I went in the office for my second appointment. I'm not sure why I went, the first appointment was definitely not what I was expecting at all. Did I enjoy it? Yes. Did it make me uncomfortable? Also yes. But I did feel so good afterwards, like I could take on the world. For two days my productivity at work and at home increased, but as the week went on I went back to feeling like usual. Stressed, detached, depressed. I wanted more though, I wanted that powerful feeling to last. I also loved the feeling of being attended to, taken care of by someone other than myself. However, they did rape me... technically I signed a consent, but still. Obviously I had conflicted feelings about the whole thing; I didnt know what to think.
Dr. Clark had given me "homework" for the week in between appointments. I had every intention of doing it... Getting myself off every day with "anal stimulation" as he put it. But when I went to do it, I was scared. It felt good when he did it, but I was terrified of the initial pain. I couldn't do that to myself. I did get myself off once with the vibrator they gave me, it felt pretty good. Not as good as getting stuffed full of Dr. Clark though. After that I was just too busy. I was sure I could just lie to him if he asked... Even if I didn't, how bad could it be?
The same women from before called me back into the clinic room. She gave me the same instructions to undress and use a sheet to cover myself. I was shaking, with nervousness and desire. I could already feel myself getting wet and my nipples were hard. The sheet brushing against them sent tingles down my spine.
Dr. Clark entered the room with just one nurse, Olivia. "Welcome back Ms. Brooks, good to see you. Kate isn't here today so it's just Olivia and I. I hope this past week was good for you and you completed the home treatment." As he sat down, I admired him. He was older than the other guys I've dated but much more attractive. A little gray at his temples and through his beard, but he still looked like he was in his prime. Tall and fit. He looked up at me expectantly.
"Umm yeah my week was good, I did what you asked." I looked between him and the nurse furtively. Guess I was going with the "lie" option.
"Hmm well, how have you been feeling this week?" He asked.
"Fine, just been busy with work. Honestly, I've been kind of stressed"
"Interesting, if you really did continue your home treatment, you shouldn't be feeling that stressed. What's been going on at work?"
"Oh just a big project coming up due. Drama with my co-workers. The usual." I glanced down at my lap and told myself to stop fidgeting.
He glanced at my hands and back up to my face. "Okay, and how were your climaxes at home? Were they satisfying?"
At least I could answer this question honestly. "Um they were okay, but they weren't as... Um.. satisfying as before..."
He frowned "Before?"
"Yeah, you know... My last appointment." It was hard to admit it to him, but it was the truth. I felt myself blush.
He looked at me pointedly. "And why do you think that is Ms. Brooks?"
"Ummm, well...." I looked at him through my lashes "well... It just felt a lot better with you inside of me." He was the one to break eye contact this time, clearing his throat and shifting in his seat. I hoped that had an effect on him, he certainly had effected me.
"I see. Well I hope you followed through with the other part of your homework, let's check shall we? Take off the sheet, I need you to stand at the edge of the table and lean over it please." He had a stern look on his face and I was now very nervous. He couldn't be able to tell that I lied, could he?
I did as he said and leaned over the table, my ass was on display and I felt him step up behind me. I heard the snap of gloves.
"Olivia, can you come spread her open for me?"
I felt her spread my ass and labia open for him to see all of me and then felt him pushing and prodding my sensitive tissue. I felt so vulnerable and exposed in this position, but apparently my body liked it because I felt my arousal growing. He ran his finger over my clit and I gasped. Then he was in my pussy, feeling around. It was definitely an examination, but he was prodding just the right places. He pulled out and then I felt his finger, covered in my natural lubricant, start prodding my ass. He pushed and he was inside me. I gasped, I felt my whole body tense up. It burned like fire.
"Tsk, tsk. Ms. Brooks you are just as tight as you were last week. I think that you lied to me. I'm very disappointed. I'm trying to help you, but I can't do that if you don't help yourself. You need to know that listening to my instructions is not optional. We will need to loosen you again before we start your second treatment. Up on the table and feet in the stirrups." He sounded so annoyed with me, I felt really bad.
"I'm sorry, I was just so busy and I was scared it was going to hurt... I will listen, I promise" I explained as I moved on to the table.
"Oh I'm sure you will Ms. Brooks. Now scoot your bottom all the way down... Good, thank you. Olivia can you get the straps?"
"Oh Dr. Clark I'm okay, I won't fight you this time" I smiled weakly at him.
He looked at me with a frown and then they ignored me. Olivia put the straps over my feet, waist, shoulders and wrists like I didn't even say anything. Maybe it was just policy?
"Thanks Olivia, now we'll begin."
His finger, once again, entered my ass. I jerked and tensed and he sighed. I tried to relax, but again, it's hard to do. He started massaging me, one finger inside and the rest of his hand on my cheeks. The pain subsided and I relaxed. He repeated this until he had three fingers in me. Still massaging and moving slowly in and out. It was starting to feel really good and I let a moan slip out.
"Mmmm, Dr. Clark"
His eyes met mine and I couldn't read is expression.
"Good, Ms. Brooks. Even without practice, you did a much better job of relaxing. Now we are going to move on. Olivia, a size 4 please"
Olivia started rubbing lube all over a dildo, she then handed it to Dr. Clark as he pulled out of me. I felt the silicone tip press in past my sphincter and I tensed up.
"Ms. Brooks, please relax again... Good." And he pushed it deeper inside. After the burning subsided, he started fucking my ass with it. Waves of pleasure and pain started washing over me. A part of me felt ashamed, letting a doctor do this dirty thing to my ass; but a bigger part of me felt free. I took a deep breath and let that ashamed part go, I relished the feeling of it. A tensed up part of my heart that I didn't even know was there, opened up. I felt like I was living in the moment for the first time in a long time.
Dr. Clark nodded to Olivia and she came up beside me and placed one hand on my tit and started squeezing.
