This chapter has no sex- please start from chapter one for all the hot and heavy stuff up until now.
~Hi my loves! This chapter contains depictions of (nonsexual) violence, so please read with care. Thank you so much for coming along on this journey with me and waiting so patiently for this chapter. I promise the next one will be out very soon.~
Chapter Five
Astera ran her thumb along the edge of the serrated blade. It was cool to the touch. The small knife was easy to wield.
It's barely more than a gods-damned bread knife though.
She had requested a dagger, but the shop keep in Thelfare must have thought this would be more useful.
At least it was
a
blade.
She had only really practiced self defense with a sword, and it had been a brief training. Battle strategies, maps, her father's reports all raced through her mind. They were useless out here. She flipped the knife in her hand, the handle slippery with her sweat. Staring into the darkness her stomach knotted uneasily. She hated being surrounded by the dark.
Clouds hung low in the sky above. Without any moonlight the forest seemed... strange. The air had taken on the stagnant, stifling feeling she recognised from the swamp.
She thought of the blackened jagged teeth in the maw of the felshi and shuddered. It was hard to believe that was only remnants of the Demon Horde's magic. The further they traveled into the cursed, unnatural parts of the forest the worse her thoughts had turned.
Chasing after the hunters all this way seemed ridiculous. She gritted her teeth. It was just the unnerving silence that was making her uneasy. There were no birds chirping or small animals running through the underbrush. Her eyes darted between the trees, searching for something,
anything
in the darkness.
She could only make out the shadowy trees around her. Soarruk's warhorse was resting beside her. On the other side of the horses the orcs were gathered.
Cyran had one of the maps out again. They were all huddled around it, save Soarruk. They had put their leather armour back on for this leg of the journey. Blades were strapped to their waists. Jorn even had a dagger in hand.
They were excited, talking in hushed tones. The tension between them was thick with anticipation. They were getting close to the hunters now; their camp was somewhere up ahead. And the orcs seemed ready for violence.
If only I had their night vision
. She squinted, staring nervously at a dark spot ahead until the blotchy shape began to look less like a pair of eyes and more like a leaf again. She was so exhausted she almost felt delirious. She crouched on the ground, squeezing her eyes closed a moment to try and focus her thoughts.
Beneath her fingertips the ground was cold. The heavy fog had let up a few hours ago, leaving a blanket of cool dew over everything. They had been riding for two days straight. All day and night. She straightened, rolling her stiff shoulders. Her muscles were beginning to ache, knots forming from sleeping awkwardly against Soarruk on-and-off throughout the night.
None of the orcs had stopped to rest. They had barely seemed affected by the lack of sleep. How far were they from the stronghold now? A day or two? Her mind went foggy when she tried to remember what Soarruk had told her last.
Exhaustion had settled into the marrow of her bones, weighing down her limbs so it was a struggle to keep her head up. Sleeping on the ground had never seemed so inviting before.
Anything would be better than that damn saddle
. She shook her head, trying to keep alert.
She sheathed her knife and hid it within her pack. Crouching, she began to move through the darkness, wincing every time a twig snapped under her boots. Even without being able to see clearly, she knew instinctively Soarruk was not far away.
He was easy to find. Even in the dark, even in the silence she gravitated towards him. She'd become his shadow. It took an effort to ignore the thrill that thought sent down her spine. She wasn't entirely sure if it was in fear or excitement.
She had become accustomed to the feeling of his hands on her, of his scent surrounding her. When they finally reached the stronghold, she would have to put distance between them. For now, though Soarruk was the only one she trusted.
Sort of
.
Her footsteps faltered when he came into view. He was crouched on the ground, staring ahead. His battle axe was strung across his back today. The black blade nearly blended into the darkness.
The blade he's used against both demons and humans
, she reminded herself.
Over the past few weeks, it felt like they had built a fragile understanding between them. At least she could be confident he wasn't interested in killing her, not yet. Upholding the treaty was their common ground. Something they both agreed on.
Finding her own place among the rest of their group had felt like a much more futile endeavour. They were soldiers, first and foremost. The best of Cyran's Fist. They worked quickly and carefully without any complaint, and she felt like a hindrance to them.
She had caught the other orc's eyes on her more than once, watching her movements, shuffling quickly out of the way whenever she got too close. Even after Cyran had properly introduced her to the group they seemed almost afraid of her. She snorted at the thought.
Orcs, afraid of me?
Maybe the exhaustion really
was
getting to her.
Soarruk was staring through the darkness when she approached him. She stopped beside him and reached up uncertainly to touch his arm. His eyes slid to her, his cloak parting so both his right-side arms could wrap around her and pull her close to his side. His body emanated warmth. It was hard not to melt into his touch; to enjoy the way it chased away the biting cold.
Soarruk's voice was a quiet murmur, "Their camp is just ahead. We will be traveling home soon." His hand reached up, distracting her for a moment as he tucked a curl behind her ear. She shivered.
Home soon.
The words were supposed to bring her a measure of peace, but it only made her stomach churn.