What's this? I'm suddenly awake. I had fallen asleep face down on a couch at the house party, and I guess several hours had passed, as it was quiet and most people were gone. The only light was a street lamp shining through the window. But what woke me up was someone touching my ass. I felt a man's hand caressing my butt cheek through my skirt. My instinct was to turn over and yell at him to stop, but, for some reason, I didn't. I was curious to see what he would do next, and how far he would go, so I pretended to still be asleep.
His hand moved downward to the edge of my skirt. He slid a finger under the hem and gently pushed the skirt up, his fingernails so gently and deliciously grazing my skin as they went. I hoped my goosebumps didn't give away the fact that I was awake. He clearly didn't think I was. With my ass fully exposed, he started gently kissing it. He then pulled down my thong, hop-scotching his kisses over the fabric as it descended down my ass cheek. He traced his fingers up my thigh, up along the crease with my butt, and back downward and inward, gently but purposefully, toward my pussy.
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Let's back up a bit. New girl. New town. I'm 19. Not going to college, and not sure I want to. But I definitely don't want to stay in the small town I grew up. So I decided to just go to the nearest big town and just get a job and see what happens, and meet people. The trouble is I'm painfully shy. And you can't run away from yourself. Wherever you go, there you are. I needed to force myself out of it. So I got a job at a local bar and grill.
I met some friends working at the bar, mostly college kids. They are cool, and we start hanging out after closing, and they invite me to all sorts of parties and get-togethers. This is great. I can hang out with fun people, without the hassle of seeing them every day on campus. Plenty of time for proper schooling next year or later. The group has some really cute boys, but I'm too shy to flirt. And they all seemed to pick up on that, or thought I was stuck up. They were friendly enough, but it never seemed to progress to anything romantic, or sexual. Unfortunately, I wanted it to progress to sexual. I was horny as hell. There was just a disconnect between my wants and my ability to express them. These fucking guys were either too clueless or too respectful to pick up on my hints. Well that, and also I was incapable of hinting... Annoying!
Anyway, on the night in question, the gang had invited me to a party at the huge house 5 or 6 of them lived in together. It was a good time and I had had a few drinks, and it was the day after two late shifts at the restaurant, so I laid down on the couch and dozed off.
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Back to now. The guy--I don't know who, and never will--was crawling his fingers toward my pussy. He gently wiggled them around til he found the space between my pussy lips that led to my opening. I wasn't wet yet, and he could tell. I felt him retract his fingers and heard him put them in his mouth, slobbering all over them, coating them with his saliva. When he brought them back to me they slid into my cunt so smoothly that I started to get wet on my own.
He still thought I was asleep.
Again he withdrew his fingers to his mouth, but this time he must have lubed up his own dick with his spit, because that was the next thing I felt. A warm fleshy bulb, pushing, insisting, finally finding my pussy entrance, and working its way in. Slowly. Gently. I could tell he didn't want to disturb me too much, lest I wake up. His breath was trembling and I could practically hear his heart racing. He was being a sneaky little rapist, and I loved it. My cunt got instantly hot and wet as he wormed his dick into me. It was so hard not to react to it and give myself away. I had to focus and lay still and let him use me. It didn't take long for the wrongness of his actions to make him cum. He was trying so hard not to get caught. Just a few slow, furtive strokes in and out of a (to his knowledge) unconscious girl made him blow his load. I did appreciate how he held his dick still inside me so I could feel the throbbing of his ejaculation. Again, it was a challenge not to buck my hips back against him. I felt the pulsing subside as he finished emptying his balls into me. When he was done, I could hear the panic in his breathing again. He was still terrified of getting caught. He very slowly pulled out his dick, lifted himself off the couch, and pulled up his jeans. I felt his fingers slide my panties back up my ass and pull my skirt down. What a gentleman! He tiptoed his way out of the room.
When I was sure he was gone, I slipped my hand down the front of my underwear and stroked my clit which was now slick with his cum oozing out of my pussy. I fingered myself furiously and in less than a minute gave myself a mind-melting orgasm. I managed not to moan, but my body shuddered uncontrollably. It was the best sex I'd ever had.
I didn't cum while he fucked me, but what I got instead was better. Now I had what I needed. I had A Move.
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The best I'd ever had? Really? Unfortunately, yeah. I got my v-card punched when I was 18, and as it is for most girls, it wasn't great. He was just a guy from a dating app (I lied about may age). I wanted to get it over with, and I didn't want it to be special. And oh boy did I get what I wanted. I met a random older guy (who also definitely lied about his age) for coffee, and then drove him in my mom's minivan to a poorly- lit suburb street and let him take it. He climbed on top of me and put his stumpy dick in my vagina with no foreplay. He grunted and shoved it in. It wasn't even fully in before he came. Just a few shallow thrusts that hurt the whole time. He smelled like celery. I drove him home and was just glad it was over with.
Sometime later that year I had a "boyfriend". He was actually more like a guy who just wanted to fuck me for a few weeks. He was always selfish and wouldn't even touch me with his hands while he used my pussy to activate orgasms for himself. I thought if I let him do it enough, eventually he would like me. He never did. He eventually ghosted me.
Sex seemed like a weird puzzle to solve. I wanted it, desired it, but so far it wasn't good. I hadn't even been able to do it enough to figure out what pleased me. I was so horny, but had to rely on my hands and toys.
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