I sat in the waiting room nervous and excited. My friend had recommended this clinic to me after I told her that I felt there was maybe something wrong with my hormones. Sex just hasn't felt as good and I've been depressed lately. She told me that she had gone to this new doctor and he's really helped her feel better and more confident without the use of medication. Which is amazing, sign me up. However, she didn't really give me any details about the treatment and just told me that it wasn't that painful and that they were very professional. Which is why I'm so nervous, going into a situation I know nothing about.
"Ms. Brooks?"
A woman called my name and I followed her to a room.
"Everything off please, and you may cover yourself with the sheet on the table."
I look to her uncertain. "Oh, I didn't know I'd need to be undressed for this".
"We are very thorough here and the treatment requires it, the doctor will explain everything when he comes in. Now please undress and be ready on the exam table, he'll be here shortly" she was kind, but firm as she walked out.
I felt slightly uncomfortable but who am I to question the doctor. Plus they probably saw in my chart that I was having sexual issues, so they probably needed to just look and check to make sure everything was okay.
After five minutes of waiting on the cold table, there was a knock and the doctor and two nurses walked in.
"Hello Ms. Brooks how are you today? I'm Dr. Clark, and these are my nurses. Kate and Olivia" he pointed to the young nurses. I couldn't help but notice they were both very attractive.
"I'm going to be examining you and hopefully starting your treatment. Tell me what's been going on."
The nurses looked to be in their late twenties, early thirties and the Doctor I'd put in his mid forties. He was handsome, but far older than the men that usually caught my eye. I looked at him sitting at his desk, he looked very professional. All business.
"Umm well" I stammered nervously. "I haven't really felt like myself lately, the past few months I've felt depressed and haven't enjoyed the things I usually do. Also... Um... Sex hasn't been great and I just don't really feel like it's even worth the effort."
"Well Ms. Brooks I'm sorry you've had such a hard time, hopefully we can get you feeling better. I'm going to ask you a few questions and they might seem unorthodox to you, but remember, we are professionals and there's no judgement here." He gave me a small smile.
"Umm okay, go ahead" my head spinning, wondering what in the world he's going to ask me.
"Great, now when was the last time you've had sexual intercourse with another person?"
"Uh maybe it's been about six months?"
"Okay, now how often do you masturbate?"
My eyes widened, "....well, not very often..."
"Ms. Brooks I don't want to make you uncomfortable, but I need to know a precise number so I can give you an accurate diagnosis and treatment plan." He told me sternly.
What the fuck kind of treatment plan requires knowing how often I do THAT!?
"Uh I guess I haven't done it in about a month and it was probably two months from the last time? I used to do it more but, it really hasn't been.. ahem... Satisfying."
"Thank you, yes I understand and we have a lot of patients with similar stories that we treat here. However, you are younger than our typical patient.. has there been anything traumatizing or difficult that you have experienced in the last year?"
Now this, this is the question I was expecting.
"Yeah, actually I had been dating a guy for about two years. After we graduated from college I found out he had been cheating on me with our good friend. I do feel like I'm over it but things just haven't been the same."
"I see, yes I'm sure that was very hard." He gave me an empathic look. "Okay just a few more questions and we can get started. Are you attracted to just men or men and women?"
"I don't know why you're asking me this..." I glanced over to the two nurses standing patiently by the door.
"It's a simple question with a simple answer Ms. Brooks." He was all business, there was no arguing with him.
"Fine, I am attracted to women but I've never dated one or anything"
"Okay thank you. Last question, have you ever enjoyed or done any anal play?"
If I had been taking a drink, I would have spewed it all over him. Why the hell would he need to know that!? Also who in their right mind enjoys things being shoved in their ass!?
"No! Never! I have never done anything like that." It was ridiculous, like I didn't already feel embarrassed sitting naked on a table with a sheet wrapped around me in front of three people, I had to answer humiliating questions about my sex life. I knew my face was bright red.
"It's okay Ms. Brooks, I appreciate your honesty with us." He stood up from his small desk and walked over to me. "So, I'm going to conduct an exam now and I need you to put your feet in the stirrups here.. good now scoot your bottom all the way down to the edge... farther... farther....a little more.. good job. Now Kate will you take Ms. Brooks sheet off?"
The nurse went to grab it and and I instinctively clutched it to my chest. I knew they were going to do an exam, but didn't I deserve a shred of privacy? My ass was just about falling off the table and my pussy was spread open, for fucks sake.
"It's okay honey, just give me the sheet so the doctor can get a good look at what you've got going on. We aren't here to hurt you." Kate put a comforting hand on my shoulder and I felt safe looking in her eyes. I really felt like she would take care of me. I let her take the sheet and she kept her hand on my shoulder, giving it a squeeze.
My nipples were so hard from the cold, they were sticking straight up, double their normal size. The doctor came around to the opposite side of the table and looked at my face, not even glancing at my breasts displayed in front of him.
"Now Ms. Brooks, I'm going to do a standard exam with a few variations. I promise this won't hurt but you may feel uncomfortable. It's standard that we use straps to hold you still so that I can perform the exam effectively and you don't hurt yourself by moving. Is that okay?"
I looked at Kate on the other side of me and she gave me an encouraging smile with a nod. I knew that she had my back. I nodded my head and the other nurse came around and helped the doctor strap my legs to the stirrups, put a strap over my hip bones, a strap over my chest and shoulders and then finally soft padded cuffs went around my wrists.
My heart was beating rapidly and I was so scared. I knew he said it wouldn't hurt but I didn't understand why all of this was necessary. Still, it's not like I was alone with him and we were in a clinic, there were other people around.
"Olivia, can you check the patient's vitals?"
Olivia came over and took my heart rate, blood pressure and temperature. She made a tsk sound. "Doctor her heart rate and blood pressure are high, can I give her something?" He waved his hand as a go ahead while he typed into the computer. She pulled a syringe out and said "okay hun, this will just pinch a little, it's just something that will help your nerves" I nodded again. I think I needed something anyway, I was feeling pretty anxious. She injected it into my arm and I immediately felt my body relax. It felt... Good. Everything was a little fuzzy around the edges but I was still aware of everything.
"Now Ms. Brooks I'm going to begin by doing a breast exam. I'm going to be dictating my notes to Olivia so she can type them up for me."
He walked back over while putting on exam gloves as Olivia moved to the computer.
Now he was staring at my breasts, but it was all assessment, no hint of desire. Then he started touching me. He palmed each of my breasts, like he was sizing them. Then he started to knead them while he explained that he was checking for any abnormalities. I couldn't help but start to get aroused. Being in that room so exposed and someone massaging my tits, it was embarrassing but erotic.
"Olivia, good size, more than a handful. No lumps."
Why did they need to chart how big my breasts were??
"Now Ms. Brooks I need to test your nipple sensitivity"
He started slowly rolling my nipples, then increased the pressure until he was pinching both of them... Hard. I gasped and tried to move away. I couldn't tell if it was pain or pleasure that was making me react.
"Good job, you are doing so great." He looked at Olivia. "Nipple sensitivity high" he looked back to me. "Now Kate is going to continue breast stimulation while I continue my examination. It will help make my job easier." Kate took over and looked at me.
"You're doing so great honey" Kate reassured me.