Author's Note:
This is a continuation of
The Debt
, a story I wrote at the request of a Pakistani girl living in London. "Dhipa" was young, very beautiful, married, and from a highly respected and wealthy family in London's Pakistani community, and she specifically asked for a story in which she would be sexually and
ethnically
degraded and made to dress and act like a whore. In other words, she fantasized about doing all those things which were forbidden her by her culture. She also requested that she appear this way before her four brothers, so there is a semi-incestuous incident in the story as well
I say all this so that I can disavow myself of the ethnic slurs that appear in this story, and stress that these were put in by request.
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As soon as she entered the room she knew she was in trouble. Big trouble. Lights went on, big lights like spotlights, and they hit her like a fist. She was blinded by their ferocious glare, and she crumpled slightly, turned her face and raised her arms to protect herself as if she'd been struck.
Somewhere behind the painful glare the Doctor was sitting, watching her, and he was angry. He'd been angry at her before, but she'd always managed to talk or flirt her way out of it, but this was different. This was the big one, and she'd been fearing it, trying to postpone it even while she'd known it was coming.
The lights were something new though. He'd never used anything this extreme before, and they worked. She was quite intimidated.
"You've been quite a disappointment to me, Dhipa." the Doctor said from somewhere out beyond the glare of the lights.
She squinted out towards the sound of the voice. She knew she was in his office on the second floor of his town house; she'd been there many times before. But for all she could see she'd might as well be on the surface of the sun.
"Quite a disappointment." the voice went on, smooth and measured.
"I'd had high hopes for you, Dhipa. I thought you'd be one of my stars, one of my premier girls. I took you in, gave you nice clothes, a place to live, set you up with only the best clients, and yet I keep on getting these negative reports about you. How do you explain it?"
She shielded her eyes from the lights but still couldn't see him. "I don't know." she said.
"I'm sorry? What did you say?"
"I said 'I don't know'."
There was an unnerving silence. Dhipa began to perspire under the merciless lights. The white blouse and black skirt which had seemed too thin for the London chill just a few minutes ago now felt suffocating, and she drops of perspiration rolled down her back. She knew that the bright lights made her body visible under the thin clothes she wore. It was if she stood there naked before him, sweating with fear.
She looked about her for somewhere to sit down, some shelter from the light, but she could see nothing, not even the door she'd just come through. She was lost in the blaze of brightness that pounded her like a physical force.
"I heard from your last client, Mr. Jenkins." The voice said. "He was very dissatisfied with your services, Dhipa, did you know that?. Very dissatisfied. I had to refund his entire fee. He's a very loyal customer and I can not afford to lose his business. He said you were of no use to him whatsoever. That you just sat there like a frightened school girl. He hadn't hired a frightened school girl. That's not what he paid me for. Were you aware that he was dissatisfied?"
"The lights, Doctor… Can you turn down the lights?"
The voice came roaring back "I asked you if you knew that he was dissatisfied with you, you little slut! Now I want an answer!"
"Yes…No, I… Doctor I can't think…"
"You'd fucking better well think, you worthless cunt or you'll have a hell of a lot more than lights to worry about! You're costing me money you Paki tramp! And you've damned near cost me business. And
that
I will not fucking have!"
Dhipa cowered at his words. She was helpless in the lights, which just seemed to be getting brighter and hotter, till they were like a buzzing in her head.
"I'm sorry… I… I just…"
"Just what, whore?" he demanded. "Say it! You just what? What is your fucking problem, Dhipa?"
"I just can't get excited by these men. I…They…" her voice trailed off as she searched for words.
Silence.
"You just can't get excited." he repeated slowly. "
You
can't get excited."
He slammed something down on the desk, something heavy and threatening and loud. The sound made her jump.
"What do you fucking think this is?" he roared. "A fucking