Chapter One; Back In The Mix
"These sessions are only going to work if you're open ... not just open to sharing but open to cooperating and working with me Jack."
Jack looked up from his black brogues, straightening the sleeve of his suit jacket as he looked up at her sat on the leather chair opposite of him.
Her left leg crossed over her right, the dark denier stretched across her knees and the hem of her charcoal grey skirt pulled down her thigh. A royal blue fitted blouse completed her ensemble.
He met her piercing blue eyes as she stared into him, no doubt trying to second guess him. Her face was attractive, very attractive. Her shoulder length black hair today pulled back off her face.
"I think this was always a danger," she broke the silence that had built uncomfortably between them. "Us knowing one another prior to this ... perhaps it's not a good idea."
Perhaps she was right Jack mulled as she offered an almost sympathetic smile to him. He'd turned to Jackie Grayson or Jacqueline as her professional name on the other side of the door proclaimed her, not so much out of necessity but for the sake of familiarity. He'd turned to her, in part from knowing her not so much in a cry for help but in a moment of realisation some weeks ago that even at the tender age of 22 his eclectic, chaotic, frantic life was far from normal. Very fucking far from normal.
He wondered if he could be honest with her, then wondered how quickly, if he were to spill the truths of his life, Jackie Grayson would be reaching for her desk phone or mobile which ever was closest to call the Police or the nearest Psychiatric Ward. A string of intense failed relationships, a daughter he now practically shunned as she'd turned out to be his half-sister. Responsible for the deaths of two, albeit less than innocent, people. He was using drink and recreational drugs to fuel his excesses or quell his demons and that was without considering the revelation no one would believe, the truth he still struggled to comprehend. The fact that three months ago his Father who'd been dead for well over two years had suddenly walked back into his life.
"There's something you're not telling me... something you're not letting go of" the Psychiatrist pressed.
'Too fucking right Jackie' he thought to himself.
"Until you're ready to do so we can't make any progress ...and that's why I wonder if I'm better referring you elsewhere."
Jack had approached Jackie only as he'd known her. The former neighbour who in truth he'd not known personally and only knew through Sarah, beyond civil conversations they had never really had any dealings directly with one another until he'd picked up the phone to ask for assistance. He'd turned to her two weeks ago not even sure what had been the trigger that had compelled him. He felt he could trust her though, perhaps she was right perhaps a stranger might be better positioned, easier to talk to and as a result he might be able to confide more in them.
"Let's have you go away and think about it ... schedule an appointment to come back and see me sometime in say ...two weeks' time."
Jack looks to his watch as he nods, realising they've very briefly overrun.
"Ok," he says, "Ok ...and I'm sorry."
"Don't be..." she offered rising and extending her hand. "This isn't an overnight fix."
Jack loosely shook her hand as she walked to the office door with him.
"Have...have you heard from Sarah at all?"
Jack kept a neutral face despite her question, catching him off guard like a hammer to the side of his skull.
"I haven't," he offered sincerely.
"To just leave like that..." Jackie shook her head. "... Felt to me like it all just happened overnight."
"Not quite that swift," Jack lied, although her take on the truth was not all that far from the actual reality. His mind cast back to that early July Saturday and everything that had preceded the night before. Sarah and Sophie simply disappearing like they had confused him now as much as it had three months ago there was no rhyme or reason to their disappearance, no explanation, not even a note. Empty wardrobes and keys left on the side with a contact number for the Landlord of the rented property.
"I miss my Friday night bottles of wine with her if nothing else," Jackie offered on a pensive smile.
I miss so much more than that Jack thought, but again couldn't put those emotions into words for Jackie Grayson either.
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The place is alive.
Three months since the somewhat hostile takeover and it's unrecognisable.
Jamie approaches to my left wearing a sultry grin to match the sultry black leather catsuit her perfect body is squeezed into, the outfit leaving nothing to the imagination. She lifts the mask from her eyes as I stand leant against the bar.
"You're not fooling me..." she says drawing level crossing her arms. "The beard suits you, but no one can pull off a suit quite like you ...I clocked you the minute you walked through the door."
"The only other mask I own might have been too intimidating," I state.
"So, I've heard," I feel her fingers dig me in the ribs without uncrossing her arms.