Hi! My name is Joserlin, Jos amongst friends. I'm 25 and have a half brother Kalin who is 18, and who this story is really about. Coming from a rather conservative household, neither Kalin nor me ever had any idea of what it even meant to be gay, until we were well into high school. Though looking back now, I can see that there was more than one reason that my dad kept that information from us.
Kalin is tall, sort of thin, and has straight black hair that make women (and a lot of men) want to kill for. He also has the type of features that would be termed "delicate" if he was a girl. High cheek bones and that sort of thing. So I guess dad had him figured as being a bit light on his feet from the second he laid eyes on Kal, and as he grew up and became more aware of who he was - even without realizing what he was - it must have been even more evident.
Growing up, I always knew that there was something a bit different about Kalin, also knew that there was something a bit different about the way that dad treated us. After school plays and concerts, the other dads always clapped their kids on the shoulders, hugged them, and congratulated them, things like that. I never saw any of that, and I know Kal didn't, since I was the only one from our house that would go to watch him. He likely hoped that we would be interested in boxing, wrestling - things that would make us "real men".
It likely comes as no surprise to you that with our father's fears, that Kalin and me grew pretty close over the years. Really came to depend and rely on each other for survival. It wasn't a surprise to me when Kalin came home from school one day and wanted to talk. What did surprise me, after we'd gone upstairs to the hall day bed where we could watch for dad coming home, was when he asked me if I'd ever "done it". I looked at him sideways, and hmmm'd and haw'd, but he finally had it out of me that I was still very much an innocent in that regard. There was a minute of silence, and then he whispered,
"I'm not". Kal went on to tell me of how he'd been in the boy's bathroom...
'It was just after the bell had rang to go home for the day. I had stepped in to the boysβ room so I didn't explode on the walk home. As I was standing at the urinal I heard the door open again and some more guys come in, but didn't pay much attention to it. Then I heard a rather ominousβ¦
"Look at this boys! Kalin is hung like a friggin' horse!"
Well, I was startled at that point, to say the least, and I looked up to see Caleb and some of his friends standing there watching me have a piss!
"Whatcha think boys?" Caleb leered "Do we ride ponies?"