I grew up in Ballyshannon in the far south of Ireland. Ballyshannon claims to be the oldest town in Ireland. It's situated at the base of the Earne estuary and is pretty cut off - you only go there if you need to go there. This remoteness may well have contributed to the tale I'm about to tell and the life I have lived. I'm Siobhan and my story starts a long time ago, back in the days when the swinging 60's were giving way to what I call the sleazy 70's.
If I say so myself, I was a bright and willing pupil, and did well at school and I eventually qualified for teacher training college where I met Keiron. The college was in Sligo and had pupils from all over Ireland. Keiron and I were introduced because he came from Bundoran, a town really close to Ballyshannon. We hit it off immediately and pretty soon we were an item. The college was residential and strictly divided between the girls' side and the boys. Well, it was supposed to be strictly segregated but you really can't keep boys and girls apart can you? Once Keiron and I had gone beyond the holding hands, kiss at the end of the night to the serious groping and passionate kissing it was only a matter of time before I lost my virginity. In actual fact it was the first time for both of us. It happened one Friday morning when neither of us had lectures but the girls I shared my floor with did.
Before long I was naked with a boy sucking my tits, tentative fingers between my legs. I was forward enough to take his hand in mine and show him what to do and I had a blissful orgasm before he rolled on a condom and then rolled onto me. The lubrication from my orgasm must have helped as there was no pain as he entered me and he must have fucked me for fully 15 seconds before he groaned, stiffened and then collapsed on top of me. That was a long time ago and to be honest, although sex with him was and is always fun, he has never managed to last much longer. He has certainly never managed to bring me to orgasm by penetration. However, his hands and lips have more than made up for that so I'm not really complaining. Once we had done it once we did it a lot. We would pool our meagre allowance to buy condoms, sometimes hard to get and pretty expensive in those days and spend all weekend in bed together when we could. At other times we were forced apart by the strict code governing the college.
I completed two years in Sligo before I received an invitation to go to a college in London for a year to complete my course. I was very nervous at first, and didn't want to leave Keiron, but the opportunity was too good to miss. I had been to Dublin but that was all, London seemed like another universe. I arrived in the summer of 1968 and it was like going from black and white to Technicolor, everything seemed so different. I was sharing a house with three other girls and the looks they gave me when I walked in to meet them in my frumpy dress, buttoned high up to the neck and skirt below the knee was one of pity. They, in contrast, seemed to look like they had just stepped out of the pages of vogue. My parents had given me a little money and they soon helped me to spend some of it in the boutiques, and one of the girls was studying dressmaking and would make us things if we paid for the material. I never thought I looked as glamorous as they did but with my pale skin, green eyes and dark hair I knew that I turned plenty of heads.
I was initially reluctant to go out to parties as I was missing Keiron and as we had already talked about marriage the idea of being with other men seemed wrong. However, I was soon caught up in the mood of the times and started to relax. I'd call Keiron every week and he wrote me heartfelt letters and sent me little gifts. He seemed so innocent compared to the men I was meeting at the parties the girls took me to. The look at the time was moving away from the Mary Quant/Twiggy look to ape the hippies of the American West coast and the 'peace and love' ethos that went with it. In a few short weeks we went from sharp and stylish to soft and flowing in our dress and 'go with the flow' seemed to be the order of the day. For the girls in my house that meant becoming full on 'hippy chicks' buying into the sexual revolution of the pill and the relaxation of inhibitions caused by plentiful wine and the occasional joint. Every morning seemed to bring a new male face at breakfast and a satisfied smile from one of my companions. Despite my reticence and loyalty to Keiron it was at about the third party I went to with the girls, in a rambling house just off the Kings Road, that I surrendered my provincialism to a handsome boy with a posh accent.
Cajoled into a bedroom full of coats I soon had my dress around my waist and my knickers hanging off one ankle as I was subjected to a very rapid fucking, the excitement of which made up for the lack of release for me, although the boy (I was never sure of his name) certainly seemed to appreciate my compliance if the noise he made and the volume of spunk he deposited in me was anything to go by. By the time we had finished my knickers were lost forever in the tangle of coats and I then had a very nervous few days worrying about pregnancy. The obvious answer was the pill, something I could not be prescribed in Ireland. In hindsight I can see that we were being used, manipulated into sex by men who sensed that the changing mood was a great way to fuck as many naΓ―ve girls as possible. As one guy said to me, the role of a 'hippy chick' was to 'put on the (Grateful) dead, get on the bed and spread.'