantly dipped her foot into the water. It was pleasantly warm. She sank into the water with a satisfied sigh. Sitting, the water came up to her collarbones.
Soarruk joined her. She eyed the soapy sponge in his hands.
"Give me that," Astera said. At the darkened look he gave her, she cleared her throat. "Please."
His left-side arms pulled her in close as he handed over the soapy sponge. It was a little large in her hands. She began scrubbing her skin while Soarruk lounged back in the tub.
She watched him from the corner of her eye as she worked. Memories of their last bath together in Thelfare made a blush creep up her cheeks. He was filthy now too, the reddish ritual marks from the night before still stained his skin. His lips were slightly parted, tusks peeking out either side of his lips.
Her stomach flipped, seeing him so unusually relaxed. He didn't question her when she moved to straddle his knee. A slight thrill went up her spine as she stared over his muscular chest. Gripping the sponge between both hands she scrubbed it across his shoulders. The sponge followed the contours of muscle between his neck and shoulder. He leaned his head back against the wall, spreading out his arms, encouraging her to scrub over the surface of his chest.
She worked the sponge methodically, watching his dark green skin disappear under the creamy soap suds. Her fingertips brushed over thick layers of scars. She wondered about the battles he'd been in, the rumours of all the demons and humans he'd killed.