My eyes were filled with tears as I lay alone on the ground. Two of the most important loves in my life have been lost to me. Both my unborn child and my husband. Where am I and how can I get back to my own home? My heart is racing.
My hands instinctively touch my stomach, sending me back into a screeching cry. I feel warmth on my back as I hunch over. It's his hand. As he swipes his finger across my back, he tries to comfort me in some way. In my grief, I howl, but the motion only continues on my back. This gives me a strange sense of comfort. I was brought to silence even though it was not enough to compensate for my grief. I hear his voice as he continues to pet my head and along my hair.
"He is in good hands. The child."
Turning quickly, I stare into those golden eyes. A sobering shock hits me.
"Where is he? Where is my son?"
As I stand up and grab his arm, I am thrown onto the bed in just the same amount of time. My face begins to shake and tears fall again.
"Where is my husband?"
Silence.
I say it louder this time."Where. Is. My. Husband?!"
Silence. It's only this time that a hand reaches out to my face and wipes away the tear that is forming in my eye. When I look into his eyes and comprehend this gesture, I sob. The feeling is palpable in my chest. At least I feel the absence in my chest.