HER STORY
Through the glass of the shower cubicle, you watch your husband cleaning his teeth. God, how you fucking despised him. Married for 17 years, you are annoyed by everything he does. The way he eats his food, the way he breathes; it just pisses you right off. As the water flows over you, you close your eyes and are taken aback by just how strong your feelings have become.
It wasn't too bad when the kids were still in the house, but the youngest one left for college about two months ago. Now it is just the two of you left, rattling around your suburban house constantly tripping up over each other. Thank fuck he's still at work during the day, but you've realised, come 5.30, you are reaching for a glass of wine, the first of many, just to get you through the evening.
It wasn't always like this. You were childhood sweethearts, madly in love, couldn't keep your hands off each other. But that's another thing that's died with time. You can't remember the last time you had sex. Maybe that's why you are so annoyed, maybe it is frustration. It is that time of the month when anything could turn you on.
You reach for the shampoo and lather up your hair. Married young before you were 20, it was a rushed affair so you could walk down the aisle before you started showing. You love your kids beyond anything and wouldn't change them for the world, but you look back and think about your lost youth. While your friends were out partying and going off to college, you were stuck in the house raising a young kid. Then it was suddenly two kids.
You rinse your hair. You see your husband has finished his teeth, he bends over to rinse his mouth direct from the tap. You can't hear it over the shower, but you know he's making a big slurping noise. Why can't he use a glass like everyone else? You see him flick off his boxer shorts and almost but not quite get them in the hamper and then walk over to the bed. What a dick.
After your second kid, your memory just kind of becomes a blur of school runs, piano recitals, and shopping trips. Your husband started working late and you suppose it was around this time you lost your physical connection. Not that it was every really satisfactory. He worked late often, trying to avoid you and the kids. He said he was working hard to support the family financially, but you know it was just to keep away from the house.
You turn the shower off and let the water drip from you. God it is hot. It is the height of summer and far too warm to wear night clothes. Not that being naked in bed next to your husband will do much good. You're both good looking, you have kept your figure and you have some really nice breasts if you do say so yourself. Not that your figure every really got your husband hot and bothered. He never initiated sex. He was very sexually passive and you could go for several months without having sex and even then, you had to initiate something.
What a limped dicked pussy. You are surprised by the thought as the last of the water runs down your body between your legs and on to the shower tray. Fuck, you are getting even more frustrated. You step out but don't reach for a towel, instead you enjoy the sensation of the air drying your skin in the hot temperature. You clean your teeth. Your husband has left small specks of tooth paste on the sink. You feel your anger rising. How fucking difficult is it to wipe down after cleaning your teeth? Your eyes wander over the hamper where his boxer shorts lay next to it. Your anger bubbles up intensely.
Months, you think. It must be months since he last fucked you. Well, you could hardly call it a fucking. Lights off, silence, limited if no foreplay. A perfunctory grind in the missionary position, then roll over and go to sleep. The story of your sex life for last two decades. Not that you've ever told him how you feel. You want something more... well, you're not sure. Just a little bit more excitement would be a start. But how can you raise something like that with your husband, when he thinks exciting sex means leaving the lights on?
You look at yourself in the bathroom mirror. Closely trimmed pubic hair, check. Smooth legs, check. Smooth pits, check. Despite your hatred for your husband, and the unsatisfying sex, you like to keep yourself tidy and an attempt to illicit some sort of sexual response. But tonight you're going to have to make something happen rather than wait for him to make a move. You are just too turned on now but it's a weird turned on, mixed with strong anger, and hatred.
You put on your best swagger and walk into the bed room. Hair wet and tussled around you. Your husband is on his work phone, tapping away. He doesn't even lift his head when you enter the room. That was it. Your anger bubbles over and overflows.
"Put your fucking boxers in the hamper. How fucking difficult is it?" Jesus, your tone even surprised yourself.
He looks up at you. Good you got his attention.
"Whatever". It was low, flat and dismissive. What a dick. He didn't even put his phone down.
"Don't you dare fucking dismiss me like that. And rinse the sink after you've cleaned your teeth. I have to clean your fucking mess up". You are starting to get red faced with the anger.
Nothing that time. Or was there. Maybe a little wry smile, maybe you saw the corner of his mouth turn up slightly. In the heat he is laid there naked, no cover or duvet over him. You look at his body. Damn you need a fucking, tonight.
"Put your fucking phone down... You pussy." You shock yourself. You've never gone this far before. Maybe it was because he was smirking at you, or was he, you already can't remember. Your husband tosses his phone onto the bed side cabinet and raises his head.
"What did you say?"
"You heard me". You're committed now. You raise a hand and point aggressively. You see his eyes wander over your breasts. "You pussy." This must bring some reaction.
"I think you need to calm down." He said. Jesus, if it is one thing that will tip an angry woman over the edge it is telling them to calm down. You start to sweat slightly.
"Calm... fucking... down! How can I be calm, when I have a limped fucking dicked husband that couldn't fuck his way out of a paper bag leaving all his shit everywhere for me to clean up" Wow. Where did that come from? You've never said anything like this before and you get the feeling lines are being crossed. God, the anger, the hatred, it was all flowing out. And with it you were getting turned on even more. Your chest reddens up and you flush.
He shakes his head at you dismissively. "Fuck off" he says as he stands up and makes for the door. He is clearly riled. "I'm sleeping on the couch. We'll talk about this tomorrow when you are calmer."