I sat in the waiting room nervous and excited. My friend had recommended this clinic to me after I told her that I felt there was maybe something wrong with my hormones. Sex just hasn't felt as good and I've been depressed lately. She told me that she had gone to this new doctor and he's really helped her feel better and more confident without the use of medication. Which is amazing, sign me up. However, she didn't really give me any details about the treatment and just told me that it wasn't that painful and that they were very professional. Which is why I'm so nervous, going into a situation I know nothing about.
"Ms. Brooks?"
A woman called my name and I followed her to a room.
"Everything off please, and you may cover yourself with the sheet on the table."
I look to her uncertain. "Oh, I didn't know I'd need to be undressed for this".
"We are very thorough here and the treatment requires it, the doctor will explain everything when he comes in. Now please undress and be ready on the exam table, he'll be here shortly" she was kind, but firm as she walked out.
I felt slightly uncomfortable but who am I to question the doctor. Plus they probably saw in my chart that I was having sexual issues, so they probably needed to just look and check to make sure everything was okay.
After five minutes of waiting on the cold table, there was a knock and the doctor and two nurses walked in.
"Hello Ms. Brooks how are you today? I'm Dr. Clark, and these are my nurses. Kate and Olivia" he pointed to the young nurses. I couldn't help but notice they were both very attractive.
"I'm going to be examining you and hopefully starting your treatment. Tell me what's been going on."
The nurses looked to be in their late twenties, early thirties and the Doctor I'd put in his mid forties. He was handsome, but far older than the men that usually caught my eye. I looked at him sitting at his desk, he looked very professional. All business.
"Umm well" I stammered nervously. "I haven't really felt like myself lately, the past few months I've felt depressed and haven't enjoyed the things I usually do. Also... Um... Sex hasn't been great and I just don't really feel like it's even worth the effort."
"Well Ms. Brooks I'm sorry you've had such a hard time, hopefully we can get you feeling better. I'm going to ask you a few questions and they might seem unorthodox to you, but remember, we are professionals and there's no judgement here." He gave me a small smile.
"Umm okay, go ahead" my head spinning, wondering what in the world he's going to ask me.
"Great, now when was the last time you've had sexual intercourse with another person?"
"Uh maybe it's been about six months?"
"Okay, now how often do you masturbate?"
My eyes widened, "....well, not very often..."
"Ms. Brooks I don't want to make you uncomfortable, but I need to know a precise number so I can give you an accurate diagnosis and treatment plan." He told me sternly.
What the fuck kind of treatment plan requires knowing how often I do THAT!?
"Uh I guess I haven't done it in about a month and it was probably two months from the last time? I used to do it more but, it really hasn't been.. ahem... Satisfying."
"Thank you, yes I understand and we have a lot of patients with similar stories that we treat here. However, you are younger than our typical patient.. has there been anything traumatizing or difficult that you have experienced in the last year?"
Now this, this is the question I was expecting.
"Yeah, actually I had been dating a guy for about two years. After we graduated from college I found out he had been cheating on me with our good friend. I do feel like I'm over it but things just haven't been the same."
"I see, yes I'm sure that was very hard." He gave me an empathic look. "Okay just a few more questions and we can get started. Are you attracted to just men or men and women?"
"I don't know why you're asking me this..." I glanced over to the two nurses standing patiently by the door.
"It's a simple question with a simple answer Ms. Brooks." He was all business, there was no arguing with him.
"Fine, I am attracted to women but I've never dated one or anything"
"Okay thank you. Last question, have you ever enjoyed or done any anal play?"
If I had been taking a drink, I would have spewed it all over him. Why the hell would he need to know that!? Also who in their right mind enjoys things being shoved in their ass!?
"No! Never! I have never done anything like that." It was ridiculous, like I didn't already feel embarrassed sitting naked on a table with a sheet wrapped around me in front of three people, I had to answer humiliating questions about my sex life. I knew my face was bright red.
"It's okay Ms. Brooks, I appreciate your honesty with us." He stood up from his small desk and walked over to me. "So, I'm going to conduct an exam now and I need you to put your feet in the stirrups here.. good now scoot your bottom all the way down to the edge... farther... farther....a little more.. good job. Now Kate will you take Ms. Brooks sheet off?"
